Thanks so much Tracy, you first post made me cry... it means a lot.
Life is not cutting anyone a break this year... its not going to well up here in Alabny, not well at all
Thursday, October 29, 2009
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
pink wednesday.
here's a short sweet post:
rosanna, we love you and we're here for you.
i wore pink. and all day i thought of you and mrs. cao.
please ignore the messiness of my room D: D: D:
full of pink,
and love (for all of you (; ),
tracy.
p.s. oh, and yes. i dress that weird everyday.
rosanna, we love you and we're here for you.
i wore pink. and all day i thought of you and mrs. cao.please ignore the messiness of my room D: D: D:
full of pink,
and love (for all of you (; ),
tracy.
p.s. oh, and yes. i dress that weird everyday.
Sunday, October 25, 2009
im sorry for being a fail D:
Wendy's right, I neglected posting again D:
it's cause my first post was me about to go to the Breast Cancer Walk, then i ended up being unable to go D:
I spent that day watching korean videos on youtube. but really, jo kwon is this very WEIRD and awesome dancer >///<
Yeana: CHILL. you're light years ahead of me, for some reason it hasn't clicked in my head that I'm getting older = college
=="
and first thing i do if i ever find that special someone is use my phone (or steal someone else's if i have to) and post on this blog that this penguin has found that eternal half of hers (;
XD i don't mean it that serious with the eternal and all, it's just that i recently saw drew barrymore's movie "Never been kissed" and she referred to Penguins who spend their whole lives finding thier other half and it just stuck in my head (:
Also, I don't care how well you "bounce back" TAKE A BREAK. If you're getting dizzy spells then take a break as soon as possible! (<--asap! ahah.) i worry ;__;
and have no worries, my school football team sucks (my school is full of nerds. we have winning teams for mathteam/sciene olympiad and the sports like swimming and fencing NOT football or baseball XD) so although i see the little flyer for "homecoming" i end up wondering "what's for lunch?"
don't get me wrong, I LOVE MY SCHOOL- and i have tons of school spirit...it's just that...the people running this thing are probably (and are) those kids who only want their ooberly high ranked friends up their with them, and wont make much effort in including anyone else =="
Wendy: I love talking to you through the blog and facebook too (;
and yeah, whats up with these pairs?! D<
i hated feeling left out, so whenever i'm talking with two friends and one sorta excludes the other by talking only to me (i dunno if they do it on purpose or not o__O) i turn to my OTHER friend, say my reply and ask them for theirs as well
don't worry wendy, you're ridiculously special in their and our hearts (:
and yeah. when friends get boyfriends, it's scary cause you don't know if they'll start to ignore you, or be wonderful and include you here and there (of course they need SOME exclusive time)
and i happen to still be loving my bracelet (:
though i wouldn't say no to another one (;
gosh. i have yeana's gift sitting in my room (in the corner unwrapped, sorry D:)
but i have to wait till after christmas or chinese new years to get some money so i can send it O:
and i should have enough to send one to wendy too (maybe i'll send rosanna hers early while i still have the money ==")
Rosana hon,
i've marked my calendar to wear pink (:
i'll take a picture and send you a photo of SUPPORT AND LOVE!
like in that tv show Friends, I'LL BE THERE FOR YOUUUU
(when the rain starts to fall) I'LL BE THERE FOR YOUUU
(...da da dun dun den dun.) =="
hopefully, like in Friends, we'll all be together even when we're old and wrinklish (: Lookin' foward to seeing you all gray with me :D
i've never felt so far away from you since that sad lonely month after NSLC, i NEED to hug you D:
i think it's beautiful that your friends can still worry about you even when they have so much going on. it shows how important you are to them. and you're just as beautiful worrying about us when you have so much going on D:
The reason why i neglect the blog so much is that I can never write short posts, they always take me at least half an hour =="
i don't feel like i should be writing anything for a couple spaces. it's the space for mrs. cao.
a teacher at my school spoke to us about her battle with breast cancer, she was ridiculously happy. Even with both breasts removed completely and after going through intense chemo, she said that she was positive throughout the whole ordeal 'cause she knew that she was going to survive it. It kills me because sometimes just being positive isn't enough, the world still wants to take you away.
Yeana babe, you BELONG as an attorney. You seriously kicked ass @ the trial (:
i remember on movie night we stayed oustide the theater studying (:
my school doesn't have a mock trial group either >__<
but we do have a speech and debate team (which gets crazy funding from the school just cause they're pretty good ==") and my friend recently formed JSE (junior states of something..i don't remmber) but not only did some of the potential members sort of bother me, but it's kinda awkward with my friend ==" his fault.
it's all of their faults. don't blame me for being awkwardly unfriendly with you all. (not you guys, them.)
Saturday was sort of bittersweet >__<
I went to the LIFT competition for Quizbowl up @ long island (a friend drove me with some other people) and it actually went pretty well (we placed eigth, so we can go to nationals!!)
and there were some awkward and fun events (on the car ride my friend told a story about how this guy was at a funeral, and his son who was giggling, told him- "daddy, jesus has a six pack!" XD being @ a catholic private school (they had PEACOCKS, TURTLES, KOI, and PARROTS. holy. crap.) we saw alot of crucifixes with jesus on them and my friend and I cracked up thinking "jesus has a six pack", there was this awfully angry boy from hunter high school who slammed the desk and cursed when he messed up- he seemed to have gotten particularly pissed when i answered correctly the problem he got wrong (hah.) probably cause quizbowl is 00% guys and quite honestly, i was probably one out of ten girls in a competition of a bajilllion boys ==" a bit too much testosterone in the air ==" especially when later the opposing team was actually really friendly and chatting with the moderator and was joking about how after the competition i should go with him to see toy story 3. i just joked around saying that i did want to see toy story 3 but hahhah, i had to go home. awkward. on the car ride back, we were crammed with MORE people, the extra people were guys who had gotten there by taking the Long Island Rail Road instead of getting a ride with us, but it was raining so they got a lift to the station. there were two guys in the trunk XD and we would joke to them that a police car was coming by and they'd be terrified as they crouched down trying to conceal themselves XD
Throughout the whole day i texted my sister (about every half hour) with messages such as "we got through the prelims, but this means that I'll be staying later" and "I'm definitely missing dinner, have it without me- but don't worry my friend's dad will drive us all home"
whenever i get messages frommy brother/sister it's generally rule of thumb for me to inform whoever's in charge, my grandparents or my parents
the whole time, i thought my dad was home cause he said he was going to make lunch so he wanted to know if i was going to be home on saturday (to which i said no cause i was going to LIFT) and i told my sister the night before "daddy's gonna be home tommorrow, he'll make you guys lunch so don't worry about making it yourself"
and the whole time she sent me replies with "OK ^^"
sorry for assuming this meant that she told my dad for me. cause the breaks we had between matches were about five minutes and not only was it not guaranteed that my dad would pick up the home phone (well, he wasn't even home) but it takes more than five minutes just to tell him "mommy wants you to call him" so i figured it'd be faster having my sister tell him in person.
