LANDO GIRL

Hello all! It's almost the New Year! Wooohooo!
Any plans for New Year's Eve? :P

Anyways let me do some responses before I start rambling...Yeana, I'm gonna have to say, that conversation was legit hilarious...lolll. Wow, Nik does seem very annoyingly (word?) clingy so I would understand why you don't like him anymore. Lol. I'm sorry that things turned out like this :( But it does seem like he has an interest in you know? Idk, or does he just do this to everyone? Because if he does that's kinda weird...Hehehe. >.<
Rosanna! I must say, you do seem happier in your recent post...Idk if it's just the holiday season but I can almost hear your voice, and it sounds more joyful. ^.^ I know you're still busy doing this and that but aren't we all just so thankful for break!? Oh btw, the high does get up to 60s and 70s but in the morning and nights it does get down to 30s and 40s...which is pretty cold for the Floridian since we don't own all the big coats you Northerners have! :P
Tracyyy, I love your vids!! Haha you are sooo adorableee and just seeing you makes me miss our awesome 10 days together. :( I was going to post a video for all you guys but it was an epic fail (unlike Tracy's :P) and so I will try again soon. Hehe.


Anyways...like Yeana's sunny California, Florida is the same...temperature is dropping to a high of 40s this weekend, but the sun will still be shining. I like the Florida cold, I think it suits me. :]
So winter break has been very relaxing. I need to start cracking down on homework and SAT prep though. Ugh. >.<
Miami this past weekend was fun! It's even nicer over there, especially by the beach. :)

Sooo yeah. Hmm what else is new? Certaintly nothing with Travis, but who's minding? Hahaha.
Whatever, I'm confused anyways. I'm starting to have feelings....for one of my Chinese friends. A very close friend of mine. There's a rumor that he likes me...and well...we've been talking a lot this break. We normally talk a lot. We like the same stuff (currently watching the same drama :P) and I am always so comfortable with him. I haven't told any of my other friends about this because I don't know what they would say (especially with my "relationship" with Travis right now) and I just don't want to cause any unneccessary drama/worry. So I will keep this to myself. Of course, I'm more physically attracted to Travis...but oh my things are just moving so slowly and like Yeana said, it's bad manners to keep a lady waiting! *sigh* What to do...

Alright, we have people from Massachusetts over...I should go keep them company. Hah.

Love and miss you guys bunches!

<3 WENDY

a quick vid for us all <3

well. this quick vid is rather useless and thus an epic fail.
but i figured i'll leave the results of my procrastination here before i return to homework, and i'll leave a better one around newyears, and also leave a proper reply to you all

LINKAGE


with love to my lovely ladies,
tracy.

p.s. cynthia was in NYC! only for two days though, and our schedules kept conflicting so we couldn't meet /:
darns.

p.p.s. AH. HOW IS IT POSSIBLE THAT HERE I CAN UPLOAD A VIDEO, BUT ON MY OTHER BLOG I CANNOT?! @__@
confused.

Well, hello ladies...

Hey girlies!

I am so sorry that I have not done an actual blog for sometime, life just gets so hectic with school and the holidays right before break. Luckily wednesday was my last day for a while (next Monday to be exact) so I can not go to school, but work on loads of homework (thanks to my APUSH and criminal law classes) and hangout with friends, and work and SLEEP (if that fits into the schdule!) I was looking back over my schedule today, a very booked and filled one for the week a ahead, and I realized, why must I do this to myself? What is wrong with giving myself a break? I don't know the answer to this question, and maybe I never will... some friends here say its becsue I am 'superwoman' (which is not true in the slighest) and some just say 'its because you are rosie' (yes, one of my nicknames fora small group of friends is rosie) -- but regardless, this is a question I want to figure out the answer to before this junior year is over.

I hope that you all had a good holiday with your families. It intrigues me on how crazy and dysfunctional my family is, but at the end of the day, we all love eachother and have so much love... which reminds me - I am going to attempt video messaging all of you on facebook soon... I just got a new laptop for my room and am still trying to figure things out.

Yeana - I am sorry to hear about your computer, but I am glad that you have been getting so much sleep! And I would much rather to have my midterms before break, but honestly some days it is nice to have them at the end of januray because its like a mini-break from school (if you do not have a test, you don't go to school) And I am sorry to hear about Nik, that stinks, but there will be others out there that understand what you are looking for. And I do like long walks in the sun, but what is warm to you? Because up here 50 degrees is short and capri weather....

Wendy - I think the real question is how hot was it when you said it was chilly in LOL? 60? and I am so glad that you and Travis are getting along well, thats so exciting! You must keep us updated! May be hasn't been moving fast because he is afraid it will ruin your realtionship, as moving fast has done to many people in the past, but no matter, he picked a wonderful smart (you did fine on your math final.... don't worry) girl and he is very lucky!

Tracy- Thanks for the facebook video! It was so sweet! And I am glad things are going well, but you need to remember that you are not a burden in your realationship, EVER. And you are most def not a screwup - its your first relationship, and I guess it is natural to feel this way? -- but all you have to do is be yourself! Which is a wonderfully funny smart beautiful person!

Do you guys have any plans for over break? Friends, family, etc...... :)

I got to run, but I lvoe all of you and think about the great 10 days we had together often!

Love,
Rosanna

Azn Sensation :]

Hello my lovely ladies. :]

I have been sleeping in since Monday and it's a glorious feeling.

To Tracy: Relax, babe. I'm not much more experienced than you but I can tell you that you don't need to do anything to make things feel "right" other than chill. The biggest mistake I see being made in many relationships is that people will act differently out of the relationship than in it. If he compares you to his previous girlfriends, then that's just messed up and I will kidnap you and bring you to California and feed you chocolates...and you can bask in the sun. Yes, it is sunny here today. :]

But really, the girl he likes is YOU and that includes all of your quirks and funny traits. I mean, I love them...how could he not? :P

Wendy: We very nearly had a white Christmas here! Last week it was cold enough that it started snowing inland! Crazy, huh? Of course, I live too close to the bay for that to happen =.= The most I get is hail maybe once every other year.

I'm scared for my grades as well =.= Mother dear removed my laptop from my room T^T I don't know if that will help my grades any, though. I can amuse myself with books just as easily as I can amuse myself on my laptop. :]

Rosanna: We used to take our finals after break as well, but last year the faculty decided to try having them before break and everyone liked it so much that we kept it...but I definitely know how you feel. Freaking out through break is no fun. Tracy, this goes for you as well.

How's the weather over there? I haven't seen a white Christmas since I moved out of Korea 11 years ago. Take pictures and show me~~~Do you have snowball fights? Do you make snowmen? :DDDD There are so many things I would love to do if I lived in the snow, but I have to drive like 4 hours to get to the nearest skiing place, and you can't really play in the snow there. I'm not much of a skiier or boarder. I'd much rather flounder about in the snow and have fun my own way. :]

Anyways, Winter Formal was lots of fun. :] Haley is, as I said, once of my closest friends and he's really fun to be around. Once pictures come out they will be coming your way!!! :DDD

I have decided that Nik is really not the guy for me. :/ I was walking home after my last final last Thursday and I heard someone running behind me so I looked back, and there he was. Our conversation as I remember:
Nik: Hi!
Me: Hi.
Nik: How are you?
Me: Okay.
Nik: Just okay?
Me: Just okay.
Nik: Talk to me.
Me: About what?
Nik: I don't know...just talk to me, Yeana. Just talk.
Me: Wait, about what?
Nik: What's wrong?
Me: Huh?
Nik: Obviously something is wrong. Something's bothering you. Tell me what it is.
Me: O_o
Nik: Did I do something?
Me: What?
Nik: There's been some distance between us. Tell me what's wrong.
Me: What...what? (By now I was thoroughly confused/exasperated/tired/wanting to go home)
Nik: Do you hate me?
Me: What? No!
Nik: YOU HATE ME.
Me: . . .
Nik: Can I have a hug? Please? Why do you hate me?
Me: Nik, I don't hate you.
Nik: Really? Then can I have a hug? :DDD
-I was tired. I wanted to go home. I started walking...again.-
Nik: No no wait! See? You hate me!
Me: Nik! I DON'T HATE YOU. Will you please just let me go home?
Nik: Not until you give me a hug.
-at this point two of my friends were walking by. they stared. I saw them and groaned inside. they're kind of known to gossip...a lot.-
Nik: Can I have a hug?
Me: Nik, =.=
(hug)
Nik: :D -walks away-
Me: -feeling like smashing my head against a wall-

=.= I'm kind of...not too happy with him. My clingy-o-meter goes off like mad whenever I see him...and you know my thing about clingy guys. I am NOT looking forward to seeing him at school when it starts again.

Blehhh.

When I said I wanted to have a boyfriend I didn't mean that I wanted the nearest guy to come clinging on to me. *sob*

Wendy, hang in there! I'd say give it about...idk. 2 more weeks? Now that you've waited this long, I want to see you happily in a relationship. But things do be seem to be taking a while. No matter how perfect he wants things, he shouldn't forget that he has a lady waiting for him...and it's bad manners to keep a lady waiting.

