You're Beautiful

^that's the name of that drama everyone has been talking about, i've gotta get around to watching it O:

and really ladies, you're all beautiful (:

OH WENDY <3
it seems so BEAUTIFUL (or should i say Schön instead? (;)
^coincidentally i was fooling around with freetranslation.com today with german also. XDXD

hearing this confirmation that Travis is a good guy is like a much needed breathe of air to me, IM SO RELIEVED TT A TT
we were all incredibly worried 'cause of the whole facebook status part (hah. look at what facebook has done to us. XD)
and i for one, am not so worried anymores (:
'cause although it SUCKS horribly that you had to meet so many bad guys, i'm glad that it lets you be all the more happy with this guy C:
and gosh. it's actually kind of...noble? of him to back off cause your assistant lucas liked you, he probably thought that lucas might have been able to make you happy so he backed off (;

after i finished typing this, i realized how abnormally bothersomely long this is. SCROLL DOWN FOR THE LONG STORY MADE SHORT :D
and XDXD
i wasn't kidding when i thought he was gay. he gave me good reason to believe that it was NOT the kind of joke that guys usually do (and girls. hah.)
you know. they jokingly go and hug their friends and such but they're actually straight.
NO. I REALLY THOUGHT HE WAS GAY @__@
and yes he kissed a guy in front of me. rather shocking.
it didn't. quite. bother me. so much. XD
'cause it's not like i expect him to change overnight
and if flirting with his friends (and that at the very least was a joke, to my knowledge he never had a serious relationship relationship with a guy) made him happy then it was A-okay with me
apparently, my hugging my own friends (..i excessively hug. i glomp. though only to girls. they're just so easy to be comfortable with (: ) made him jealous sometimes. XD
and one of my friends kissed me on the cheek, and she's so lovable, so this was a-okay to me
though i dunno if it's the same for you guys (hell, i don't know if even some of my other friends do this XD) but i very often tell my (girl) friends that i love them lots, and i shower them with hugs and such
and once in a while a teasing kiss on the cheek, just one of those MUAH ones XDXD
so i was with him and his friend and she asked me if it bothered me that he acted so gay.
i said no, not really- and what was i supposed to do about it anyways if it made him happy?
but he didn't know that it bothered me at all 'till i was joking around with my friend
and we were outside his classroom
so he walked out to see us against the wall hugging each other. AHEM. XD
and he went NYUUU and just sorta picked up both up with a hug? @__@
and i told him jokingly that if he was allowed to be gay with his friends i should be albe to be gay with mine <3
and he told me that he got jealous (: <--too bad for him, but that made me happy =="
and just wed i kinda sorta ditched him for club practice with one of my super important friends
and she was rather upset with me that i didn't meet her in the morning cause he stole me away after breakfast during our free period
and she refused to hug me :C
but i ditched him for club practice
so she hugged me again
and i texted him happily that i got a hug from her (:
he then replied with a text that he got two hugs from three of his friends
i replied with "dont make me go around kissing girls. ILL KISS SHANNON (well on the cheek) RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOU > u o"
i wasn't aware that i'd get such a nice reaction XD
he said he'd stop being gay around his friends O:
though. i really. honestly didn't mind. i just didn't like it when his friends went and kissed him =="

GOSH CONFUSING. THIS IS EVEN CONFUSING TO ME @__@



LONG STORY MADE SHORT:
after his first girlfriend hurt him emotionally really bad, he became "gay" and he seriously believed that he was "gay" O__O
^thus the introduction of "you can't miss me, i act like a flaming homosexual" XDXD
if anything, this allowed me to view him AT FIRST as a friend who i could be extremely comfortable with, almost like...a girl? XDXD
of course, at some point along the way i screwed myself over by noticing him as a guy, but yeah

so he told me that if he had to choose between any guy and me
he'd choose me (:
unless the guy was johnny depp
and quite honestly, i can't blame him. johnny depp is ridiculously amazing (:

here's something strange that's gonna happen.
my brother.
in a moment of awkwardness
wants to be brotherly
so he suggested
(awkwardly) a double date
so he could meet him O__O
oh gosh.

AND ALSO. A PIECE OF NEWS
THOUGH I THINK YOU GUYS ALREADY KNOW CAUSE OF FACEBOOK XD
at my school we had a culture festival and i was in the fashion show (:
HOOSHA :D

and also. my school. currently is under LOCKDOWN. cause of some gosh be darned arsonist =="
more in detail at some later point
i gotta sleep =__="

with love that will always be there for my ladies,
tracy.