Around 8:30 I get a text from my brother "Dad's home." and i'm wondering "WAIT. WHAT? I THOUGHT HE WAS HOME THE WHOLE TIME>>>?!"
then i calm down. "oh, jamie probably told him, no worries" as i text my sister with what i was just panicking about.
reply "ok ^^"
i get home, and i find out that my sister didn't even tell my BROTHER that i was going to be home late, and my dad's pretty pissed that i apparently "said nothing at all to anyone"
i tell him that i thought my sister told him what was going on and i get a "DOES SHE LOOK LIKE THE DAD OF THE HOUSE?" and he wanted to know why i lied all the time and did i think he was stupid that he'd fall for the oldest hat in the book, and if i wanted to hang out with friends, instead of lying i should say so.
if he actually gave a shit, he should go and get a freaking cell phone or something. god knows my mom has tried time after time to get him one but he always refuses for some inane reason ==" and since my mom's away for the time being, why in the world would i tell her that i'd be late home? my brother might not even BE home on account of his sister, so if i had to text someone, wouldn't i text my sister since she's the only one left in the house with a phone?
report card on tuesday will not help my standings with my family. i ACCEPT that i'm weak in math and science, but apparently it's my fault since my brother is this freakishly straight A student. I'm thoroughly convinced and have told him before that I think he's a being from the shining star O:
i'm viewed as a rather odd person =="
sorry for ranting about such trivial things when you all have so much on your plates (that's why i left it for last (: _)
tired,
tire,
tir,
ti,
t
t
t
tracy.
p.s. i love you guys.
it's cause my first post was me about to go to the Breast Cancer Walk, then i ended up being unable to go D:
I spent that day watching korean videos on youtube. but really, jo kwon is this very WEIRD and awesome dancer >///<
Yeana: CHILL. you're light years ahead of me, for some reason it hasn't clicked in my head that I'm getting older = college
=="
and first thing i do if i ever find that special someone is use my phone (or steal someone else's if i have to) and post on this blog that this penguin has found that eternal half of hers (;
XD i don't mean it that serious with the eternal and all, it's just that i recently saw drew barrymore's movie "Never been kissed" and she referred to Penguins who spend their whole lives finding thier other half and it just stuck in my head (:
Also, I don't care how well you "bounce back" TAKE A BREAK. If you're getting dizzy spells then take a break as soon as possible! (<--asap! ahah.) i worry ;__;
and have no worries, my school football team sucks (my school is full of nerds. we have winning teams for mathteam/sciene olympiad and the sports like swimming and fencing NOT football or baseball XD) so although i see the little flyer for "homecoming" i end up wondering "what's for lunch?"
don't get me wrong, I LOVE MY SCHOOL- and i have tons of school spirit...it's just that...the people running this thing are probably (and are) those kids who only want their ooberly high ranked friends up their with them, and wont make much effort in including anyone else =="
Wendy: I love talking to you through the blog and facebook too (;
and yeah, whats up with these pairs?! D<
i hated feeling left out, so whenever i'm talking with two friends and one sorta excludes the other by talking only to me (i dunno if they do it on purpose or not o__O) i turn to my OTHER friend, say my reply and ask them for theirs as well
don't worry wendy, you're ridiculously special in their and our hearts (:
and yeah. when friends get boyfriends, it's scary cause you don't know if they'll start to ignore you, or be wonderful and include you here and there (of course they need SOME exclusive time)
and i happen to still be loving my bracelet (:
though i wouldn't say no to another one (;
gosh. i have yeana's gift sitting in my room (in the corner unwrapped, sorry D:)
but i have to wait till after christmas or chinese new years to get some money so i can send it O:
and i should have enough to send one to wendy too (maybe i'll send rosanna hers early while i still have the money ==")
Rosana hon,
i've marked my calendar to wear pink (:
i'll take a picture and send you a photo of SUPPORT AND LOVE!
like in that tv show Friends, I'LL BE THERE FOR YOUUUU
(when the rain starts to fall) I'LL BE THERE FOR YOUUU
(...da da dun dun den dun.) =="
hopefully, like in Friends, we'll all be together even when we're old and wrinklish (: Lookin' foward to seeing you all gray with me :D
i've never felt so far away from you since that sad lonely month after NSLC, i NEED to hug you D:
i think it's beautiful that your friends can still worry about you even when they have so much going on. it shows how important you are to them. and you're just as beautiful worrying about us when you have so much going on D:
The reason why i neglect the blog so much is that I can never write short posts, they always take me at least half an hour =="
i don't feel like i should be writing anything for a couple spaces. it's the space for mrs. cao.
a teacher at my school spoke to us about her battle with breast cancer, she was ridiculously happy. Even with both breasts removed completely and after going through intense chemo, she said that she was positive throughout the whole ordeal 'cause she knew that she was going to survive it. It kills me because sometimes just being positive isn't enough, the world still wants to take you away.
Yeana babe, you BELONG as an attorney. You seriously kicked ass @ the trial (:
i remember on movie night we stayed oustide the theater studying (:
my school doesn't have a mock trial group either >__<
but we do have a speech and debate team (which gets crazy funding from the school just cause they're pretty good ==") and my friend recently formed JSE (junior states of something..i don't remmber) but not only did some of the potential members sort of bother me, but it's kinda awkward with my friend ==" his fault.
it's all of their faults. don't blame me for being awkwardly unfriendly with you all. (not you guys, them.)
Saturday was sort of bittersweet >__<
I went to the LIFT competition for Quizbowl up @ long island (a friend drove me with some other people) and it actually went pretty well (we placed eigth, so we can go to nationals!!)
and there were some awkward and fun events (on the car ride my friend told a story about how this guy was at a funeral, and his son who was giggling, told him- "daddy, jesus has a six pack!" XD being @ a catholic private school (they had PEACOCKS, TURTLES, KOI, and PARROTS. holy. crap.) we saw alot of crucifixes with jesus on them and my friend and I cracked up thinking "jesus has a six pack", there was this awfully angry boy from hunter high school who slammed the desk and cursed when he messed up- he seemed to have gotten particularly pissed when i answered correctly the problem he got wrong (hah.) probably cause quizbowl is 00% guys and quite honestly, i was probably one out of ten girls in a competition of a bajilllion boys ==" a bit too much testosterone in the air ==" especially when later the opposing team was actually really friendly and chatting with the moderator and was joking about how after the competition i should go with him to see toy story 3. i just joked around saying that i did want to see toy story 3 but hahhah, i had to go home. awkward. on the car ride back, we were crammed with MORE people, the extra people were guys who had gotten there by taking the Long Island Rail Road instead of getting a ride with us, but it was raining so they got a lift to the station. there were two guys in the trunk XD and we would joke to them that a police car was coming by and they'd be terrified as they crouched down trying to conceal themselves XD
Throughout the whole day i texted my sister (about every half hour) with messages such as "we got through the prelims, but this means that I'll be staying later" and "I'm definitely missing dinner, have it without me- but don't worry my friend's dad will drive us all home"
whenever i get messages frommy brother/sister it's generally rule of thumb for me to inform whoever's in charge, my grandparents or my parents
the whole time, i thought my dad was home cause he said he was going to make lunch so he wanted to know if i was going to be home on saturday (to which i said no cause i was going to LIFT) and i told my sister the night before "daddy's gonna be home tommorrow, he'll make you guys lunch so don't worry about making it yourself"
and the whole time she sent me replies with "OK ^^"
sorry for assuming this meant that she told my dad for me. cause the breaks we had between matches were about five minutes and not only was it not guaranteed that my dad would pick up the home phone (well, he wasn't even home) but it takes more than five minutes just to tell him "mommy wants you to call him" so i figured it'd be faster having my sister tell him in person.
Around 8:30 I get a text from my brother "Dad's home." and i'm wondering "WAIT. WHAT? I THOUGHT HE WAS HOME THE WHOLE TIME>>>?!"
then i calm down. "oh, jamie probably told him, no worries" as i text my sister with what i was just panicking about.
reply "ok ^^"
i get home, and i find out that my sister didn't even tell my BROTHER that i was going to be home late, and my dad's pretty pissed that i apparently "said nothing at all to anyone"
i tell him that i thought my sister told him what was going on and i get a "DOES SHE LOOK LIKE THE DAD OF THE HOUSE?" and he wanted to know why i lied all the time and did i think he was stupid that he'd fall for the oldest hat in the book, and if i wanted to hang out with friends, instead of lying i should say so.
if he actually gave a shit, he should go and get a freaking cell phone or something. god knows my mom has tried time after time to get him one but he always refuses for some inane reason ==" and since my mom's away for the time being, why in the world would i tell her that i'd be late home? my brother might not even BE home on account of his sister, so if i had to text someone, wouldn't i text my sister since she's the only one left in the house with a phone?
report card on tuesday will not help my standings with my family. i ACCEPT that i'm weak in math and science, but apparently it's my fault since my brother is this freakishly straight A student. I'm thoroughly convinced and have told him before that I think he's a being from the shining star O:
i'm viewed as a rather odd person =="
sorry for ranting about such trivial things when you all have so much on your plates (that's why i left it for last (: _)
tired,
tire,
tir,
ti,
t
t
t
tracy.
p.s. i love you guys.
Can You?