All three of you need to come to California. We'll lay in the sun and take long walks everywhere. :]

Love you lots.
-Yeans

i would first like to say is that i rather screwed up. XD

i decided that after that incident with my blog and such, i kinda neglected it and just posted posts here <3 

well, i was on it yesterday

and i really just meant to mention you guys a bit....but then i got carried away and it turned into a full on NSLC nostalgia post XDXD

SO HERES THE LINK, CAUSE ITS ACTUALLY A POST!! :D

so my lovely ladies, happy holidays C:

to my lovely rosanna, NO WORRIES. i'll grab it from them when i'm not feeling too lazy..hah.

i'd also like to mention that my exams are after break as well > A <

and i've FINALLY signed up to take the SATs in january. gah >__<

wendywendywendywendy

MIAMI? O:!! WHOAS.

that seems rather awesome :D

also, about TRAVIS.

HRMS.

i'll admit, it does seem incredibly sweet how he seems like such a romantic, and yet at the same time it does seem like a rather wimpy excuse....

after all, YOU AGREED TO GO ON DATES WITH HIM. I THINK IT'S BEEN AFFIRMED THAT YOU LIKE HIM =__=

ALSO--> school is taking over for me too /:

But Lovely Wendy, don't forget. you're drop dead gorgeous. i'm not kidding. so relax. no need to give up on love or anything

but have confidence in how beautiful you are (:

I must say, thing between us are going swimmingly, but the things happening around us are not >__<

Since we're in different years and such, it's normal for us not to have any classes together >__<>

and he's a good student and he wants me to be a good student (...i try...) so "our" time is the hour long train ride

and that's about it 'cause we take different buses back home ]:

i suppose in the long run this is actually a good thing 'cause i'd probably get carried away and hang out much too much with him after school

and i'd get home late practically every day if it weren't for him =__=

but

i hate to say this

but i'm much like a rabbit.

when rabbits get too lonely, they die.

when i get too lonely, i just get really...sad TT_TT

^BUT I FEEL LIKE SUCH A BURDEN D: <--and i sound like one too =__=

i guess, it's just that this is the first time i've said yes when a guy asked me out and all

and i really like him

and i'm not his first girlfriend or anything so i get insecure and nervous that i might do something wrong

cause guys, i'm rather...uneducated.

you know how you (wendy (: ) mentioned how in middle school it was all "i like you lets hold hands"

first of all, i seem to develope slower than everyone else.

in middle school, i barely talked to guys. i just preferred talking to girls O: the rare friendship that i had with the occassional guy didn't always end well /: (though i got on amiably with my friends' boyfriends and such)

anyways.

and in highschool i befriended them much more easily, but those awkward moments when your friend asks you out

yeah

i'm not like you guys. i'm rather mean

one time it was over aim

and i laughed it off with them, saying cruel things like "that's not funny" or "dont play around like that, hahhah" etc etc

and the guy would laugh it off too, taking it as a no and such ):

and when they asked me in person

er

well

they're my friend and all

and they're awesome and everything

but i'm rather naiive ): and i didn't get that special feeling from them so i always rejected them >__>

So this is my first relationship

and i'm somewhat terrified that i'll screw up

incredibly nervous

and. i really. really like this guy. so i'm rather afraid that i'll end up hurt ]:

OHMEOHMYS

my friends are here so i'm signing off

and continuing later

cause there are things i can talk about with you guys

and just not

yeah

love

always.

LANDO GIRL!

Hey guys!!

It's so great that we are all on break now :]
How have you guys been?!! I feel like we haven't been in touch lately...

I am just glad exams are outta the way...Rosanna it sucks that you have yours after break :(
Oh my it was such a tough semester!! I really need to get my crap together for 3rd quarter...there were wayyy too many close calls! Anyways, school is OVER for two weeks and I am ESTATIC. :]

Things will Travis are moving very very slowly...the date was great! And lately we've been hanging out a lot, talking a lot. He hasn't asked me to be his girlfriend so I've been wanting to give up on him. Recently I've been so overwhelmed with school and other stuff that I've kinda put my social/love life aside...I've realized that I really need to focus what is important in my life right now. That doesn't mean that I don't want a relationship with Travis, because I do! It's just that I don't want to eventually get hurt at the end so I guess I'm trying not delve myself any deeper in this "relationship" I have with him. I guess we are "dating" but we are certainly not "together". I wish it was as simple as those middle school days..."I like you, you like me, let's hold hands!" But noooo now it's all complicated...*sigh* But anyways, I felt like I needed some advice on this so I talked to one of his best friends who just so happens to be a good friend of mine as well. I told him I was about to give up when he told me not to...Apparently Travis likes everything to be perfect. And he's a romantic, so he is waiting for the right time to ask me to be his girlfriend. He wants me to "feel" something from it, he doesn't want to just rush into things and for it to be meaningless...
Talk about sweet, but CMON! Sounds like a wimpy excuse to me. Am I just being insensitive? Lol, idk. But for right now...I am trying not to get so involved. Whatever happens, happens!

Yeana, how was the dance??? I saw your pictures, you looked amazing and you and Haley are too cute together! Hehe. I can sorta understand your situation with Nik...idk sometimes we just KNOW that they're not the right person for us anymore...

Tracy, you sound very happy with your man. :P Lucky you!

And Rosanna...I don't think I did too well on my math final. Lol. I made stupid mistakes, and my teacher is pretty sympathetic when it comes to grading, so hopefully he can overlook that...hahah. I still don't know what my math semester grade will be so let's hope it's an A!

Anyways...I cannot wait until Christmas! Do you guys have any plans? We're going to Miami for the weekend...Oh yes nothing like spending your Christmas in 80 degree weather! Haha...ohh so not cool. >.<
At least it's chilly in no so lovely Land O' Lakes!

:P Can't wait until I get out of here...
It would be awesome if we all ended up going to the same college. Hahaha...

Ahhh I miss you guys soooo much! Hope you guys are having a wonderful holiday season <3

-WENDY

Mad Quick.....

Hey Girlies!

Tracy- I got a new cell # but lost yours, I hate for you to ask Wen or Yeana, but could you grab it from one of them? I want to make sure that you can text me if you need me.

Wendy- Its over! I hope that it went well

Yeana- I am so glad that you have finished midterms! Mine don't start until mid-january so I have a lot of work ahead of me.

I am so busy this time of year, with school and extracirricluars and everything, its so very hectic! I am going to try and mail all of you Christmas cards, but I can't predict that they will be there before Christmas, so my apologizes in advance.

Love to all, so sorry this is short! This is the last time I will be home until Sunday, sometimes I hate being social (jk)
Love y'all lots
Rosanna

ohmeohmys

i could've sworn i posted a short post about how i was short on time, but i was definitely reading the blog posts! O:
i guess i didn't? @__@

here's it brief, and i'll find time later to say more :D

everything is actually going swimmingly
though
quite honestly, i'm going through some difficult times with my dad. again. xD
i don't want to bother people about it though, you guys are just. special? O:!!

i feel a bit better just knowing that there's this connection with my ladies through this blog (:
sorry for using you guys like this > A <

THOUGH
i must say
though not able to properly comment on it yet 'cause i'm currently procrastinating. again.
YEANA.
NIK.
?
O:
IM WORRIED ABOUT YOU NOW ):

WENDY
BABE,
HOW WAS YOUR DATE?
(;

ROSANNA
MY LOVELY FLOWER,
PLEASE BREATHE.

christmas letters will be coming (:
gifts will be after newyears (the chinese one so i have some money =__=)
^IM RATHER EXCITED. CAUSE I WANT TO TRY THIS NEW CRAFT THINGER (hehheh, secret) FOR YOU GUYS' (grammar fail. dont worry, it was intentional.) GIFT :D

since yeana and wendy's bdays both passed already..i'm considering sending rosanna a bday gift along with xmas? O:!!

also. i'm curious. although this isn't supposed to be a proper post, it sure is developing to become one D:
collegse. where are you guys applying? IM INTERESTED O:!!
though i'm probably applying to places less...well. i'm happy with just getting into college xD
there's this women's college that i'm interested in applying to...'cause their dorms are these rather gothic castle styled houses.....bad reason. but i love it. (:
however.
he's making me study.
he as in my boyfriend o///o (is it bad that i still. well, blush at a little thing like that? /: )
yes, well. i'll explain more in detail how this came to happen
but i'm going to attempt a facebook break
and start some actual studying. freshmen and sophmore year i kinda just...drifted. which is bad =__=

i just want some ice cream.


missing that lovely fifth floor,
tracy.

p.s. i need you guys so much so thanks for being here (:
p.p.s! i'm somewhat getting the hang of those gosh darn friendship bracelets D: i'm interested in trying to make one for you guys to add to wendy's lovely one in the same colors maybe, just in different shades? O:!!
p.p.p.s. i love you guys (:

:]

Hello ladies.

I am finished with my first semester finals! It's both a disappointment and relief. I'm disappointed because I haven't done as well as I wanted to on some of my finals but at the same time I'm relieved that I can relax for a while.

Tomorrow night is Winter Formal. I'm actually really excited. :] Haley's an awesome guy.

