I NEED A HUG. IM SURE WE ALL DO.

first one is a full costumepic with my zombie papa XD so lets start things off with halloween? i was a victorian zombie (: though i dressed up the day BEFORE hallows eve to participate in my school's ZOMBIE WALK :D after school, we moaned and dragged our bloody selves from our school to city hall where we filmed a short zombie attack, and then to chinatown (: it's all in my halloween album on facebook, though i'm gonna excuse myself for a quick sec to find my favorite picture and upload that one (: The second one is me with my lovely minnie mouse, i picked this one 'cause i felt that it had a nice creepy look to it? I MISS YOU GUYS TERRIBLY D: though i have good news? it may take me a bit, but i can earn a bit of cash cleaning this gosh be darned house of mine so eventually. someday. soon. perhaps. you'll get something in the mail (: though really, it may take a while, but it'll be FULL OF LOVE :D also, i must say. election day felt pretty good. new york. no school. yeah (: ALSO ALSO, i recently saw the U.S.S.A. New York in the hudson 'cause my school is literally right next to the hudson (and only a few blocks away from the World Trade Center) so my phys ed teacher felt that it would be fitting for us to go and see it pass us by (: I felt extremely proud for some reason. I've never felt such nationalism before O__O i guess it might've been due to the fact that the USSA New York was made from the steel that they harvested from the ruins of the WTC? or was it the still silhouettes of the navy men all standing stock still at the edge of the deck? i didn't hear the 21 gun salute though >__< 

then again, if they did the salute without silencers half of NYC probably would've thought that we were under another terrorist attack =="

11.10.09

I NOTICED THAT THE BLOG DELETED PART OF MY POST...?! O__O

it removed the whole spiel i had on rosanna and yeana ;__;

so here it is again (well not really. instead i'm going back to the blog to refresh my memory and starting that over again =="

so my lovely rosanna, if possible i'd love a video of you singing on youtube (:

i miss your voices terribly ;__;

ALSO. IF YOU'RE COMING. TELL ME.

i don't care if i have to kill (and yes. i will) but i will see you even if it's only for five minutes to say hello and goodbye with a short hug XD

yeana babe,
it's lonesome.

my friend's fb statuses were all reading "bagging season" and i had NO IDEA WHAT IN THE WORLD THAT MEANT.

and then it was explained.

and i just thought "how is it that it's this season for everyone else but me?"

it feels like you're alone, but you're not.

i'm here with you (;

but sometimes it's so lonesome, that i'm afraid that if i feel attracted to somebody, it's probably not real attraction but that i'm just lonely
and i don't want to pursue it cause what if it really is?

how do you know if you really like them, or if you're just looking for SOMEBODY, anybody?

BRAINFART.

lafonda, i wish you the very best luck with codey (;
that line about the drama made me laugh 'cause it was just so cute :D

i also kinda wish i joined JSA (junior statemen of America) when my friend asked me to join if i'd known that it would've meant the tiniest chance of meeting you ;__;

by the ways, CONGRATULATIONS TO YOU AS WELL on getting straight superiors :D
you're right that I certainly don't understand it...but i know that it's a great accomplishment and i wanna be happy with you and everyone (:

here's something terrifying though.
i'm scared that i'm falling for my friend. a guy who has been hurt so badly by a girl in the past that after he broke up with her and now he only jokingly goes out with his friends. that are guys. so he'd say he was gay. so it was all a-okay on the friendship thing, but i joked with him once about him being gay (i think i said something about his boyfriend looking pretty gorgeous as a girl -for halloween- when he said that he's not actually gay. and started talking about how he's confused. and he's possibly gay. possibly straight. possibly bi. but he doesn't know.)
so i have this writing workshop and we had to write a ballad, and i wrote one to a dumpling and stuff and my other friend told me to put it on facebook
so i tagged my gay friend in it cause we've been getting closer (we met this year, early oct?) and he liked it so much, he set chords to it and sang it to me in a video he posted as a message. and i just had this "whoa" moment 'cause it was so touching to me
i'm just terrified that i'm going to lose such a great friendship 'cause he really has become an important friend to me D:

I BELIVE MY POST HAS BEEN SEMI RESTORED PARTLY TO ITS FORMER GLORY BEFORE SOMETHING FREAKY HAPPENED AND...EDITED? IT FOR ME...

TRACY OUT (:




my gosh this was a long post.
have i done you guys proud? XD

who else was jealous that rohan and caro managed to visit each other?
i certainly was ;__;

GREEN with JEALOUSY
...but only jealous 'cause i love you guys,
tracy.