Can you please keep the Cao family in your prayers? Mrs. Cao lost her battle to breast cancer on Friday afternoon. Could you also wear pink on Wednesday if possible? In remebrance of all the people that have had, and have breast cancer? Thanks
Rosanna
Rosanna
Friday, October 23, 2009
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So this week has been a suprisingly sucky one and Yeana, life is not good here either.....
So as much as I would love to respond to your blogs, I am going to vent and then go do homeowrk.... and respond another day
Failed the PSATs, whoops
I have had extracirriculars after school everyday this week..... it isn't exactly helping my school work..... but the only classes I like are chorus, Criminal Law, APUSH, and English.... eff math adn science.... I think that it is stupid.
So Thursday my fellow AP-ers and I took a field trip to Boston, Mass. It was not so much fun other than the bus ride and Qunicy Market, Freedom Trail and JFK Museum, not so much me....
A lot of stuff with friends has been happening, and not like drama... its legit stuff.
One of my best friends might be moving to Wisconsin for her dads work, but her mom doesn't want to move so her parents are fighting, another frined is going to loose his mom to cancer becasue they found it so soon, and another close friend's mom was diagnosed with cancer, found out it spread, and aren;t sure if they can cure it... I want junior year to be over but apparently senior year is worse? Ugh
I am tired and sleep deprived so therefore I have been in a weird mood lately and my friends are starting to worry about me... but considereing what they have going on, they shouldn't be.
Tomorrow I have Drivers Ed, Chruch, A Pee-Wee Football game (that one younger cousin plays in and another cheers for) and then am having a Ladies Night with my friends... hopefully it will lift my spirits and I can help my friends also?
So extracirricular schedule: Monday: help my teacher go to brothers games *not home til 7 Tuesday: All girls chorus, Voice, Meoldies of Christmas *not home until 11pm Wednesday: nothing, but I usually wind up staying after anyway... for school or something Thrusday: Youth COurt *home at 8 Friday: homeowrk or friends, or both *home whenever Saturday: Volunteer at my school, Drivers Ed, Church (sometimes), Hang with frends, Saturday nights are usually nights people have parties Sunday: HOMEWORK becasue I have a problem with procrastination...
Ok so that is my life, right now it kind of sucks and I am stressing out so much more than you can actually imagine
Love you all, thanks for listening,
Rosanna
So as much as I would love to respond to your blogs, I am going to vent and then go do homeowrk.... and respond another day
Failed the PSATs, whoops
I have had extracirriculars after school everyday this week..... it isn't exactly helping my school work..... but the only classes I like are chorus, Criminal Law, APUSH, and English.... eff math adn science.... I think that it is stupid.
So Thursday my fellow AP-ers and I took a field trip to Boston, Mass. It was not so much fun other than the bus ride and Qunicy Market, Freedom Trail and JFK Museum, not so much me....
A lot of stuff with friends has been happening, and not like drama... its legit stuff.
One of my best friends might be moving to Wisconsin for her dads work, but her mom doesn't want to move so her parents are fighting, another frined is going to loose his mom to cancer becasue they found it so soon, and another close friend's mom was diagnosed with cancer, found out it spread, and aren;t sure if they can cure it... I want junior year to be over but apparently senior year is worse? Ugh
I am tired and sleep deprived so therefore I have been in a weird mood lately and my friends are starting to worry about me... but considereing what they have going on, they shouldn't be.
Tomorrow I have Drivers Ed, Chruch, A Pee-Wee Football game (that one younger cousin plays in and another cheers for) and then am having a Ladies Night with my friends... hopefully it will lift my spirits and I can help my friends also?
So extracirricular schedule: Monday: help my teacher go to brothers games *not home til 7 Tuesday: All girls chorus, Voice, Meoldies of Christmas *not home until 11pm Wednesday: nothing, but I usually wind up staying after anyway... for school or something Thrusday: Youth COurt *home at 8 Friday: homeowrk or friends, or both *home whenever Saturday: Volunteer at my school, Drivers Ed, Church (sometimes), Hang with frends, Saturday nights are usually nights people have parties Sunday: HOMEWORK becasue I have a problem with procrastination...
Ok so that is my life, right now it kind of sucks and I am stressing out so much more than you can actually imagine
Love you all, thanks for listening,
Rosanna
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
From Land O Lakes,
Hello Everyone! :D
In response to your posts...
Yeana: Oh honey, like I said, I am sure you did FINE on your PSATs! You are probably holding very high expectations for yourself and probably got National Merit anyways...Lol. Anyways. What is done is done! Don't worry too much about it :) I was so happy to hear that you joined the Mock Trial team! I really hope you get an attorney position; you would do awesome. I am jealous...our school does not have one. :( I am in Junior State though, I don't know if you guys have that at your school? I guess it's like a political debate club, and it's nationwide. I'm going to a convention in Ft. Lauderdale this November and I'm very excited! Moving on...oh my, are you okay from volleyball?! Season still hasn't ended huh? You hang in there. :P And no, don't give me anything for my birthday! Considering I still have not sent you that new bracelet I do not deserve anything! But thinking about it...why don't I just make new bracelets for everyone? Ours are all probably getting kinda gross by now anyways...Lol. What colors would you all like?
Tracy: You never wrote another post! Hehe. I have been talking with on Facebook, so I'm glad for that. :) I think you looking just too adorable in your winter wear! Oh, how I would give to go to NY right now! It's almost November and now that a "cold front" has past, Florida is heating up again...*sigh* Hope everything is going well with you...any juicy storiesss? ;)
Rosanna: You haven't written a post recently but I'm going to respond anyways. Hahaha. I hope you are not stressing yourself too much. Oh, who am I kidding...
XP
Reading about your nostalgia made me yearning to go back to AU as well :(
Honestly...I have missed you guys more than ever these days. Ever feel like everyone surrounding you has a "pair" and you're just by yourself? Maybe you haven't, but I certainly do. All the time. And it normally doesn't bother me, because I like having five best friends...but sometimes you just need that one person who you can talk to about anything! I don't really have that one person here. I guess it's because I joined my friend circle a little bit late. Two of my best friends, Victoria and Erin have been besties since fourth grade. Last year I was super close to Victoria and then to Erin, but now this year they're back into a pair again. Two other best friends of mine, Lara and Kendrick (I am closer with these two), have been besties since sixth grade. They are just inseparable. I have had my times being very close with both of them, and Lara especially this year. While we are actually a trio, sometimes I do feel they have a much closer bond. Btw, I entered this friend group in 7th/8th grade. The rest have known each other since elementary school. And my other best friend, Haley, who I am not as close with, is just with her boyfriend 24/7 so it kinda bothers me...Lmfao.
So as you can see. I don't really have a pair. I like having a strong friend base, and then mingling with other friend groups as well. And I tell each of my best friends different things...but like I said, there isn't really one person I tell everythinggg to. I don't have that person who I am with constantly. And this kinda bothers me. Sometimes I reallly desire a friend like that, but most of the time I am fine and have learned to accept it.
I just don't know why it's been bothering me a lot lately...
*sigh*
Oh, what to do? Sorry for my rambling. What would I do without you guys?!
<3
WENDY
In response to your posts...
Yeana: Oh honey, like I said, I am sure you did FINE on your PSATs! You are probably holding very high expectations for yourself and probably got National Merit anyways...Lol. Anyways. What is done is done! Don't worry too much about it :) I was so happy to hear that you joined the Mock Trial team! I really hope you get an attorney position; you would do awesome. I am jealous...our school does not have one. :( I am in Junior State though, I don't know if you guys have that at your school? I guess it's like a political debate club, and it's nationwide. I'm going to a convention in Ft. Lauderdale this November and I'm very excited! Moving on...oh my, are you okay from volleyball?! Season still hasn't ended huh? You hang in there. :P And no, don't give me anything for my birthday! Considering I still have not sent you that new bracelet I do not deserve anything! But thinking about it...why don't I just make new bracelets for everyone? Ours are all probably getting kinda gross by now anyways...Lol. What colors would you all like?