Nik...

I don't know. I feel like he's not the guy I thought he was. I'm not comfortable around him...like I said before, I can't really describe it...or him. :/ I have no clue.

Sigh.

But I'll take lots of pictures from tomorrow and pictures from the dance will go your way! I promise that. :]

How are all of you doing? How are midterms/finals/whatever you guys call them?

love,
Yeans

=(

No one is blogging!
I understand though, the second semester is ending, midterms are coming up right before the holidays...

Hope you all are doing well though. :]

Just wanted to say hi,
Wendy

It's like 80 degrees here.

Seriously. Well actually, it's just gotten cooler today Today, it's been like the 60s. But the past couple days it's been pretty high up there...Florida has weird weather patterns. >.<
But anyways, warm weather in December is just not cutting it for me...which is why I'm so JEALOUS of Rosanna's snow day!! Hahah I wish we had those! :(

Anyways. Good to hear for you girl. Still keeping busy, huh? At least it takes off the mind from troublesome things. ^.^

Life currently is fantastic. School is ehhh but I'm still remaining optimistic. It's weird...now I'm not all that stressed anymore. It's not that I don't care, because I do A LOT, but I'm less tired and I guess I'm just happy overral. :PPPP
So things with Travis are very good. We've been discussing our relationship and it seems as if he's going to ask me to be his girlfriend on our date tomorrow night. ^.^
I'm making him see New Moon with me.

HAHAH. :))))

Anyways. I'm kinda nervous for the date...he is actually pretty shy in person. But if all else fails, there'll still be a movie to watch. Hehe. :P

So I've been living my life day by day. CANNOT wait until Winter Break (which starts the 23rd for me) but that means Midterms are in just a week...yikes. My spanish oral is going to make me or break me. Ugh.

Oh wells. I miss you guys tons! Write soon!

<3
WENDY

An Update...

An update: I actually don't have school today - its the first SNOW DAY...
sorry to Yeana and Wendy who don't usually get these

Tracy - did you get a lot of snow in the city?

The First BIG Snow of the Season....

Hello Ladies-

I sit typing this from my computer at 7:18 (Yeana 4:18 in your time) for one reason and one reason only. School was delayed due to the first major snow of the year. I love winter, there is something magical about how everything changes color and is so still and calm and serene. But it is also eerie, like this morning I got up at normal time even though I knew we had a delay so that I could clean off my borther's car for him and put it in the garage. As I was doing this though, as car drove past our drive, but I did not hear it, I guess it is one of those things. There are always so many positives, but negatives can include accidents, death, and carpile-ups. It is a little frightening considering most people I know drive to school or are driven to school, and me being the mother that I am, I get concerned about buckling seatbelts, let alone driving safely in 5 inches of snow without getting into an accident, but It's the Most Wonderful Time of the Year, need I say more?

Yeana- I saw a picture of Nik, and am very excited for you, he seems like a pretty legit person!
Tracy- How are you and your man doing?
Wendy- How are things with Travis? Has he 'made a move' yet?

I a exhausted, my extrscirricualr schedule keeping me busier than ever, especially with all of the music groups I am in, we are performing like crazy. Nothing is new nor exciting with me other than I hate calculus more than any class ever.... well I hate math in general, but on a positive note, my Criminal Law grade is a 98%! (that is as high as my teacher will go, even though I got a 100% on everything there is a negative curve because no one is perfect... shes one of my favorite teachers!)

Love To All
Rosanna

LANDO GIRL!

Hello hello :]

Nice to hear that everyone's doing well!



Tracy, hehe you just seem so happy lately. ^.^ I hope things with your boyfriend continue to go well. I want to see a picture of him, btw! :P

Yeana, like I said before, Nik is a cutieeee. ;) You have good taste, I applaud you for that. I'm not a person to judge, but he looks very nice and sincere. Hehe. But let me get this straight...your friend, the one who asked him to the formal, likes him as well? She knows that you like him though? I am confused >.<>

Now, it's very late in Land O Lakes but I can't sleep and wanted to post. ^.^ Things are going very well. I am slowly but surely bringing up my grades, and recieved a perfect score on my Chinese SAT II. :] I am getting back on track; keeping me head in the game. Finals are in just 2 1/2 weeks so I need to stop reviewing...*sigh*

But aside from school, I am living my life to the fullest! Things with Travis are great, but I find myself wanting more. He's making an effort to see me more at school now, and we were going to hang out this weekend but our plans didn't work out.

:( He talks to me as if I'm his girlfriend, but I'm not! I am patiently waiting for him to make a move because I realllly do want to be with him now. I am trying not to fall so fast, but it's hard. I'm thinking perhaps he just hasn't had the right moment, because we really haven't hung out together outside of school. *sigh* That's the only thing bothering me...

Anyways. Christmas is coming up. ^.^ Winter is very favorite season of the year! It is finally getting chilly in Florida, and by that I mean high 60s to low 40s. :P I love this weather though, because it's cool with a breeze yet not *freaking my butt off* cold. Hehe. And at least it's not stinkin' hot, which is always a good thing. :] Idk why I live in Florida...Hah.

Alright, I guess I better be getting off. It's past 1 AM, and I normally like to get as much sleep as possible during the weekends. XP Tomorrow will be busy, I didn't do any hw today! AHH I need the motivationnn, hah.

Hope all is well,

<3 WENDY

Azn Sensation!!

Hello hello hello!

Things are looking up in Cupertino, too. :] I'll get to that later.

Tracy: Yes, that is THE Nik. And his name is Nik. Without a C. I totally did not know that until like, 4 days ago. GAH.

Wendy: I'm glad things are going well. And yes, let him do the asking. :]] As for an activity, how about ice skating? Bowling? Uhm...KARAOKE? :D Or if you want to stay at home, you could make cookies together or something. :]

Rosanna: I'm with Tracy. If you're going to work hard, then work hard and make us proud! Of course, we'll be proud of you and love you no matter what. :]

Things with Nik have been well. :] We're getting to know each other pretty well. He introduced himself to my mom today...hahahahahahahahaha. That was...an awkward moment. My mom doesn't believe I'll get a boyfriend until I'm like 23 so she's fine, but I nearly died inside laughing.

I feel like things are getting there but I don't want to rush anything. If anything is going to happen, I feel like it should wait until Winter Formal is over, at least. We both have separate dates and it'll just be awkward.

Speaking of that, I feel kind of weird being so close to Nik. One of my friends asked him to formal and of course he said yes; I think he was in the same situation that I was in. Anyways, another friend of mine did some prodding for me and found out that she likes Nik. I don't know if I should distance myself from Nik or if I should just stay the way I am. I feel horrible...like, she's the one who's actually going to formal with him and...I don't know. I just feel bad...

:/

Anyways, I have some grades to pull up as well. I'm actually worried about this semester's finals; they will actually do stuff to my grades. Ahahaha...up until last year the only finals I really had to worry about were math. This year I have APUSH and bio to worry about. Those are my only 2 Bs, and I want to raise them up. I'm so close...but one mistake could ruin it all. GAH....

Luck and happiness to everyone. I have a feeling that these next few weeks are going to suck.

Love,
Yeans

procrastination. but for what?

like the title says. this is procrastination. but for what?
IM DONE WITH HOMEWORK. AND I DESPERATELY WANT TO SLEEP.
so maybe it's not procrastination.
i guess i just miss you guys alot and this blog is where i feel closest to my lovely ladies (:

yeana: i believe that photo of you and someone named nick was THE nick? (;
if not, THEN WHOOPSIEDAISIES.
goshgoshgosh
HOW MUCH WOULD A TICKET TO CUPERTINO COST? D:
hrms. perhaps this summer calls for a roadtrip. ER. TO LOOK AT COLLEGES OF COARSE. HAH.HAH.HAH. colleges near cupertino? (;

rosanna: don't overwork yourself hon is what we all want to say D:
but obviously you're doing it anyways =__=
SO.
WORK HARD. AND KNOW THAT WE LOVE YOU.
and that i'll be trying hard to send you my love and energy through mind waves (:
also, i advise against calling me. you may or may not reach me, but the thing is you may get my freaky voice mail. and. it's freaky all right XDXD

wendy: GOSH. I WAS GOING TO GIVE A POST MAYBE LATER ON IN THE WEEK.
BUT I SAW YOUR POST.AND I FELT THAT THIS WAS AN EMERGENCY? (:
and OHMYS WENDY (;
i honestly dont know what you're suppose to do D:
but
movies would be a safe bet cause it practically guarantees that there'll be something to talk about after the movie to distract you if you're nervous? :D
i is sorry that i'm not much help D:

SO I WAS WALKING MY FRIEND DOWN TO THE SUBWAY TRAIN
AND SHE HATES GOODBYES
SO I ALTERED THE WHOLE "see you in a while, crocodile" THINGER TO THIS ON THE SPOT:

TILE,
WHAT WE WALK ON

WHILE,
WHEN WE'LL SEE EACH OTHER

CROCODILE...
WHAT WE EAT :9

XDXD
people stared at me strangely (one man in particular turned his head towards me while he was walking. XD) 'cause i was half shouting this to her through the bars. XD <--i wasn't taking the train yet, i was just walking her

LOVE,
WHAT I GIVE YOU
tracy.

