im sorry for being a fail D:

Wendy's right, I neglected posting again D:
it's cause my first post was me about to go to the Breast Cancer Walk, then i ended up being unable to go D:
I spent that day watching korean videos on youtube. but really, jo kwon is this very WEIRD and awesome dancer >///<

Yeana: CHILL. you're light years ahead of me, for some reason it hasn't clicked in my head that I'm getting older = college
=="
and first thing i do if i ever find that special someone is use my phone (or steal someone else's if i have to) and post on this blog that this penguin has found that eternal half of hers (;
XD i don't mean it that serious with the eternal and all, it's just that i recently saw drew barrymore's movie "Never been kissed" and she referred to Penguins who spend their whole lives finding thier other half and it just stuck in my head (:
Also, I don't care how well you "bounce back" TAKE A BREAK. If you're getting dizzy spells then take a break as soon as possible! (<--asap! ahah.) i worry ;__;
and have no worries, my school football team sucks (my school is full of nerds. we have winning teams for mathteam/sciene olympiad and the sports like swimming and fencing NOT football or baseball XD) so although i see the little flyer for "homecoming" i end up wondering "what's for lunch?"
don't get me wrong, I LOVE MY SCHOOL- and i have tons of school spirit...it's just that...the people running this thing are probably (and are) those kids who only want their ooberly high ranked friends up their with them, and wont make much effort in including anyone else =="

Wendy: I love talking to you through the blog and facebook too (;
and yeah, whats up with these pairs?! D<
i hated feeling left out, so whenever i'm talking with two friends and one sorta excludes the other by talking only to me (i dunno if they do it on purpose or not o__O) i turn to my OTHER friend, say my reply and ask them for theirs as well
don't worry wendy, you're ridiculously special in their and our hearts (:
and yeah. when friends get boyfriends, it's scary cause you don't know if they'll start to ignore you, or be wonderful and include you here and there (of course they need SOME exclusive time)
and i happen to still be loving my bracelet (:
though i wouldn't say no to another one (;
gosh. i have yeana's gift sitting in my room (in the corner unwrapped, sorry D:)
but i have to wait till after christmas or chinese new years to get some money so i can send it O:
and i should have enough to send one to wendy too (maybe i'll send rosanna hers early while i still have the money ==")

Rosana hon,
i've marked my calendar to wear pink (:
i'll take a picture and send you a photo of SUPPORT AND LOVE!
like in that tv show Friends, I'LL BE THERE FOR YOUUUU
(when the rain starts to fall) I'LL BE THERE FOR YOUUU
(...da da dun dun den dun.) =="
hopefully, like in Friends, we'll all be together even when we're old and wrinklish (: Lookin' foward to seeing you all gray with me :D

i've never felt so far away from you since that sad lonely month after NSLC, i NEED to hug you D:
i think it's beautiful that your friends can still worry about you even when they have so much going on. it shows how important you are to them. and you're just as beautiful worrying about us when you have so much going on D:

The reason why i neglect the blog so much is that I can never write short posts, they always take me at least half an hour =="

i don't feel like i should be writing anything for a couple spaces. it's the space for mrs. cao.
















a teacher at my school spoke to us about her battle with breast cancer, she was ridiculously happy. Even with both breasts removed completely and after going through intense chemo, she said that she was positive throughout the whole ordeal 'cause she knew that she was going to survive it. It kills me because sometimes just being positive isn't enough, the world still wants to take you away.













Yeana babe, you BELONG as an attorney. You seriously kicked ass @ the trial (:
i remember on movie night we stayed oustide the theater studying (:
my school doesn't have a mock trial group either >__<
but we do have a speech and debate team (which gets crazy funding from the school just cause they're pretty good ==") and my friend recently formed JSE (junior states of something..i don't remmber) but not only did some of the potential members sort of bother me, but it's kinda awkward with my friend ==" his fault.
it's all of their faults. don't blame me for being awkwardly unfriendly with you all. (not you guys, them.)