Tracy: You never wrote another post! Hehe. I have been talking with on Facebook, so I'm glad for that. :) I think you looking just too adorable in your winter wear! Oh, how I would give to go to NY right now! It's almost November and now that a "cold front" has past, Florida is heating up again...*sigh* Hope everything is going well with you...any juicy storiesss? ;)
Rosanna: You haven't written a post recently but I'm going to respond anyways. Hahaha. I hope you are not stressing yourself too much. Oh, who am I kidding...
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Reading about your nostalgia made me yearning to go back to AU as well :(
Honestly...I have missed you guys more than ever these days. Ever feel like everyone surrounding you has a "pair" and you're just by yourself? Maybe you haven't, but I certainly do. All the time. And it normally doesn't bother me, because I like having five best friends...but sometimes you just need that one person who you can talk to about anything! I don't really have that one person here. I guess it's because I joined my friend circle a little bit late. Two of my best friends, Victoria and Erin have been besties since fourth grade. Last year I was super close to Victoria and then to Erin, but now this year they're back into a pair again. Two other best friends of mine, Lara and Kendrick (I am closer with these two), have been besties since sixth grade. They are just inseparable. I have had my times being very close with both of them, and Lara especially this year. While we are actually a trio, sometimes I do feel they have a much closer bond. Btw, I entered this friend group in 7th/8th grade. The rest have known each other since elementary school. And my other best friend, Haley, who I am not as close with, is just with her boyfriend 24/7 so it kinda bothers me...Lmfao.
So as you can see. I don't really have a pair. I like having a strong friend base, and then mingling with other friend groups as well. And I tell each of my best friends different things...but like I said, there isn't really one person I tell everythinggg to. I don't have that person who I am with constantly. And this kinda bothers me. Sometimes I reallly desire a friend like that, but most of the time I am fine and have learned to accept it.
I just don't know why it's been bothering me a lot lately...
*sigh*
Oh, what to do? Sorry for my rambling. What would I do without you guys?!
<3
WENDY
Sunday, October 18, 2009
Azn Sensation
...understood your references to musicals, of course, Rosanna. :] But everything is not coming up Roses for me in Cupertino. Things are not looking up here in Tino.
Well ladies, I've got news. I think I totally screwed up on my PSAT, but whatever. I'll just...take...the...S...A....T.......over......................again..................
Sigh.
Anyways, to Wendy:
Don't worry. If Jon wasn't the right guy for you, then he just wasn't the right guy for you. Sometimes moving on is the best thing to do.
I'm glad to hear you're doing so well in school though. I wish I could say the same, but I can't. I just got my first essay back with a large C written on it. Needless to say, I'm not too happy with my English teacher right now. I'm barely hanging on to an A after that essay, and I've barely raised my grade to an A in APUSH. I have a pretty solid B in AP Bio, and my other classes are fine. My parents are very close to locking me up in my room with things necessary for school, a piece of bread, and a bottle of water.
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I've joined the mock trial team at school, and I have to direct and cross two witnesses (one for each) tomorrow night. This will determine whether I get an attorney position or not. Sigh. I don't think I'll get it. There are only 8 attorney spots and many, many people with the same ambitions.
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I didn't go to Homecoming at my school. It was the day before the PSATs, but seeing as how I most likely failed them, maybe I should have just gone and had fun the night before.
Whatever. I would probably have just been left watching other people dance with their boyfriends/girlfriends anyways.
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My season is still going, Rosanna. Senior night is next week, and seeing as how we only have one senior on our team this year (shocking, I know), we're planning to make it pretty amazing.
I took a ball off the floor at our last game, but the only problem is, I took my head off the floor as well. I've had dizzy spells for the past two days and a stiff neck, but it's all getting better now. You know me; I bounce right back. :]
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Wendy! Anything special you want for your birthday? It's coming up... :]]]]]
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To Tracybabe,
I wouldn't say that boys are like drugs. :] I say be with one when it works out, but at other times, don't let them distract you too too much. ^0^ I'm excited for the day you announce your first relationship. :]]
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I love you and miss you all.
-Yeans
Well ladies, I've got news. I think I totally screwed up on my PSAT, but whatever. I'll just...take...the...S...A....T.......over......................again..................
Sigh.
Anyways, to Wendy:
Don't worry. If Jon wasn't the right guy for you, then he just wasn't the right guy for you. Sometimes moving on is the best thing to do.
I'm glad to hear you're doing so well in school though. I wish I could say the same, but I can't. I just got my first essay back with a large C written on it. Needless to say, I'm not too happy with my English teacher right now. I'm barely hanging on to an A after that essay, and I've barely raised my grade to an A in APUSH. I have a pretty solid B in AP Bio, and my other classes are fine. My parents are very close to locking me up in my room with things necessary for school, a piece of bread, and a bottle of water.
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I've joined the mock trial team at school, and I have to direct and cross two witnesses (one for each) tomorrow night. This will determine whether I get an attorney position or not. Sigh. I don't think I'll get it. There are only 8 attorney spots and many, many people with the same ambitions.
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I didn't go to Homecoming at my school. It was the day before the PSATs, but seeing as how I most likely failed them, maybe I should have just gone and had fun the night before.
Whatever. I would probably have just been left watching other people dance with their boyfriends/girlfriends anyways.
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My season is still going, Rosanna. Senior night is next week, and seeing as how we only have one senior on our team this year (shocking, I know), we're planning to make it pretty amazing.
I took a ball off the floor at our last game, but the only problem is, I took my head off the floor as well. I've had dizzy spells for the past two days and a stiff neck, but it's all getting better now. You know me; I bounce right back. :]
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Wendy! Anything special you want for your birthday? It's coming up... :]]]]]
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To Tracybabe,
I wouldn't say that boys are like drugs. :] I say be with one when it works out, but at other times, don't let them distract you too too much. ^0^ I'm excited for the day you announce your first relationship. :]]
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I love you and miss you all.
-Yeans
Saturday, October 17, 2009
new york weather D:
hello to all (:
i'm going to post again later on...today.
it'll be when i get back from central park 'cause i'm doing the MSABC (making strides against breast cancer!) walk (:
i'm pretty hyped up over it, i've only volunteered to help out for it before, i've never actually walked the walk :D
and wendy, im jealous. it's down to the forties here in new goshdarn york. i'm not sure if it's the exact same with rosanna, but it's POURING. D:
see you in but a few hours,
tracy.
i'm going to post again later on...today.
it'll be when i get back from central park 'cause i'm doing the MSABC (making strides against breast cancer!) walk (:
i'm pretty hyped up over it, i've only volunteered to help out for it before, i've never actually walked the walk :D
and wendy, im jealous. it's down to the forties here in new goshdarn york. i'm not sure if it's the exact same with rosanna, but it's POURING. D:
see you in but a few hours,
tracy.
Life's pretty Legit.
NOT!
Hahaha. Hello my lovelyyy ladies! :)
How are we doing this weekend? I, for one, had a three-day weekend which I was so so so HAPPY about! Finally, some relief from all the festivities going on...hahaha. So homecoming week and all that stuff is over and gone...and I'm pretty thankful for it. Yes, it was an exciting part of my so-called life, but it really did create a lot of drama and stress! Plus, of course having fun and the IB program don't mesh well! So God forbid we are actually allowed to have fun at once...because it totally messes up own daily agendas and only causes more STRESS!
Hahah...I am on a roll today...XP
So anyways. I broke up with Jon. Yes yes yes. It went verrryy well actually. It was the first time a breakup went well. Lmfao. He was very understanding and everything's back to normal!
Hmm what else. Oooh so a new guy is in the picture. (I move on fast, don't I??) Well actually he's not new. I don't know if I've talked about him before...but he goes to my Chinese School and I've pretty much had feelings for him since the 6th grade. Ha. Ha. He's pretty BA...and therefore of course us girls love to chase the bad boys! ;P
Problem is, our own relationship is just weird...he's SOOO hard to read! I have no idea if he has feelings for me or not...and I have been this confused for years. That is why I'll like other people, but then once I see him every Sunday, my stomach starts to heave (ok maybe heave is too strong of a word) with butterflies and my heart races, and oh! Just all that mushy girly stuff...
*sigh*
I feel like I'm in an Asian drama. Only...it's not one of those happy ones, where the bad boy realizes he likes the good girl after all of his rude remarks and jokes. Ohh when will I stop dreaming?! *sighs some more*
I'm lucky to have you guys, my friends would (and have) laugh at me for gushing like this...hahaha.