Hey from Lando!

Hello ladies! This will be a super quick post; I just wanted to write something. :P

So since I last wrote, things have been getting better and better for me! Well, school is school, and I have to pull up my Bs in Calculus and Spanish but I think I can manage before the first semester's over. :P Root for me, please!! But I have been less stressed, so that is good.
Things with Travis are fantastic. We don't see each other often during school, which is the only sucky part. Also, I am patiently waiting for him to make a move...I mean I can't let him keep on saying all this sweet stuff to me if he's not even "with" me, right? We are possibly hanging out this weekend (!!) and he wants me to pick what we should do...AHH! Help! I don't want to go for the generic "movies" but honestly I can't think of anything else, lol.

Anyways, things are goood for now. I am happy and maintaining a positive attitude. Hope all is well, and keep blogging!

<3
WENDY

Hello ladies...

I still have loads of homeowrk so this has to be quick.
Thanksgiving was eehhh, like always, but I am so grateful to have you all in my lives.
As Wendy knows, I got a new cell phone/number so i am going to try to text all of you soon, but if I don;t I am volunteering Wendy as the person to go to for it.
This week is so busy... I have atleast one test in every class and this week is also the Melodies of Christmas, and while I enjoy it a lot, getting home at 12am (at the earilest) everynight this week is a little annoying, but then again, I don;t sleep anyway....
I hope all of you are doing well
tracy - I saw a fb status that mentioned a hamster... it makes so much more sense now
Yeana- Keep us posted!
Wendy- Follow your heart, be careful, we are all here for you!
I have to go.... more hopefully this week (if my new laptop comes in..)
Rosanna

Post-Turkey Day

Hello ladies!

Tracy, I am so glad we finally got to hear about your boyfriend. :]] Heehee...I'm happy for you. I'm surprised your brother wants to meet him though. My brother could care less whether I have a boyfriend or not. Ahahaha...So he thought he was gay? That's interesting. Gay guys at my school usually just come out of the closet and stay gay. I haven't seen a case like that...ever. I want to meet him...if I ever get to New York...T^T

Rosanna: I hope you had a wonderful Thanksgiving! I miss you and hope you get some time off soon...

And to Wendy: Maybe we were overreacting. Well I'm glad to hear that he's a good guy and that he's not trying to play you. If you think it's the right time, I say go for it, then. :] Is he clingy, though?

-------------------------------

My guy issue hasn't changed, really. If anything it's only gotten worse since I've been getting to know Nick more. At least I know that Haley's not taking me to formal because he likes me or something. If he was then I'd feel even worse.

I wish yall could come over to Cupertino and meet Nick. Ahaha...he's not the easiest person to describe.

But here's an attempt:

He's tall, white, and well-built. He smiles easily and has these eyes...

He's got a slightly husky voice. His hair is short and usually gelled up, but the past few days he's kept it just plain (I like it without the gel). He's spontaneous and sweet, but at the same time he's sort of featherbrained.

That's the best I can do... :] He's one of those people you just have to meet...

I hope all of you had a wonderful Thanksgiving! :] I love you all and I'm thankful for you.

love,
Yeana

You're Beautiful

^that's the name of that drama everyone has been talking about, i've gotta get around to watching it O:

and really ladies, you're all beautiful (:

OH WENDY <3
it seems so BEAUTIFUL (or should i say Schön instead? (;)
^coincidentally i was fooling around with freetranslation.com today with german also. XDXD

hearing this confirmation that Travis is a good guy is like a much needed breathe of air to me, IM SO RELIEVED TT A TT
we were all incredibly worried 'cause of the whole facebook status part (hah. look at what facebook has done to us. XD)
and i for one, am not so worried anymores (:
'cause although it SUCKS horribly that you had to meet so many bad guys, i'm glad that it lets you be all the more happy with this guy C:
and gosh. it's actually kind of...noble? of him to back off cause your assistant lucas liked you, he probably thought that lucas might have been able to make you happy so he backed off (;

after i finished typing this, i realized how abnormally bothersomely long this is. SCROLL DOWN FOR THE LONG STORY MADE SHORT :D
and XDXD
i wasn't kidding when i thought he was gay. he gave me good reason to believe that it was NOT the kind of joke that guys usually do (and girls. hah.)
you know. they jokingly go and hug their friends and such but they're actually straight.
NO. I REALLY THOUGHT HE WAS GAY @__@
and yes he kissed a guy in front of me. rather shocking.
it didn't. quite. bother me. so much. XD
'cause it's not like i expect him to change overnight
and if flirting with his friends (and that at the very least was a joke, to my knowledge he never had a serious relationship relationship with a guy) made him happy then it was A-okay with me
apparently, my hugging my own friends (..i excessively hug. i glomp. though only to girls. they're just so easy to be comfortable with (: ) made him jealous sometimes. XD
and one of my friends kissed me on the cheek, and she's so lovable, so this was a-okay to me
though i dunno if it's the same for you guys (hell, i don't know if even some of my other friends do this XD) but i very often tell my (girl) friends that i love them lots, and i shower them with hugs and such
and once in a while a teasing kiss on the cheek, just one of those MUAH ones XDXD
so i was with him and his friend and she asked me if it bothered me that he acted so gay.
i said no, not really- and what was i supposed to do about it anyways if it made him happy?
but he didn't know that it bothered me at all 'till i was joking around with my friend
and we were outside his classroom
so he walked out to see us against the wall hugging each other. AHEM. XD
and he went NYUUU and just sorta picked up both up with a hug? @__@
and i told him jokingly that if he was allowed to be gay with his friends i should be albe to be gay with mine <3
and he told me that he got jealous (: <--too bad for him, but that made me happy =="
and just wed i kinda sorta ditched him for club practice with one of my super important friends
and she was rather upset with me that i didn't meet her in the morning cause he stole me away after breakfast during our free period
and she refused to hug me :C
but i ditched him for club practice
so she hugged me again
and i texted him happily that i got a hug from her (:
he then replied with a text that he got two hugs from three of his friends
i replied with "dont make me go around kissing girls. ILL KISS SHANNON (well on the cheek) RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOU > u o"
i wasn't aware that i'd get such a nice reaction XD
he said he'd stop being gay around his friends O:
though. i really. honestly didn't mind. i just didn't like it when his friends went and kissed him =="

GOSH CONFUSING. THIS IS EVEN CONFUSING TO ME @__@



LONG STORY MADE SHORT:
after his first girlfriend hurt him emotionally really bad, he became "gay" and he seriously believed that he was "gay" O__O
^thus the introduction of "you can't miss me, i act like a flaming homosexual" XDXD
if anything, this allowed me to view him AT FIRST as a friend who i could be extremely comfortable with, almost like...a girl? XDXD
of course, at some point along the way i screwed myself over by noticing him as a guy, but yeah

so he told me that if he had to choose between any guy and me
he'd choose me (:
unless the guy was johnny depp
and quite honestly, i can't blame him. johnny depp is ridiculously amazing (:

here's something strange that's gonna happen.
my brother.
in a moment of awkwardness
wants to be brotherly
so he suggested
(awkwardly) a double date
so he could meet him O__O
oh gosh.

AND ALSO. A PIECE OF NEWS
THOUGH I THINK YOU GUYS ALREADY KNOW CAUSE OF FACEBOOK XD
at my school we had a culture festival and i was in the fashion show (:
HOOSHA :D

and also. my school. currently is under LOCKDOWN. cause of some gosh be darned arsonist =="
more in detail at some later point
i gotta sleep =__="

with love that will always be there for my ladies,
tracy.

Happy Thanksgiving from Land O' Lakes!

I am so incredibly thankful to have all of you wonderful chicas in my life. :] I hope you guys had a wonderful day!

Anyways...I have MUCH to tell. :PPP
But first...Tracy, your story sounds soooo cute and it seems as if you're REALLY happy! Ahhh I'm so excited for you :]]] Just one clarification...so he is bi? Or have you "changed" him. I'm just confused...and he kisses BOYS in front of you? Doesn't that kinda bother you? Lol I hope he doesn't do that kind of stuff anymore...hehe.

