i would first like to say is that i rather screwed up. XD

i decided that after that incident with my blog and such, i kinda neglected it and just posted posts here <3 

well, i was on it yesterday

and i really just meant to mention you guys a bit....but then i got carried away and it turned into a full on NSLC nostalgia post XDXD

SO HERES THE LINK, CAUSE ITS ACTUALLY A POST!! :D

so my lovely ladies, happy holidays C:

to my lovely rosanna, NO WORRIES. i'll grab it from them when i'm not feeling too lazy..hah.

i'd also like to mention that my exams are after break as well > A <

and i've FINALLY signed up to take the SATs in january. gah >__<

wendywendywendywendy

MIAMI? O:!! WHOAS.

that seems rather awesome :D

also, about TRAVIS.

HRMS.

i'll admit, it does seem incredibly sweet how he seems like such a romantic, and yet at the same time it does seem like a rather wimpy excuse....

after all, YOU AGREED TO GO ON DATES WITH HIM. I THINK IT'S BEEN AFFIRMED THAT YOU LIKE HIM =__=

ALSO--> school is taking over for me too /:

But Lovely Wendy, don't forget. you're drop dead gorgeous. i'm not kidding. so relax. no need to give up on love or anything

but have confidence in how beautiful you are (:

I must say, thing between us are going swimmingly, but the things happening around us are not >__<

Since we're in different years and such, it's normal for us not to have any classes together >__<>

and he's a good student and he wants me to be a good student (...i try...) so "our" time is the hour long train ride

and that's about it 'cause we take different buses back home ]:

i suppose in the long run this is actually a good thing 'cause i'd probably get carried away and hang out much too much with him after school

and i'd get home late practically every day if it weren't for him =__=

but

i hate to say this

but i'm much like a rabbit.

when rabbits get too lonely, they die.

when i get too lonely, i just get really...sad TT_TT

^BUT I FEEL LIKE SUCH A BURDEN D: <--and i sound like one too =__=

i guess, it's just that this is the first time i've said yes when a guy asked me out and all

and i really like him

and i'm not his first girlfriend or anything so i get insecure and nervous that i might do something wrong

cause guys, i'm rather...uneducated.

you know how you (wendy (: ) mentioned how in middle school it was all "i like you lets hold hands"

first of all, i seem to develope slower than everyone else.

in middle school, i barely talked to guys. i just preferred talking to girls O: the rare friendship that i had with the occassional guy didn't always end well /: (though i got on amiably with my friends' boyfriends and such)

anyways.

and in highschool i befriended them much more easily, but those awkward moments when your friend asks you out

yeah

i'm not like you guys. i'm rather mean

one time it was over aim

and i laughed it off with them, saying cruel things like "that's not funny" or "dont play around like that, hahhah" etc etc

and the guy would laugh it off too, taking it as a no and such ):

and when they asked me in person

er

well

they're my friend and all

and they're awesome and everything

but i'm rather naiive ): and i didn't get that special feeling from them so i always rejected them >__>

So this is my first relationship

and i'm somewhat terrified that i'll screw up

incredibly nervous

and. i really. really like this guy. so i'm rather afraid that i'll end up hurt ]:

OHMEOHMYS

my friends are here so i'm signing off

and continuing later

cause there are things i can talk about with you guys

and just not

yeah

love

always.