Okay so enough about that...I would appreciate advice, btw ;D
So weather this weekend in lovely LOL has been amazing! It's a breezy 75 degrees and I love it! I wish it will stay like this forever...but who am I kidding, it's gonna shoot straight back up to 98 this following week. It probably won't stay cool until December. Ahahaa.
Okay, moving on. School lately has been stressful but I'm pulling through. Straight A's first quarter, woo-hoo! So even though I've been freaking out every day and staying up late, having good grades makes everything worthwhile. :) At least I know I'm doing something right...
Alright. I should be getting off! It is midnight, and I've got to play tennis early tomorrow morning! Hehehe. I hope everyone is having a great weekend. Love you all.
<3
WENDY
Hahaha. Hello my lovelyyy ladies! :)
How are we doing this weekend? I, for one, had a three-day weekend which I was so so so HAPPY about! Finally, some relief from all the festivities going on...hahaha. So homecoming week and all that stuff is over and gone...and I'm pretty thankful for it. Yes, it was an exciting part of my so-called life, but it really did create a lot of drama and stress! Plus, of course having fun and the IB program don't mesh well! So God forbid we are actually allowed to have fun at once...because it totally messes up own daily agendas and only causes more STRESS!
Hahah...I am on a roll today...XP
So anyways. I broke up with Jon. Yes yes yes. It went verrryy well actually. It was the first time a breakup went well. Lmfao. He was very understanding and everything's back to normal!
Hmm what else. Oooh so a new guy is in the picture. (I move on fast, don't I??) Well actually he's not new. I don't know if I've talked about him before...but he goes to my Chinese School and I've pretty much had feelings for him since the 6th grade. Ha. Ha. He's pretty BA...and therefore of course us girls love to chase the bad boys! ;P
Problem is, our own relationship is just weird...he's SOOO hard to read! I have no idea if he has feelings for me or not...and I have been this confused for years. That is why I'll like other people, but then once I see him every Sunday, my stomach starts to heave (ok maybe heave is too strong of a word) with butterflies and my heart races, and oh! Just all that mushy girly stuff...
*sigh*
I feel like I'm in an Asian drama. Only...it's not one of those happy ones, where the bad boy realizes he likes the good girl after all of his rude remarks and jokes. Ohh when will I stop dreaming?! *sighs some more*
I'm lucky to have you guys, my friends would (and have) laugh at me for gushing like this...hahaha.
Okay so enough about that...I would appreciate advice, btw ;D
So weather this weekend in lovely LOL has been amazing! It's a breezy 75 degrees and I love it! I wish it will stay like this forever...but who am I kidding, it's gonna shoot straight back up to 98 this following week. It probably won't stay cool until December. Ahahaa.
Okay, moving on. School lately has been stressful but I'm pulling through. Straight A's first quarter, woo-hoo! So even though I've been freaking out every day and staying up late, having good grades makes everything worthwhile. :) At least I know I'm doing something right...
Alright. I should be getting off! It is midnight, and I've got to play tennis early tomorrow morning! Hehehe. I hope everyone is having a great weekend. Love you all.
<3
WENDY
Sunday, October 11, 2009
Everything's Coming Up Roses...
... for me and for you!
Hello Ladies!
Sorry it has taken such a long time for me to blog, I (as we all) have been very busy.
Yeana- Is volleyball over?, for us here it is still going, but I don't know what the sprot schedule out in Cali is. I am so glad that you got into your play! Theatre is a wonderful thing, too bad I can't act very well... or else I would try to be in the play. How was the date?!?!?!?!
Tracy- Don't ever try to avoid love. While I do agree that boys are idiots and weird (maybe its a NY thing?), there are those really sweet ones.... and that's what you will get one day! I am glad that you are doing well... I constantly worry about all of you. And yes, energy can't be created nor destroyed, only converted.
Wendy- I am sorry that things with you and Jon did not work out, but maybe it is for the better, when the timing is right, love or a guy will find you; don't doubt that for one minute becasue you (all) deserve that and so much more! I saw pictures of you on Facebook! GORGEOUS
So I have been quite busy with life, as we all have. Oh my schedule is packed to the brim and overflowing, I am loving it (and getting stresses by it!) I did not make the select chorus, but I am President of the All Grils Chorus and singing lead Soprano 2. I also made Melodies of Christmas... I am excited but very overwhelmed. With that, I have tutoring, Youth Court, Voice Lessons, Appointments, Planning Surprise Sweet 16s, PSATs (not the SATs yet...), Drivers Ed, Volunteer Work, Going to all of my brother's home games, and trying to go to friend's sports. We just had homecoming and it was pretty balling, and other misc things that are minor in my schedule. All in all it is quite a busy year, especially on top of all the homeowrk I have been getting.. 4 is the latest I have gone to bed so far (I get up at 5:30)
It seems like this year there are so many things that have gone wrong so far, and I am overwhelemd and stressed and worried about most all of my close friends... life is not so legit right now (but I am trying to get it there). I wish that it was July again, and we were walking around AU together, not really having a care in the world other than the case; but we are not and until we are reunited, it will have to remain as what it is.
I love you all, but I must say adeu, adeu to you and you and you... (Yeana- did you catch my musical references at the begining and end? lol) So until we blog again, remember I love you and am always here no matter what the time difference. Hugs and Kisses
Rosanna
P.S. - Tracy: I appreciate your comparison to Juliet, but I don't think that I am a good writer in the least bit (and neither do my teachers!) But I appreciate it never the less, and pray that I don't have as tragic and ending as her!
<3
Hello Ladies!
Sorry it has taken such a long time for me to blog, I (as we all) have been very busy.
Yeana- Is volleyball over?, for us here it is still going, but I don't know what the sprot schedule out in Cali is. I am so glad that you got into your play! Theatre is a wonderful thing, too bad I can't act very well... or else I would try to be in the play. How was the date?!?!?!?!
Tracy- Don't ever try to avoid love. While I do agree that boys are idiots and weird (maybe its a NY thing?), there are those really sweet ones.... and that's what you will get one day! I am glad that you are doing well... I constantly worry about all of you. And yes, energy can't be created nor destroyed, only converted.
Wendy- I am sorry that things with you and Jon did not work out, but maybe it is for the better, when the timing is right, love or a guy will find you; don't doubt that for one minute becasue you (all) deserve that and so much more! I saw pictures of you on Facebook! GORGEOUS
So I have been quite busy with life, as we all have. Oh my schedule is packed to the brim and overflowing, I am loving it (and getting stresses by it!) I did not make the select chorus, but I am President of the All Grils Chorus and singing lead Soprano 2. I also made Melodies of Christmas... I am excited but very overwhelmed. With that, I have tutoring, Youth Court, Voice Lessons, Appointments, Planning Surprise Sweet 16s, PSATs (not the SATs yet...), Drivers Ed, Volunteer Work, Going to all of my brother's home games, and trying to go to friend's sports. We just had homecoming and it was pretty balling, and other misc things that are minor in my schedule. All in all it is quite a busy year, especially on top of all the homeowrk I have been getting.. 4 is the latest I have gone to bed so far (I get up at 5:30)
It seems like this year there are so many things that have gone wrong so far, and I am overwhelemd and stressed and worried about most all of my close friends... life is not so legit right now (but I am trying to get it there). I wish that it was July again, and we were walking around AU together, not really having a care in the world other than the case; but we are not and until we are reunited, it will have to remain as what it is.
I love you all, but I must say adeu, adeu to you and you and you... (Yeana- did you catch my musical references at the begining and end? lol) So until we blog again, remember I love you and am always here no matter what the time difference. Hugs and Kisses
Rosanna
P.S. - Tracy: I appreciate your comparison to Juliet, but I don't think that I am a good writer in the least bit (and neither do my teachers!) But I appreciate it never the less, and pray that I don't have as tragic and ending as her!