Okay okay. Sooo...basically I have a lot to say regarding Travis and I. And I know you guys already have a bad impression of him, but please let me explain...and trust me I am not "blinded by love" right now...Lol.
Alright. So a misunderstanding first of all...He had not written "I <3>.< And so I waited, and then the PERFECT OPPORTUNITY came. He changed his status to something in german, which translated to "Wendy, you looked beautiful today". (that's kinda his little thing for me, he always says sweet stuff to me in german and then I make him translate it for me ;P) ANYWAYS. So I was just upfront and asked about the change in statuses...because I was confused about his relationship with Allie. He said that there was nothing between them, everything was done. I was like, well are you sure, because you still had that status up...and he said that he was veryyy sure and reassured me that he is a one girl kinda guy. And honestly, he really is...I know the situation may sound a bit sketchy, and I am a bit suspicious too but Travis really is a GOOD guy. I'm not saying that because of all the sweet things he says to me, but because I've seen him in relationships and I've known him long enough (since 6th grade) to know what kinda guy he is. With his first serious girlfriend last year, she actually wanted to have sex with him, but he wouldn't do it. That's my boyyy :]]]]
He's very sensitive and he's considerate. Please trust me on this one...I have been hurt too many times that I've developed this radar for bad boys, so I know when I'm fooling myself or when I'm getting fooled. I will be cautious, I promise :)
So back to the story. After we solved that issue, he kinda confessed his feelings for me. He told he's always been attracted to me, just too scared to make a move. And with the whole Lucas (my assistant, who liked me, remember?) thing at the beginning of the year...he backed off because Lucas told me about how much he liked me. >.<
But I guess now that the feeling's mutual...everything's out in the open? :P So we talk everyday. He texts me in the morning just to say Good Morning, he texts me before I go to bed and showers me with cheesy compliments in German. And yesterday he told me for the first time straight up that he liked me. ^.^ He cares about the things I do during the day, and he remembers conversations we had from months past. He doesn't try to "talk dirty" with me but actually holds intellectual conversations to learn more about me. And he gives me butterflies, something that I haven't felt in a long time...
So he makes me happy. And whether this happiness is just my imagination or not, I do not know...But I am going to trust my instincts. I'll be careful, and I won't let him take advantage of me. I just feel that I can't pass up this opportunity...
So yeah. Just had to get allll of that out there. Blahhh. What do you girls think???
XP

I love you,
WENDY

turkey day O:

OKAY. the school week is finally over. and i have the whole night ahead of me to type it all out >D

YEANABABE,
oh gosh :C
i get the predicament that you're in, though i've never said yes D:
^though that's cause i've always been mean ==" i'd laugh it off pretending that i think they're just joking D: WHICH IS CRUEL TO THEM. >__<
but i think if you manage to make it clear to them that you're just going with them as a FRIEND...then your guy might get the same message. and to him, this means hope (:
I SAW A PICTURE HEY HEY (;
^facebook :D

WENDY LOVE,
YOU DONT HAVE TO BE STRONG IN FRONT OF US.
we know you as supergirl and everything, but we still want you to be YOURSELF. all exposed, vulnerable, EVERYTHING with us (:
why?
'cause we unquestionably love you.
now about this Travis guy...
you say he's a good guy.
and i trust your judgement.
but that facebook status seems a bit dodgy /:
though. there's the possibility that he was crushing on this girl...but you know, he got rejected and whatnot. so then he sees Wendy, this gorgeous girl that he figured he could like
after flirting with you like crazy, the INTEREST DEVELOPES EVEN FURTHER (:
though i'm worried about you if he still has this status up...how frequent does he go on facebook? maybe he was serious about her so it hurts to take it off? O:

ROSANNAMOMMA,
it hurts that you're so close (SAME STATE >D) but still so far away :C
if possible, you should see when you have time (and i mean serious time. i don't want you to stress out trying to have a free day to hang out, i want it to be a "oh, i have nothing planned that day, i've relaxed the day before and everything and i'm happy" day so you could come over to the city to flushing, cause cause i recently found out that Won, even though he lives in connecticut he goes to flushing to shop O: WEIRD AS HELL. but incredibly convenient for a mini NSLC reunion..? :D


so about my last post...
i can't explain it without introducing him first though O:
his name: is arthur (:
chan.
(:
(:
yeah. but if you look at my facebook statuses lately....he's that "hamsturr" i mention. alot. =///= and i'm his "tractor" XD
it started when our mutual friend jon (polar bear) meant to call out "tracester" and ended up going "tractor"
weird. but it stuck (:
AND HERE I WILL LAUNCH OUT INTO A WHOLE TALK TALK TALK ABOUT THE MOST MENIAL DETAILS...so really. feel free to skip on ahead >__<
so we met. through facebook. XD
no not really. technically it was through Antares, my school's sci fi magazine :D
my friend Leeza is the editor in chief of it, and i was joining this year
and she was saying at the meeting how we should all feel free to say hello to each other in the halls, and i panicked and asked her "WHAT IF I DONT REMEMBER YOU?! D: "
and someone just said "OH. DONT WORRY. WE"LL REMEMBER YOU XD FACEBOOK!"
so arthur facebooked..well, EVERYONE in Antares. so that's early september (:
later on, you guys know how i went to NYAF the New York Anime Festival, no?
well after i got home and such i got a friend request from some guy named Howard. and we had some mutual friends so i figured "okay, he might be in one of my classes but i dont remember"
actually, Howard graduated from my school already but he saw me @ NYAF and remembered me 'cause i always held the door for the dining hall @__@
through howard i became friends with jon (polar bear) which was extremely random. he just. friended me. because i was friends with howard @__@
and with our constant wall-to-walls i started appearing on Arthur's news feed cause you know how you get the wall to walls of your close friend's conversation with their friend who you dont know, etc. etc.
so it started with:
"hi, my name is arthur
i feel like i should introduce myself as well (cus jonathan's chat with you is dominating my newsfeed)
i added you cus you're in that antares thing
and i just added everyone from that club so it looks like i have more friends!
i was too lazy to say hi to anyone before
but now i've got nothing better to do!
so hello friend!"

and when i asked towards how i would recognize him at school he said he acted like a "flaming homosexual" XDXD
so with this, and cause when i saw him in person he said he was gay (and with all seriousness) i honestly believed he was GAY.
so this is why i never said anything about liking someone.
i was extremely upset. when i thought that i was crushing. on a gay guy. gosh.

so basically.
we talked.
and talked.
and talked.
and there was this one time. when i teased him about how he shouldn't mind me taking a picture at halloween of his friend in a dress
"XD
i thought you were gay, it shouldn't matter whether he looks manly or womanly (;"

"im not gay
im not straight
im just confused."

it was horrible of me to feel happy when i saw that he was confused. but i was happy.

the constant talking ensued
our facebook wall to walls grew to the point that we had to post them seperately in "parts"

so the talking ensued
and he started to play the guitar around me and we started talking music
and the first song that he played for me was that youtube song "mario kart love song" cause we both found it so ridiculously awesome. 'cause cmon. MARIO KART (:
i found it funny that later on as we started going out one of his friends came up to me and said "LOL, WERE YOU THAT GIRL I SAW HIM SERENADING IN THE ATRIUM?"
i blushed and nodded 'cause back then we were friends. but apparently didn't look it?

yeah. so we made plans early in the week to meet up saturday to go to Times Square's Toys R Us cause it was the biggest one we knew, and we were looking for a hamster girlfriend for him XD
later in the week before the day we were to meet up
MY SCHOOL HAD A FIRE. there's this arsonist going around setting things on fire.
at first it started out small, you know- a bathroom or a garbage can. we assumed it was some retard who just didn't want to take a math test (though it started becoming more frequent and more dangerous. some fires were set purposely near the robotics room, and with all of the grease in there it could blow up half the school and another fire was set near the eighth floor escalator that was under construction that could've blown us up to kingdom come. XD)
yeah. so we had a fire on friday the 13th.
later when i got home, i see a fb message from jon the polar bear
and hoorah! cause he came to be a good friend
but. this good friend. confessed to me :C
and i just couldn't say yes. 'cause unlike yeana and wendy, i am a cruel person and i didn't get that special feeling from him.
feeling all doom and gloom the next day, i met up with arthur @ toys r us and i had fun O: it was just so easy to be happy around him (:
so we hung around toys r us, scoured it for hamsters FOUND NONE, sang along to the taylor swift song playing over the PA system XD
and we took the train downtown to chinatown for BUBBLE TEA <3 and we ate at some restaurant for lunch
standard just hanging out with a friend stuff, though this friend just happened to be a guy O:
we went to the park afterwards and you see, it had just literally rained so EVERYTHING was wet so the park was empty (:
though he had a box of kleenex in his bookbag (we both had sat classes earlier in the day) and we wiped off a table and sat
we did weird things
we watched leaves and identified shapes (one was the triforce from the legend of zelda...XD)
we talked about fog
shoes
and like creepers, we watched these little kids playing in the park.
we then played whatever music i either had on my phone, or he had on his itouch and we sang along to them. loudly. and not very well XD
and you see, it started to get late
and we had to go home :C
so our conversation just...stopped. and we sat there. i didn't want to go and i figured he just found it awkward to get up before i did
so i started to put together my stuff and he started to put together his sentences all nervous like (:
he then used a line from the Mario Kart Love Song, "Will you be my princess and I'll be your toad?"
you see, i was shocked.
surprised.
UNBELIEVING THAT THIS WAS HAPPENING. so my jaw was dropped and my head was blank.
he looked at me, and i looked away and covered my face with my hands
when he asked me what my reply was i just nodded furiously cause...well, i couldn't talk O__O
i was just so embarrassed and happy (:
i must say. we're an awkward couple.
we didn't hold hands or anything
we just walked each other to the station (WE GOT LOST. XD)
and talked like crazy like always
when i got home, i thought i dreamt it all O__O
but his friends would send me comments going "nudge nudge" and such >///<
that night, he ended his facebook relationship with jon the polar bear. and i told him about jon the polar bear confessing. he said not to worry cause he was just going through some troubles and was feeling depressed so he was confessing to girls in hopes of making that feeling go away.
it was true.
he confessed to my friend
a week later to another of his friends
and then to me =="
so i was feeling relieved cause i didn't want to lose him as a friend
and he was arthur's close friend
so awkward if things didn't work out..