Saturday was sort of bittersweet >__<
I went to the LIFT competition for Quizbowl up @ long island (a friend drove me with some other people) and it actually went pretty well (we placed eigth, so we can go to nationals!!)
and there were some awkward and fun events (on the car ride my friend told a story about how this guy was at a funeral, and his son who was giggling, told him- "daddy, jesus has a six pack!" XD being @ a catholic private school (they had PEACOCKS, TURTLES, KOI, and PARROTS. holy. crap.) we saw alot of crucifixes with jesus on them and my friend and I cracked up thinking "jesus has a six pack", there was this awfully angry boy from hunter high school who slammed the desk and cursed when he messed up- he seemed to have gotten particularly pissed when i answered correctly the problem he got wrong (hah.) probably cause quizbowl is 00% guys and quite honestly, i was probably one out of ten girls in a competition of a bajilllion boys ==" a bit too much testosterone in the air ==" especially when later the opposing team was actually really friendly and chatting with the moderator and was joking about how after the competition i should go with him to see toy story 3. i just joked around saying that i did want to see toy story 3 but hahhah, i had to go home. awkward. on the car ride back, we were crammed with MORE people, the extra people were guys who had gotten there by taking the Long Island Rail Road instead of getting a ride with us, but it was raining so they got a lift to the station. there were two guys in the trunk XD and we would joke to them that a police car was coming by and they'd be terrified as they crouched down trying to conceal themselves XD
Throughout the whole day i texted my sister (about every half hour) with messages such as "we got through the prelims, but this means that I'll be staying later" and "I'm definitely missing dinner, have it without me- but don't worry my friend's dad will drive us all home"
whenever i get messages frommy brother/sister it's generally rule of thumb for me to inform whoever's in charge, my grandparents or my parents
the whole time, i thought my dad was home cause he said he was going to make lunch so he wanted to know if i was going to be home on saturday (to which i said no cause i was going to LIFT) and i told my sister the night before "daddy's gonna be home tommorrow, he'll make you guys lunch so don't worry about making it yourself"
and the whole time she sent me replies with "OK ^^"
sorry for assuming this meant that she told my dad for me. cause the breaks we had between matches were about five minutes and not only was it not guaranteed that my dad would pick up the home phone (well, he wasn't even home) but it takes more than five minutes just to tell him "mommy wants you to call him" so i figured it'd be faster having my sister tell him in person.
Around 8:30 I get a text from my brother "Dad's home." and i'm wondering "WAIT. WHAT? I THOUGHT HE WAS HOME THE WHOLE TIME>>>?!"
then i calm down. "oh, jamie probably told him, no worries" as i text my sister with what i was just panicking about.
reply "ok ^^"
i get home, and i find out that my sister didn't even tell my BROTHER that i was going to be home late, and my dad's pretty pissed that i apparently "said nothing at all to anyone"
i tell him that i thought my sister told him what was going on and i get a "DOES SHE LOOK LIKE THE DAD OF THE HOUSE?" and he wanted to know why i lied all the time and did i think he was stupid that he'd fall for the oldest hat in the book, and if i wanted to hang out with friends, instead of lying i should say so.
if he actually gave a shit, he should go and get a freaking cell phone or something. god knows my mom has tried time after time to get him one but he always refuses for some inane reason ==" and since my mom's away for the time being, why in the world would i tell her that i'd be late home? my brother might not even BE home on account of his sister, so if i had to text someone, wouldn't i text my sister since she's the only one left in the house with a phone?
report card on tuesday will not help my standings with my family. i ACCEPT that i'm weak in math and science, but apparently it's my fault since my brother is this freakishly straight A student. I'm thoroughly convinced and have told him before that I think he's a being from the shining star O:
i'm viewed as a rather odd person =="

sorry for ranting about such trivial things when you all have so much on your plates (that's why i left it for last (: _)
tired,
tire,
tir,
ti,
t
t
t
tracy.

p.s. i love you guys.