Life has been...a drag lately, to say the least. My days are consumed by tennis, clarinet, homework/studying, and minimal SAT prep.
Everyday is the same...I go to sleep later and later (it's almost midnight) and wake even more exhausted. You know, I used to be able to handle everything and still get a decent night's rest, but nope! Not this semester. I know what you mean Yeana...I despise school with a passion.
But anyways, I really don't want to sound too depressing...because through it all, I am still [barely] keeping my smile one. I've been missing you guys sooo much lately...
I have been keeping myself busy nonetheless. Tennis season has started so I have practices everyday ('cept Fri) plus my regular lessons. Concert band season is also here, and I recently performed in the All-County Band a couple weekends ago. District Solo evaluations are also soon...this weekend. >.<>
And you know what? I really hate the IB program. It's so much work. We have to do stupid "Internal Assessments" and Oral Presentations on top of IB exams on top of AP exams which is just too much...And then we have to do something called "CAS", which stands for Creativity, Action and Service. Basically, we have log hours of activities we have done that fall under those categories...so now simply volunteering isn't it enough. WTF. This is all to make us "well-rounded" individuals...well my question is, how do you expect us to carry this work load plus do all these extracurrics AND stay sane?! I absolutely have no idea.
But anyways, I really need to stop complaining...
Yeana, Haley seems like a nice guy! Make certain your feelings for him before you do anything rash. I'm not saying you would, but sometimes we are disillusioned when a good guy friend suddenly starts acting "differently" and whatnot. Asking you to the formal definitely sparked something...I hope you figure out your feelings soon. As for the confusion...boys will be boys. I really don't know what to say. They are bipolar. Just let him be. I am sure he is confused as well.
Rosanna, I agree about what you said--life is just life and it will always go on...once again I am sorry for your loss but I know this will only make you a stronger person.
& Tracy, WHERE ARE YOU?! :P
Alright ladies. I should get back to working...oh jeez. Sometimes I feel like no matter how hard I work now, I'm still not gonna get into the prestigious college I want to attend. I feel like I am just wasting my time...or rather, I am afraid. I am afraid that I will sacrifice too much of my happiness, sanity and LIFE in hopes of a brighter future that I may never obtain.
It's a scary thought, isn't it?
*sigh*
I'm really not as depressed as I may sound, hahah. I'm just going through a phase, I guess...=P
Good night my loves. I love you all soooo incredibly much.
~WENDY
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