things didn't work out.
jon stopped talking to me.
i shouted out a hello to him in the hallways and i was ignored.
though i spent a lot more time with arthur (:
and got closer as friends
and slowly became less AWKWARD of a NERVOUS couple XD
i seemed to have drifted farther from polar bear :C
then he told me something that made me...upset.
i questioned him through a facebook message as to whether or not he wanted to be friends with me cause i told him that it hurt to keep saying hii and to continually be ignored. He told me that he knew that one of his BEST FRIENDS, arthur was going to ask me out and he asked me out on friday the 13th cause he wanted to do it before arthur could.
i was mad.
but sad. that he did this.
and this was not the shit.
arthur wanted to meet...MY PARENTS. D:
WHY?
CAUSE HE'S CRAZY AND WEIRD D:
for some reason, he was convinced that they'd like him.
make a long story short...
i told my mom first at the restaurant
she got mad
i got yelled at
i argued
she gave excuses
i rebutted them (thanks NSLC (; )
i cried
and left the restaurant with my stuff, i decided that i'd just take the subway home instead of waiting for a ride.
and the sweetest thing was
arthur was there with eleven of his friends just eating dinner before i got there to introduce him
cause we thought that maybe she should sorta meet him first before she automatically hated him.
so i was with one of my friends as i introduced him
his friends started filing out of the restaurant as they finished eating
and he was the last one out causei told him it'd be best if he left since my mom was sorta yelling
i later told my friend not to bother waiting for me 'cause i didn't want to cry in front of her, and i told her that on her way out to tell arthur and his friends to stop waiting for me outside cause i wasn't leaving anytime soon =="
so after that bit of arguing and such
i left the restaurant
to see Arthur waiting outside for me (:
he panicked, and called his friend's mom and asked her what to do
she told him to stop whatever he was thinking, AND NOT TO GO INSIDE to talk to my mom (which was what he was planning XD) and to just stand outside waiting for me.
it's a good thing he didn't go inside, or there might have been blood D:
so my mom outright rejected it.
and i felt like the shit had hit the fan.
i cried that night as i resolved to talk to arthur the next day and ask him if he was sure he still wanted to be with me. 'cause i didn't think it was fair to involve him in my dysfunctional family :C
he'd either leave me. which would show that he didn't care enough to stay. or he'd be the sweet retard that he was and leave me thinking that it'd be best that we weren't together so i wouldn't have to argue with my parents.
in the end, my friend talked me out of it, AND ITS A GOOD THING TOO.
cause later on in the week after a cold war with my mom (my dad still has no idea...) she confronted me about it and told me many...many things. but in the end she said that she accepted that nothing she said could change my mind about it, so she wanted to just see how it worked out first and gave me many things that i had to improve and all. but no sweat, i was already improving in the school aspect 'cause arthur's such a nerd that he tutors me and makes me sleep early instead of staying online all night
he gets me to go to sleep early cause he says he wont be able to sleep cause he'll be worried (:

then ended my moment of crisis...
also.
today.
polar bear said hello to me (:

there are still things troubling me
some of my friends said that we got into this way too fast 'cause it was really just a month that we knew each other O:
but. it felt like so much longer O___O
and every day that i spend with him
i think.
i may be possibly
falling in love with him.
i'm too scared to say anything
i don't say "i love you" because i can say that easily to friends (easy peasy cause i love them (: )
but to a boyfriend
this was something serious
and i still haven't said it

we're a slow
and awkward couple
and at first i was afraid everytime he was with his guy lovers so much cause although they were supposedly joking, i was still scared that it'd turn out that he didn't like me and would prefer a guy.
he kissed a guy.
the guy just came up to us, and he kissed him right on the lips.
i can't lie and say that this didn't bother me =="
but now he doesn't do homo stuff as much XD
it's more like i'll tease him when i hug my friends like crazy
and he'll tease me back by hugging his friends, and er, etc. with them XD
i figure that it might mean that i'm kinda sorta important to him and to tell the truth, i don't get a lot of perverted jokes so he's almost...afraid? to touch someone that he calls "innocent" XD
his friends teased him a lot at first.
first they would say "OMG, YOU'RE STRAIGHT?"
and then "LOL, YOU FREAKING PEDO. SHE LOOKS LIKE A LITTLE DOLL" TT_TT

but i'm slowly becoming more secure with him
it helps that he told me that he likes me BECAUSE i'm so weird XD i was afraid that my weirdness would drive him away =="
and i was scared that he'd fall for some hotter girl (cause he has a lot of friends that are girls, and so do i :C)
but this one time we were talking about how cute one of my friends was (AND SHE IS, SHE'S FREAKING ADORABLE) and he just ehhed and said that she was a cute that you could find everywhere and he liked how weirdly adorable i was to him (:

so i've gone over how we met, how it happened, random crap, the shit, and how i got over my insecurites :D

i just want you guys to know that he'll never replace you guys in my heart, and I STILL LOVE YOU ALL AS MUCH AS EVER <3

with love,
tracy.

p.s. i'm forgetting something...

LANDO GIRL!

Hello all!

Thank you, Yeana and Rosanna, for your advice. :] Travis really isn't the kind of guy to play girls...but I will take your words into consideration. I am beginning to think that perhaps I was just reading too much into it. Maybe he just wants to be better friends or something.
Anyways. Marching season just ended, and with that I hope more time will open up. School is getting more stressful by the moment, currently I have been slacking off (I think it's because I'm just so TIRED all the time...I don't have the motivation anymore...) and I need to pull some of my grades back up. I am in fierce competition with my two best friends for valedictorian and I must certainly CANNOT lose that positition to them...I have a feeling I may break soon, but please pray for me that I will not.
Other than that, I have had a rough past week. Friends have realized that I'm not my usual self, and I even find myself less optimistic than usual. This weekend, I am feeling much better and I can only hope I will stay this way.

So Yeana...WOW, the whole shenanigan really sounds like how my friend asked me to Homecoming! Huh, funny how things work out...Lol. I must say, you really are in a tough situation. Considering you already said yes, I guess there is no turning back. I am glad though that you are learning more about Nick. Do you know if he is going to Winter Formal or not? I just don't want him thinking you like this other dude...Lol, that wouldn't be so good :P Anyways. After the formal, if your other friend shows any more interest, just make sure you make it clear that you don't feel the same way. Don't make the same mistake I did...Boys are smart, they know we are easily swayed by balloons and flowers. *sigh* I mean honestly, if we say no to THAT it'd just make us look bad...Lol. So just spend more time with Nick and I am sure good things will come out of it. He sounds like a great guy. :]

Rosanna, when are you going to get a new phone?! Lol I sure miss our long text convos! You're going to have to inform us of the "crush" situation...
And Tracy, your last post worries me. Everything okay?

Well, I'm off to relax after a busy weekend. Good thing I didn't have too much homework. :]

Love you all and miss you more and more every day...

<3 WENDY

i just can't title this :C

i'm sorry guys that i've been away for so long, it's just that i have SO MUCH TO SAY
and i never seem to have the time so i was planning on waiting for the weekend (this weekend!)
but sat i was busy with culture festival practice (which i will elaborate on later) and today...well right now i should be rushing to catch my bus. but instead i'm sitting here after having just gotten out of the shower =="

i will elaborate later, but as of right now...

THE SHIT HIT THE FAN.

Sorry Guys... It has been a tad busy up here

Hye girlies!

Ok I am so sorry that I have not actually blogged in a while. The first quarter just ended at my school and we all know that with that comes a whole load of tests and papers due.

Yeana - I am glad that you were asked to the winter formal, but I am sorry that it was not the person you wanted it to be, but keep your relationship strong with your guy because you should not lose that because you were asked by someone else (but I am sure that you know this)

Wendy- I am glad that you learned so much; let us know how you do in the upcoming event! I agree with Yeana on the Travis topic. While you might like him, I am not sure if he likes you back or if he is playing with you, but my mind tells me the latter.... I just don't want you to get hurt. I am sure that he has charm, but ther is also someone out there perfect for you and when you meet him you will not have these sorts of questions running through your mind.. it sounds stupid, but be patient, your time will come. And Spanis sucks for me this year too... I used to have a 100% in the class, needless to say I don' anymore

Tracy- Where are you? Fill us in about your guy!

So I have been really quite busy with the end of the quarter, service, extra-cirriculars, liking a guy, planning a surprise party for one of my best friend's. Pretty much being sleep deprived and not enjoying it, but dealing. I am happy to say that my Criminal Law teacher gave me a 98% in the class and she rarely gives out over a 92 (she says it is becasue she teaches this clas 'on a college level and highschoolers are usually to stupid to understand it' - she is one of my favorites!) I am not a huge fan of Criminal Law. I think that I have decided on family court. But yeah, I ahve been pretty busy... the blows and pain keep coming but I try to be positive and strong for everyone, but then I have my bouts of negativity but I guess that I am bound to have this. I must depart and do a million things for the party, but I will keep you guys posted hopefully as you will me. Love you!