<3
Saturday, October 10, 2009
SAY NO TO DRUGS.
look up: "boogie maths" on youtube. it's this ridiculously insanely wonderful video. about math. at first i thought it was sweet. then i felt my heart die and fall to the stomach as it proceeded to scare the bejeezus out of me.
to my lovely fifth floor ladies,
boys are like drugs. say no (:
of course, that's just my rule of thumb ^__^"
i haven't had a past relationship like wendy and yeana because...well, isn't it scary?
the awkwardness.
the whole falling in love thing seems like giving away a part of yourselves. After leaving a part of my heart back @ DC with you guys, i dunno if i wanna give away the whole thing. it hurts.
besides. it seems like you guys get the nice sweet guys (even though the chemistry might be lacking for you ;__; THERE ARE BALLOONS.) i get my dear old friends from middle school nonchalantly asking me "will you go out with me" after i sorta reply no as a reflex they reply "oh. well, i was just joking anyways"
awkward laughter. and i have to go to school with these people.
energy can't be destroyed, only converted-right?
then what about friendship? it sure as hell didn't convert into love (sorry, i sorta caused that)
so where'd it go?
...fort minor "where'd you go, i missed you so/it seems like forever ...etc" :D
yars well. now to reply. XD
wendy:
it's a shame 'cause it seemed so perfect to an outside viewer D:
though i agree with yeana that you should go with him to homecoming at least, if there still isn't any chemistry then i support your decision to break it off. There's nothing wrong with wanted to find someone who could be the one!
and oh gosh, SATs D: like yeana i'm only taking the PSAT ^__^
i wanted to wait for my brother to take all of his SATs first and then i'd just take his old prep book instead of buying an expensive new one :D sat was also his SAT day, and his last one!!
i cried when i realized that he'd probably move out ==" so im hoping he'll go to cooper union so he can at least stay in NYC (:
maybe with a little explanation and time your dad will understand how important band is to you O: though i understand the whole "family is everything" mantra. what i don't get is that if it's "everything" then why do we not spend time together if we're not allowed out? doesn't seem like much bonding when we're all sitting in our respective rooms just...doing our own thing. it's a little lonesome, but i seem to be the only one thinking that in my family. my friend called me a rabbit cause i think if they're lonely they die. yeah, that's not morbit at all =="
i would like very much to see a picture of you in your fabulous dress after your event (:
yeana: maybe if you go to ny and i go to cali it'll improve our chances of finding that special someone D:
is it possible that your play will be on youtube? facebook? anything accessible over the internet to poor us all the way on the east coast?
also also, i have an album on facebook for it (NYAF 09) but since i was in costume i didn't take as many pics as my friend who has this gorgeous camera (the bulky professional kind....jealous) and was taking pictures of EVERYONE. i must nag her to put them online....<3
hahhah, my phone still has some of the texts from the last day of NSLC (btw i was wearing my nslc sweat shirt today <3 ) and i had texts from you and tucky, tucky's were filled with "love yous" and "miss yous" and when my brother borrowed my phone to text someone- he was just "...who's this?"
sorry, but i felt that rather than bust a vein trying to explain to him that it's a guy- but it's a friend- and really, it's just a friend! (a super friend, but friend nonetheless) i figured it'd be easier to tell him it was a girl.
"...who?"
"um. my friend from nslc" <--trying to be ambiguos, i didn't give away the gender. yet.
"the one that writes you letters?" <--thought about all of your letters +tuckys....i miss you guys
"er, yeah."
"the one from california?"
"yeana? sure..."
"you guys are so weird " *laughs it off with me*
i had a heart attack. sorry love, you're an accomplice to my crime ^__^
rosanna rosanna rosanna
i worry for you O:
donde esta? D:
in workshop we discussed plays, and we went over romeo and juliet for a mo'.
you remind me of juliet because you both are so beatifully literate when you speak and write.
im insanely jealous.
so satisfy my craving and write on the blog (:
^about that workshop, we have to bring a new piece of writing each week, i brought in a poem(i'm terrified of poems. this was scary for me to attempt. they're just so...hard.i go more for the fantasy short fiction ^__^)here it is:
A Love Letter
Dear firefly,
Touch my cheek with your gleaming light
(And) Kiss my lips with your spindly legs
Surround me with your faerie lights
(And) Save me on these lonely nights
Sincerely,
Me
*the parenthesis around the "And" means that originally it was in the poem but my teacher recommended cutting it out so it'd be "Touch, Kiss, Surround, and Save" but they give a sort of different feeling so i put it there so you guys could see it both ways (:
Also, what do you think of the "sincerely"? we discussed it, but i dunno. i considered changing it to "love" but i feel like that makes it so...insincere? just cornier. i mean, i know this is addressed to a firefly (XD ) but it's still a love letter, and if i were to write one, i don't think i'd be able to write "love, me (or tracy)" but instead i'd write "sincerely" cause i'd want him to know that these are my sincere feelings and i really meant it.
weird weird weird, i'm writing alot today D:
...my train of thought is hurling itself 100 mph today, i just remembered that my teacher mentioned that Emily Dickinson wrote these poems as well about bugs and she recommended that i check them out XD
gosh i'm out of it today.
im currently speed knitting in an attempt to finish a scarf as a bday gift for my dad. a hat or gloves would've been faster to make, but he never and won't wear those, i saw him wear a scarf once, but i think he lost it- so maybe this will work? then again, he hates me knitting so he'd probably take it and leave it =="
IM DOWN WITH 12 INCHES. IM A KNITTING MACHINE. IM. IM. IM GANGSTER.
*gangstah. one of my friends would joke with me, telling me that to say and type it properly would be with an "-ah" ending, for EVERYTHING that ends with "-er". so he was the "numbah one gangstah" XD XD
sorry. i've mentioned this before, but i'm out of it. who needs drugs when your body seems to produce them naturally? :D
sincerely,
with unspoken love,
that's still love,
tracy.
to my lovely fifth floor ladies,
boys are like drugs. say no (:
of course, that's just my rule of thumb ^__^"
i haven't had a past relationship like wendy and yeana because...well, isn't it scary?
the awkwardness.
the whole falling in love thing seems like giving away a part of yourselves. After leaving a part of my heart back @ DC with you guys, i dunno if i wanna give away the whole thing. it hurts.
besides. it seems like you guys get the nice sweet guys (even though the chemistry might be lacking for you ;__; THERE ARE BALLOONS.) i get my dear old friends from middle school nonchalantly asking me "will you go out with me" after i sorta reply no as a reflex they reply "oh. well, i was just joking anyways"
awkward laughter. and i have to go to school with these people.
energy can't be destroyed, only converted-right?
then what about friendship? it sure as hell didn't convert into love (sorry, i sorta caused that)
so where'd it go?
...fort minor "where'd you go, i missed you so/it seems like forever ...etc" :D
yars well. now to reply. XD
wendy:
it's a shame 'cause it seemed so perfect to an outside viewer D:
though i agree with yeana that you should go with him to homecoming at least, if there still isn't any chemistry then i support your decision to break it off. There's nothing wrong with wanted to find someone who could be the one!
and oh gosh, SATs D: like yeana i'm only taking the PSAT ^__^
i wanted to wait for my brother to take all of his SATs first and then i'd just take his old prep book instead of buying an expensive new one :D sat was also his SAT day, and his last one!!
i cried when i realized that he'd probably move out ==" so im hoping he'll go to cooper union so he can at least stay in NYC (:
maybe with a little explanation and time your dad will understand how important band is to you O: though i understand the whole "family is everything" mantra. what i don't get is that if it's "everything" then why do we not spend time together if we're not allowed out? doesn't seem like much bonding when we're all sitting in our respective rooms just...doing our own thing. it's a little lonesome, but i seem to be the only one thinking that in my family. my friend called me a rabbit cause i think if they're lonely they die. yeah, that's not morbit at all =="
i would like very much to see a picture of you in your fabulous dress after your event (:
yeana: maybe if you go to ny and i go to cali it'll improve our chances of finding that special someone D:
is it possible that your play will be on youtube? facebook? anything accessible over the internet to poor us all the way on the east coast?
also also, i have an album on facebook for it (NYAF 09) but since i was in costume i didn't take as many pics as my friend who has this gorgeous camera (the bulky professional kind....jealous) and was taking pictures of EVERYONE. i must nag her to put them online....<3
hahhah, my phone still has some of the texts from the last day of NSLC (btw i was wearing my nslc sweat shirt today <3 ) and i had texts from you and tucky, tucky's were filled with "love yous" and "miss yous" and when my brother borrowed my phone to text someone- he was just "...who's this?"
sorry, but i felt that rather than bust a vein trying to explain to him that it's a guy- but it's a friend- and really, it's just a friend! (a super friend, but friend nonetheless) i figured it'd be easier to tell him it was a girl.