Rosanna

Azn Sensation

Hello all,

I will tell you all about how my guy problems are progressing...

Riiiight after I offer Wendy a little advice.

Wendy, I don't think you should go for this guy. I mean, if he was so serious about her that he professed love for her and even changed his facebook status for her (I'm sort of amazed how large facebook is in our lives...), getting over her should not be so easy. And if he is over her, what's stopping him from changing his fb status back to "single"? I say this guy's a flirt who's playing with you, and to find a better person, because I know they're out there.

Meanwhile, my issues haven't gotten better...

Today, my friend asked me to Winter Formal. It was very cute, complete with music (which was drowned out by the general brunchtime clamor), confetti filled balloons (the confetti got blown away by the wind as soon as the balloons were popped so I didn't even realize they were filled with confetti), and roses (these were nice. :]). He's one of my closest friends (I think I've known him...10ish years? Wow.) so I think he assumed I would say yes, along with the rest of our friends, who helped him set this up.

The thing is, I was hoping (it's impossible but I can hope) that Nick would ask me to Winter Formal.

But what could I do? I couldn't say no...so I said yes. And I now have a date to Winter Formal. Whoopee.

It would have been wonderful if Nick was a total jerk whom nobody could ever like, but that's not the case. He is the sweetest and most lovable guy ever, and I don't know what to do. Well, I can't do anything in any case, because I've already said yes...But I was talking with Nick some more today, and I learned so much about him.

It's funny because all of my girl friends would love to be in my position, but I want out.

:/

It's bittersweet. I mean, I have a date, but he's not the date that I want. I feel like I was forced into a decision.

Ahhh!!!

Tracybabe, where are you??? And Rosanna???

love,
Yeans

Lando Girl!

Helloo my lovely ladies!
So....I hear of some current drama, eh? :P
Tracy...you MUST spill about your recent relationship status!! Hahah I know we're all just dyinggg to know the details! I hope he is a good guy and treating you well <3

Yeana, your little flirting match seems pretty interesting also...Let me know how that progresses...I hope you'll have a date for the Winter Formal ;) But I know how boys can be SO confusing. You don't want to take things the wrong way...but I say to take a chance and just see where your flirting skills can get you! :P

And Rosanna...where the hell have you been?! Lol we miss you girly! ^.^

As for me...things are getting interesting as well. First off, let me just say that this past weekend's convention was great! I didn't debate much, but it was my first time so it was a fantastic learning experience. Our school will be hosting a "mini-con" soon, so I am excited to participate in that :) Also, school has been okay...except for Spanish. I am currently grasping the edges of my "A" and the recent test that I took probably won't help my cause...I blame the teacher. Spanish has always been one of my strongest subjects, and now this dude comes along, teaches us NOTHING, the whole period becomes just a waste, and then throws at us a super hard exam. WTF. >.<

Anyways enough about schoool! So boys. :]
Hahahah. Well you guys remember Travis right? The guy in band (not my assistant, lmfao) who's flirty and confusing and all that junk? Well things are just getting more confusing. I had kinda sorta forgotten about him...but lately we've been talking a lot and he's doing some big time flirting. He is definitely showing an interest, which is great...only one problem. Just a while ago he had this hugeee crush on one of my friends in band. He posted that he "loved" her all over his AIM status, etc. I actually thought they were dating and then I found out that they WEREN'T and that she doesn't even like him!!! So only problem is...he still has that status up. So basically, he's telling me all this sweet stuff and saying that he wants to hang out, while he's professing his love to this girl. WTF. I don't get it.

So is he just kidding with me? Or is it just that he recently got over her and merely forgot to change his status???
I am so confused. Help!!!!!

<3
WENDY

Azn Sensation!

Here's to our eleventy-first post. :]

Love is in the air...Tracy Wong. :]] I'm so happy for you babe! You MUST tell us how it happened...

Well! Hell week is over, we are well into our performances. Opening night was amazing; we had a great audience who laughed at every single one of our jokes and even some non-jokes, which made us uber happy. We have our second show under our belts, and our final two shows take place this coming Friday and Saturday. Then it's time to begin practicing for our spring musical, YOU'RE A GOOD MAN, CHARLIE BROWN. W0000T.

And I think it's my turn to have a little crush. (gigglegasp)

During intermission of last night's show, I was sitting backstage in the dark, just relaxing. Nick (quick background on Nick: I don't really know too much about him either, I just met him this year because he just transferred from Oregon. He's a senior, a little over 6 feet tall [i think].) came and sat next to me and had a nice talk with me for about 10 minutes. Then the stage manager called places and I had to go...and he said "aww why?" So I was like "lol i have to go to my place so we can start...why, are you sad I'm leaving?" Then I started laughing and missed some of what he said next, but it was basically this: "tú eres en mi corazón..." To which I replied, "LOL I TOTALLY UNDERSTOOD THAT." And he said "what? huh?" I informed him that I was taking Spanish, and he laughed then said he was joking and let me go on my way.

EEK!

I want to know if I'm just being a stupid freak or if I'm actually in his corazón.

Winter formal is coming up soon and I want to go...if I have a date. Sigh.

Anways, getting back to all of you:

Wendy, I hope you're having a great time at JSA...tell me how it goes!

Rosanna, I hope you're doing well...Make sure you get some sleep, though!

Tracy... :]]

Love, hugs, and kisses,
yeans

TOYS R US IS EPIC.

yes, well the title is cause i went to toys r us today @ times square, AND OHMYGOSH ITS SO COOL :D
:D
:D

yes. that. and.
a quickie. super quick post.
apparently, i have made my gay friend. straight.


... (:


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P.S. WHEN I WENT TO DASHBOARD, I NOTICED THIS WAS THE 110th POST O:
since i seemed to have missed the commemoration for our hundredth post...HERE'S ONE FOR THE 110th :D
IT LITERALLY WOULD NOT HAVE BEEN POSSIBLE WITHOUT OUR LOVE FOR EACH OTHER (:

p.p.s. wendy love, i gave you a comment on fb instead of the blog cause you might check fb before the weekend is over unlike the blog :D

NOT from LOL ;P

Actually, I'm in Ft. Lauderdale right now...for the JSA (Junior State of America) Convention! Packing for this weekend really reminded me of camp...I packed my suit and everything. :P


It just made me miss you guys even more that I normally do.


Anyways, I don't have much time to write, but I just wanted to say that I packed the dress that I wore to the "ball" for tomorrow night's social...I'll be thinking of you guys all night ;)

So this week has been pretty good...very stressful, but manageble. I made first chair in All County Band. :)))) I was very surprised and felt accomplished :]
I hope everything is going well for all of you guys, I will write more after this weekend....I'm kinda scared about debating tomorrow. I don't think I'll speak much :P

Alright, love you all!

<3 WENDY

NOT from LOL ;P

Well, Hello!

Hey girlies!

Ok first thing first, I have not had any cell serivce for the past few weeks (ugh I hate my phone) so until I get a new one, I will not be able to read any of your texts (if you sent any) and I lost all of my contacts... FML (bye bye 132 of my closest friends) lol.

Anywho - My life is ok I have to go out soon, so this will be a short post. Life is getting better, but honestly whenever I think that the universe is going to cut me or any of my friends a break, it doesn't.

Wen - I am so proud of you! You must be doing amazing with the band! I am so glad that it is going well!

Yeana- I am so excited that you got a lawyer position! Thats so good - don't ever doubt your self or your abilites because you got this!

Tracy - I wish I could hug you! But I am glad that you had a good Halloween!

I have to get going now, but I will respond more thouroughly to all of your blogs when I get back
Love Ya!
Rosanna

I NEED A HUG. IM SURE WE ALL DO.

first one is a full costumepic with my zombie papa XD so lets start things off with halloween? i was a victorian zombie (: though i dressed up the day BEFORE hallows eve to participate in my school's ZOMBIE WALK :D after school, we moaned and dragged our bloody selves from our school to city hall where we filmed a short zombie attack, and then to chinatown (: it's all in my halloween album on facebook, though i'm gonna excuse myself for a quick sec to find my favorite picture and upload that one (: The second one is me with my lovely minnie mouse, i picked this one 'cause i felt that it had a nice creepy look to it? I MISS YOU GUYS TERRIBLY D: though i have good news? it may take me a bit, but i can earn a bit of cash cleaning this gosh be darned house of mine so eventually. someday. soon. perhaps. you'll get something in the mail (: though really, it may take a while, but it'll be FULL OF LOVE :D also, i must say. election day felt pretty good. new york. no school. yeah (: ALSO ALSO, i recently saw the U.S.S.A. New York in the hudson 'cause my school is literally right next to the hudson (and only a few blocks away from the World Trade Center) so my phys ed teacher felt that it would be fitting for us to go and see it pass us by (: I felt extremely proud for some reason. I've never felt such nationalism before O__O i guess it might've been due to the fact that the USSA New York was made from the steel that they harvested from the ruins of the WTC? or was it the still silhouettes of the navy men all standing stock still at the edge of the deck? i didn't hear the 21 gun salute though >__< 

then again, if they did the salute without silencers half of NYC probably would've thought that we were under another terrorist attack =="

11.10.09

I NOTICED THAT THE BLOG DELETED PART OF MY POST...?! O__O

it removed the whole spiel i had on rosanna and yeana ;__;

so here it is again (well not really. instead i'm going back to the blog to refresh my memory and starting that over again =="

so my lovely rosanna, if possible i'd love a video of you singing on youtube (:

i miss your voices terribly ;__;

ALSO. IF YOU'RE COMING. TELL ME.

i don't care if i have to kill (and yes. i will) but i will see you even if it's only for five minutes to say hello and goodbye with a short hug XD

yeana babe,
it's lonesome.

my friend's fb statuses were all reading "bagging season" and i had NO IDEA WHAT IN THE WORLD THAT MEANT.

and then it was explained.

and i just thought "how is it that it's this season for everyone else but me?"

it feels like you're alone, but you're not.

i'm here with you (;

but sometimes it's so lonesome, that i'm afraid that if i feel attracted to somebody, it's probably not real attraction but that i'm just lonely
and i don't want to pursue it cause what if it really is?

how do you know if you really like them, or if you're just looking for SOMEBODY, anybody?

BRAINFART.

lafonda, i wish you the very best luck with codey (;
that line about the drama made me laugh 'cause it was just so cute :D

i also kinda wish i joined JSA (junior statemen of America) when my friend asked me to join if i'd known that it would've meant the tiniest chance of meeting you ;__;

by the ways, CONGRATULATIONS TO YOU AS WELL on getting straight superiors :D
you're right that I certainly don't understand it...but i know that it's a great accomplishment and i wanna be happy with you and everyone (:

here's something terrifying though.
i'm scared that i'm falling for my friend. a guy who has been hurt so badly by a girl in the past that after he broke up with her and now he only jokingly goes out with his friends. that are guys. so he'd say he was gay. so it was all a-okay on the friendship thing, but i joked with him once about him being gay (i think i said something about his boyfriend looking pretty gorgeous as a girl -for halloween- when he said that he's not actually gay. and started talking about how he's confused. and he's possibly gay. possibly straight. possibly bi. but he doesn't know.)
so i have this writing workshop and we had to write a ballad, and i wrote one to a dumpling and stuff and my other friend told me to put it on facebook
so i tagged my gay friend in it cause we've been getting closer (we met this year, early oct?) and he liked it so much, he set chords to it and sang it to me in a video he posted as a message. and i just had this "whoa" moment 'cause it was so touching to me
i'm just terrified that i'm going to lose such a great friendship 'cause he really has become an important friend to me D:

I BELIVE MY POST HAS BEEN SEMI RESTORED PARTLY TO ITS FORMER GLORY BEFORE SOMETHING FREAKY HAPPENED AND...EDITED? IT FOR ME...

TRACY OUT (:




my gosh this was a long post.
have i done you guys proud? XD

who else was jealous that rohan and caro managed to visit each other?
i certainly was ;__;

GREEN with JEALOUSY
...but only jealous 'cause i love you guys,
tracy.

:)

Thanks for the birthday wishes Rosanna! I loveddd your presents! XP

Alright, well it's 'bout time I wrote a post. Hehe. Btw, Yeana, I'm super glad everything's been going good for you, you definitely sounded much happier in your recent post! ^.^ GOOD JOB on the attorney position! I am SOOO proud of you!

Anyways...life was been treating me well lately. I'm not satisfied, but I am content. School has been going smoothly and the stress has toned down a bit. The Chinese SATs weren't so hard yesterday, so all I can do is cross my fingers and hope for the best. Yesterday was also district marching band evaluations, and our band got straight Superiors!! Only five bands out of 18 in our district got it, and I believe we were the only band in our county to get it. So a MAJOR accomplishment for us, considering last year we only got a Good rating, which contrary to belief, is NOT good at all! Lol. You guys probably have no idea what I'm talking about but that's okay...Lol.

Oh darn, I have to go out to dinner! I will write more when I get back! <3


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Okay I'm back! :P
Now where was I...Oh yeah, band. Heheh, okay so I posted a video of our performance on my profile on facebook so check it out when you have time! The quality isn't so great but whatever ^.^
Anyways, moving on...So I had a great 17th birthday today! I can't believe I am already SEVENTEEN! My gosh, it is so crazy. I loved how I kept on getting texts from facebook telling me I have new posts on my wall ;P It was great, haha.
So I also went to Chinese School today. *sigh* I'm just going to admit it...I am head over heels for Cody. Well actually this won't be my first time admitting it, but I'm just at the point where I HAVE to do something about this. Yeana, I totally agree with you...we need to get us some men. Lol. Lando boys just aren't cutting it for me...so lucky for me Cody lives in Tampa ;) *big SIGH* He is just so confusing. I need to make a first move, he won't be doing anything soon. AH what to DO?! Should I just tell him how I feel?! My friends here aren't exactly helping...it sucks that they don't know him. But you know what's so funny? This happened today, Cody and I were bickering (like always) and this new girl turns around and says:
"Oh you guys are just too funny!"
Me- "Oh hahah not really, Cody's just stupid"
"You know what Wendy? In dramas, the boy and girl always start out as enemies and then they realize they like each other..."

Bahahah, okay so I am NOT the only crazy one who seems a correlation here...but maybe I am crazy enough to wish that something like that would actually happen.

So yeah. Not getting so lucky on the boy front, here.

The whole friend thing is okay. I still get my moments. You know, this is one of the reasons why I'm so ready for college. I just want to start new, and surround myself with people who share the same interests. I think one of the reasons why I'm always getting left out is because I'm so busy doing my own things, that I just automatically exclude myself from things my friends are doing. My friends are not involved in most of the clubs I'm in nor the activities I do, so I'm always busy doing whatever I need to do. But I don't really mind this. I like having a schedule and knowing my goals. So idk. Sometimes I'm just READY to get away and start a new life. But then sometimes I'm just sooo thankful for my friends here...I don't know. I just wish you guys were here, next to me, all the time.
:(

Anyways....WOW it's already midnight! Time goes by fast when you're blogging...=P I should get going. Another busy week coming up. Tuesday is All-County band auditions and a little birthday dinner/sleepover with my best friends. (Wish it was you guys, of course) Wednesday, no school. Have tons of things do on Thursday...and then I have a Junior State of America convention to attend Friday to Sunday. I'm super excited but also kinda nervous. I didn't sign up as a main debate speaker, but I think I'm going to do some subsequent speaking. I still need to research the topics...but I'm too busy to...lmfao.

Junior year is so crazy. Thank God we have this blog and each other <3

Bye!
WENDY

Happy Birthday Wendy!!!!!!

Wendy-
Happy 17th Birthday, oh man you are mad old girlie! jk... Loe ya I hopeyou have a good day! Imagine me singing (badly, but none the less):

Happy birthday to you
Happy birthday to you!
Happy Birthday dear Wendy!!!
Happy Birthday to you!

All my Love, (sorry I would have texted you but my cell had been out of service and I lost all my contacts becasue T Mobile people are stupid so yea.... anywho Have a good one sweetie!
Love Ya,
Rosanna

Azn Sensation

Hello ladies!

Volleyball season is coming to a close. Our last game is on Thursday, and we had a chance to make it to regionals but missed it. We enter Tech week (aka Hell Week) in a few days, and we open in a week and a half. My role has suddenly changed from actor to keyboard accompanist because of some dumb freshman, and now my workload is tripled while my time "onstage" has shrunk from 5 minutes to 2 minutes. :] (I'm NOT bitter at all. If I don't get brownie points for this I will throw something.)

My brother is antagonizing us from college. Rather than calling my parents, he texts me while I am at school and expects me to get a check from my parents mailed out to him at that instant. Jerk. Is it any wonder that I don't miss him?

Speaking of brighter subjects, in spite of my crazy schedule, I've managed to raise my grades and put myself within range for straight A's this semester. :] I've also been selected as an attorney for the mock trial team! Yayy.

I hope everything is well with everyone. I can hear your voices when I close my eyes, and I see you smiling in my dreams. I miss you guys so much, and I'm *home*sick for AU and all the memories there.

Rosanna; I hope everything is well. We're all here for you...I'll be posting more blogs as some of the busier aspects of my life come to a close.

Wendy; don't stress about your SAT too much. I have my Math SAT II this Saturday and I'm not ready at all...I'm screwed for that. We might suffer together, but I think that you'll be fine.

Tracy; babe, I miss you like crazy. I wish I had you here to liven up my days and make even the most stressful days fun. You have that ability, and I miss it.




As the days get shorter and the nights longer, I find myself feeling the need for a guy in my life more and more. Sigh. All of my friends are being paired off, and I'm still here, single after two years. Maybe I'm just not meant to have a high school relationship. Sigh.

:]

I love you all so much and I cannot wait for the day when we all meet up again...I hope it's soon.

Lafonda, girl, you're getting some stuff on your birthday. Oh yes. :]]]