"...who?"
"um. my friend from nslc" <--trying to be ambiguos, i didn't give away the gender. yet.
"the one that writes you letters?" <--thought about all of your letters +tuckys....i miss you guys
"er, yeah."
"the one from california?"
"yeana? sure..."
"you guys are so weird " *laughs it off with me*
i had a heart attack. sorry love, you're an accomplice to my crime ^__^
rosanna rosanna rosanna
i worry for you O:
donde esta? D:
in workshop we discussed plays, and we went over romeo and juliet for a mo'.
you remind me of juliet because you both are so beatifully literate when you speak and write.
im insanely jealous.
so satisfy my craving and write on the blog (:
^about that workshop, we have to bring a new piece of writing each week, i brought in a poem(i'm terrified of poems. this was scary for me to attempt. they're just so...hard.i go more for the fantasy short fiction ^__^)here it is:
A Love Letter
Dear firefly,
Touch my cheek with your gleaming light
(And) Kiss my lips with your spindly legs
Surround me with your faerie lights
(And) Save me on these lonely nights
Sincerely,
Me
*the parenthesis around the "And" means that originally it was in the poem but my teacher recommended cutting it out so it'd be "Touch, Kiss, Surround, and Save" but they give a sort of different feeling so i put it there so you guys could see it both ways (:
Also, what do you think of the "sincerely"? we discussed it, but i dunno. i considered changing it to "love" but i feel like that makes it so...insincere? just cornier. i mean, i know this is addressed to a firefly (XD ) but it's still a love letter, and if i were to write one, i don't think i'd be able to write "love, me (or tracy)" but instead i'd write "sincerely" cause i'd want him to know that these are my sincere feelings and i really meant it.
weird weird weird, i'm writing alot today D:
...my train of thought is hurling itself 100 mph today, i just remembered that my teacher mentioned that Emily Dickinson wrote these poems as well about bugs and she recommended that i check them out XD
gosh i'm out of it today.
im currently speed knitting in an attempt to finish a scarf as a bday gift for my dad. a hat or gloves would've been faster to make, but he never and won't wear those, i saw him wear a scarf once, but i think he lost it- so maybe this will work? then again, he hates me knitting so he'd probably take it and leave it =="
IM DOWN WITH 12 INCHES. IM A KNITTING MACHINE. IM. IM. IM GANGSTER.
*gangstah. one of my friends would joke with me, telling me that to say and type it properly would be with an "-ah" ending, for EVERYTHING that ends with "-er". so he was the "numbah one gangstah" XD XD
sorry. i've mentioned this before, but i'm out of it. who needs drugs when your body seems to produce them naturally? :D
sincerely,
with unspoken love,
that's still love,
tracy.
Friday, October 9, 2009
Azn Sensation!!
Hello hello hello!
I'm sorry I haven't been on...I've been rather busy, like all of you have. I guess I have no excuse ^^
Anyways Wendy, I totally know how that feels...my last relationship ended that way (it was 2 years ago!!! HOLY CRAPP!!!). I think the one thing we girls need to worry about is giving in to emotions that won't last, but we don't know it. Do you get what I'm saying? It's like we fool ourselves, and once we actually get into it, we discover that we're not really ready for this at all, or this was just the wrong choice. The ironic part about this is that we have to actually get into the relationship to find out all this...I remember breaking up with my boyfriend and hearing him tell me (in an angry/frustrated manner...I suppose it was to be expected) that I should have thought things out before I said "yes", but sometimes it doesn't really work that way.
Our Homecoming is the 16th...but unless there's a miracle, our team isn't going to win, and unless there's been a huge change, the dance will suck. Our dance is casual...nobody likes it, so I don't understand why they don't just change it to semiformal. Ugh.
I have no school tomorrow! It'll be a day of resting and studying...and eating. :]
My friend's in a new relationship. I don't know if I'm happy for her or if I'm jealous. As I said before, my last relationship was 2 years ago...maybe I'm ready for another one? Maybe I'm not. But whatever it is, I'm definitely wanting company. Sadly enough, there are no eligible guys around, and I'm probably much too busy right now for a relationship anyways.
Speaking of guys...
I have a hot date with el guitarist tomorrow. :]]] HAHAHAHA JK. No, my friend and I are going to chill with the music directors at church. I'm really looking forward to it! I love making good music...
I auditioned for the fall play and got assigned a part as small as the tail of a shrew. Today that part got cut in half. So now my part is half the size of a shrew's tail. :] But for some reason, I have to stay for all of the scenes because I'm in like 5 seconds of each of them. So while I was backstage, I got lonely...and wanted to call you guys. But then the director started throwing a fit and yelling at people for talking backstage, so I had to abort that plan.
I really miss all of you...I texted Tucky for the first time in a long time a few days ago. It's great to see how none of us have changed dramatically since those 10 days ended, long ago. I wish we could meet up somewhere... :/
Tracy, that anime thing sounds awesome! Post more pictures!!!
Rosanna: Did you get the results for the vocal group yet? I'm praying for you...
And Wendy, my ex-roomie: If you want to break up with him, are you going to be okay during Homecoming? I mean, I think you'll be expected to like stick with him for most of the time at the dance...but seeing as how he asked you out like that, it'd be unfair to just end it like that. I'd say go to the dance with him...and see how it feels. I find that it's easier to get attached to guys during dances, but that's just me. Funny how everything seems to work through musical stuff.
I'm not taking the SAT but I am taking the PSAT. I wish all of you the very best of luck...especially Wendy, because you're taking the SAT. I'm sure you'll be fine. :] Frikkin smartass. :]]]
Loving you all from 3000 miles away,
Yeana
I'm sorry I haven't been on...I've been rather busy, like all of you have. I guess I have no excuse ^^
Anyways Wendy, I totally know how that feels...my last relationship ended that way (it was 2 years ago!!! HOLY CRAPP!!!). I think the one thing we girls need to worry about is giving in to emotions that won't last, but we don't know it. Do you get what I'm saying? It's like we fool ourselves, and once we actually get into it, we discover that we're not really ready for this at all, or this was just the wrong choice. The ironic part about this is that we have to actually get into the relationship to find out all this...I remember breaking up with my boyfriend and hearing him tell me (in an angry/frustrated manner...I suppose it was to be expected) that I should have thought things out before I said "yes", but sometimes it doesn't really work that way.
Our Homecoming is the 16th...but unless there's a miracle, our team isn't going to win, and unless there's been a huge change, the dance will suck. Our dance is casual...nobody likes it, so I don't understand why they don't just change it to semiformal. Ugh.
I have no school tomorrow! It'll be a day of resting and studying...and eating. :]
My friend's in a new relationship. I don't know if I'm happy for her or if I'm jealous. As I said before, my last relationship was 2 years ago...maybe I'm ready for another one? Maybe I'm not. But whatever it is, I'm definitely wanting company. Sadly enough, there are no eligible guys around, and I'm probably much too busy right now for a relationship anyways.
Speaking of guys...
I have a hot date with el guitarist tomorrow. :]]] HAHAHAHA JK. No, my friend and I are going to chill with the music directors at church. I'm really looking forward to it! I love making good music...
I auditioned for the fall play and got assigned a part as small as the tail of a shrew. Today that part got cut in half. So now my part is half the size of a shrew's tail. :] But for some reason, I have to stay for all of the scenes because I'm in like 5 seconds of each of them. So while I was backstage, I got lonely...and wanted to call you guys. But then the director started throwing a fit and yelling at people for talking backstage, so I had to abort that plan.
I really miss all of you...I texted Tucky for the first time in a long time a few days ago. It's great to see how none of us have changed dramatically since those 10 days ended, long ago. I wish we could meet up somewhere... :/
Tracy, that anime thing sounds awesome! Post more pictures!!!
Rosanna: Did you get the results for the vocal group yet? I'm praying for you...
And Wendy, my ex-roomie: If you want to break up with him, are you going to be okay during Homecoming? I mean, I think you'll be expected to like stick with him for most of the time at the dance...but seeing as how he asked you out like that, it'd be unfair to just end it like that. I'd say go to the dance with him...and see how it feels. I find that it's easier to get attached to guys during dances, but that's just me. Funny how everything seems to work through musical stuff.
I'm not taking the SAT but I am taking the PSAT. I wish all of you the very best of luck...especially Wendy, because you're taking the SAT. I'm sure you'll be fine. :] Frikkin smartass. :]]]
Loving you all from 3000 miles away,
Yeana
Thursday, October 8, 2009
HI from LOL!
Hello All! It's been a while since anyone's posted...where are you guys?! I miss you!!! XP
Anyways, life has been SUPER busy lately and I've got a lot to tell you! I actually just got back from band practice/homecoming pep rally, but I decided to blog first before getting to my hw. ^.^
Sooo this week has been homecoming week! Today I dressed as a "nerd"; hahah it was hilarious. This week has been very fun, but SOOOO busyy!! Band has been consuming sooo much of my life these days...we have our first competition on Saturday! I am SO excited, I love competitions! :)))) Also, tomorrow is the Homecoming football game and I'm also uber excited about that because they're presenting court and I got an amazing long red dress for the occasion! Hehehe...
Anyways...I am also taking the SATs Saturday morning...FML. I haven't been reviewing much this week because of the hectic schedule, so I'm really scared I won't do well... :(
But enough about school stufff...I'm sure you guys know of my recent boy news...well Yeana probably doesn't, since she hasn't been on in FOREVER. Anyways, yeah Jon asked me out. Sure, he took me out on a super romantic date and YEAH I liked him at first...but now...I'm not so sure. Actually, I'm pretty sure now that I only started to like him just because he did the whole homecoming thing. And now that we're actually "together", everything's so awkward! I don't feel the chemistry you're supposed to feel! So I'm definitely gonna break up with him...I know this is horrible because it's only been barely a week and ughh maybe it's just me, I just can't keep a relationship going!
But that just means I haven't found the right guy yet...obviously. So now I just need to find a place and time when I can do it...UGH. This is gonna be so hard. He is a nice guy, really...it's just not working out! For me, at least...
*Sigh*
I just feel so stressed lately. I'm exhausted, both physically and emotionally. And yet my parents still constantly nag at me about the most stupid and random things! Like just now...my dad must think I have like no life, because he constantly expects me to "spend time with the family" when OBVIOUSLY I have so much crap to do...He does not understand. He gets mad at me for staying upstairs the whole night...well SORRY that I have loads of homework to do! And he also does not understand how big of a commitment band is, and how important it is in my life...he honestly thinks that I can just "skip" band functions whenever I want and that my presence doesn't matter...WTF. I don't get it...
Sorry, I'm ranting. I just can't take the stress anymore...
But other than that, life has actually been pretty amazing lately! I know I sounded so emo, but really, I'm happy these days. :]
I would love you hear from you guys!
<3 WENDY
Anyways, life has been SUPER busy lately and I've got a lot to tell you! I actually just got back from band practice/homecoming pep rally, but I decided to blog first before getting to my hw. ^.^
Sooo this week has been homecoming week! Today I dressed as a "nerd"; hahah it was hilarious. This week has been very fun, but SOOOO busyy!! Band has been consuming sooo much of my life these days...we have our first competition on Saturday! I am SO excited, I love competitions! :)))) Also, tomorrow is the Homecoming football game and I'm also uber excited about that because they're presenting court and I got an amazing long red dress for the occasion! Hehehe...
Anyways...I am also taking the SATs Saturday morning...FML. I haven't been reviewing much this week because of the hectic schedule, so I'm really scared I won't do well... :(
But enough about school stufff...I'm sure you guys know of my recent boy news...well Yeana probably doesn't, since she hasn't been on in FOREVER. Anyways, yeah Jon asked me out. Sure, he took me out on a super romantic date and YEAH I liked him at first...but now...I'm not so sure. Actually, I'm pretty sure now that I only started to like him just because he did the whole homecoming thing. And now that we're actually "together", everything's so awkward! I don't feel the chemistry you're supposed to feel! So I'm definitely gonna break up with him...I know this is horrible because it's only been barely a week and ughh maybe it's just me, I just can't keep a relationship going!
But that just means I haven't found the right guy yet...obviously. So now I just need to find a place and time when I can do it...UGH. This is gonna be so hard. He is a nice guy, really...it's just not working out! For me, at least...
*Sigh*
I just feel so stressed lately. I'm exhausted, both physically and emotionally. And yet my parents still constantly nag at me about the most stupid and random things! Like just now...my dad must think I have like no life, because he constantly expects me to "spend time with the family" when OBVIOUSLY I have so much crap to do...He does not understand. He gets mad at me for staying upstairs the whole night...well SORRY that I have loads of homework to do! And he also does not understand how big of a commitment band is, and how important it is in my life...he honestly thinks that I can just "skip" band functions whenever I want and that my presence doesn't matter...WTF. I don't get it...
Sorry, I'm ranting. I just can't take the stress anymore...
But other than that, life has actually been pretty amazing lately! I know I sounded so emo, but really, I'm happy these days. :]
I would love you hear from you guys!
<3 WENDY
Friday, October 2, 2009
mario kart love song
personally, i love mario kart on the wii.
or any game console for that matter.
so when this ridiculously amazing guy writes and sings a song called "mario kart love song"
gosh. i'm still listening to it on repeat.
dear wendy,
IM SO HAPPY FOR YOU > u <
i think it's just fairytale sweet of that guy to fill your car with balloons to ask you to homecoming (:
He seems to make you so happy to the point of crying...so i'll assume he's a guy worthy of you (;
TRUST YOURSELF. if you put your all into your relationship, then even if it ends, at least there will be no regrets?
though im not one to talk since i have no experience XD
oh mum (:
rosanna, GET SOME SLEEP. we can't both be zombies O:
i personally love school...even the work. i just suck at that part =="
and yes, i would like to assume 7:30 is late to be getting home, i hope you're getting enough sleep!!
for me 7:30 is late cause that's when i eat dinner =="
and i have to sleep early (heh, which i don't-whoops) cause i have to wake up at 5 to make the 5:40 bus to the subway then school (agh, im too cheap to take the long island rail road compared to the FREE metro card the school gives...<3> u < but i think either me would've fallen in love with you guys (:
I WANT TO FIND LOVE TOO GOSHDARNIT.
loving cyrano de bergeac,
tracy.
p.s. i added my blog under the follow thing cause i thought you might wanna see the poliwhirl photo of me (though there's one on facebook too, this seems more convenient? no, not really? XD)
or any game console for that matter.
so when this ridiculously amazing guy writes and sings a song called "mario kart love song"
gosh. i'm still listening to it on repeat.
dear wendy,
IM SO HAPPY FOR YOU > u <
i think it's just fairytale sweet of that guy to fill your car with balloons to ask you to homecoming (:
He seems to make you so happy to the point of crying...so i'll assume he's a guy worthy of you (;
TRUST YOURSELF. if you put your all into your relationship, then even if it ends, at least there will be no regrets?
though im not one to talk since i have no experience XD
oh mum (:
rosanna, GET SOME SLEEP. we can't both be zombies O:
i personally love school...even the work. i just suck at that part =="
and yes, i would like to assume 7:30 is late to be getting home, i hope you're getting enough sleep!!
for me 7:30 is late cause that's when i eat dinner =="
and i have to sleep early (heh, which i don't-whoops) cause i have to wake up at 5 to make the 5:40 bus to the subway then school (agh, im too cheap to take the long island rail road compared to the FREE metro card the school gives...<3> u < but i think either me would've fallen in love with you guys (:
I WANT TO FIND LOVE TOO GOSHDARNIT.
loving cyrano de bergeac,
tracy.
p.s. i added my blog under the follow thing cause i thought you might wanna see the poliwhirl photo of me (though there's one on facebook too, this seems more convenient? no, not really? XD)
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