To my lovely ladies,
Tuesday is finally over, and I wasn't quite myself that day. I took the day to be on my own and I went walking despite the rain
I ended up wandering by the library so I went in and read a book that I'm really glad I read. I'd always heard of it, but never really gotten around to reading it- Tuesdays with Morrie by Mitch Albom
It's a spectacular book, I feel...calmer, more at peace with myself
It sounds somewhat silly, but it really helped me (I'm going to name my kid Morrie now (; )
or if you just want a good read, give that book a try
It just seems that we're all exhausted from school and if this book helps then that'd be great /:
CONGRATS TO ROSANNA FOR GETTING INTO NATIONAL HONOR SOCIETY!!
Wendylove, Yeana's absolutely right- you don't have to look drop dead gorgeous in a cute outfit all the time!
But goodgosh, NSLC flashback...we were in Georgetown I think, and Matteo was asking us why we wanted to find a cute outfit so badly & yeana spoke the words of a prophet saying something along the lines that it felt good to feel cute.
I dunno. It might be easier if we didn't care but I don't think it's possible for us to stop.
You've got to talk to this friend to get her to see that pushing you away won't solve anything ): You're a fantastic person and because she can see that she doesn't want you to get hurt?
to everyone:
boys...
BOYSBOYSBOYS D: GAHADJFSK
guys always say what we want other guys to say, and guys are clingy when we wish it was someone else /:
they drive us mad.
'nuff said?
BYTHEWAYS, i looked @ the facebook of that Francis guy, and for sure he's a cutiepie but babe, i know you're a B A B E <3 and if no guy has the -prepare yourself!- balls to ask you out then you don't need them, there's next year [:
gradesgradesgrades /:
you shouldn't ask me how i do it, 'cause quite honestly my grades are rather shabby. I'm working on improving my grades, conversations at the dinner table get touchy when that topic comes up >__<
Babe, there'll be theatre in college so if you're unsure of it now then you don't have to feel obligated to it. I know you love it, just remember that you'll have forever to continue it & it's just that right now you seem to be going over a rough patch with some much happening around you!
Also, love at first note?
I honestly think that's beautiful. It's really not that creepy, rest assured.
Rosanna, you've been through a lot.
& I understand that it's difficult to talk about things that you simply don't know how to talk about ]:
I think I'm back, and I think I'm a-okay,
tracy
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
Post-Charlie Brown
Hello my ladies,
Charlie Brown was an amazing show - it's been such a huge part of my life for the past few months that my life feels rather...empty now that it's over. Oh well. There will be more shows...I hope.
My parents are really trying to make me stop taking drama. :/ I have to admit, it adds a lot of stress to my life, it's a huge time commitment, and I probably wouldn't do it if we didn't do the musical. I always consider quitting it until around this time every year. Then musical season comes around and I fall in love again.
Speaking of love...
A few days ago our theatre class/club/group/thing went to a theatre competition at a local community college. My friend, Max, and I were running around watching different events and we eventually found ourselves in the Maxi Musical competition space - this is a competition where schools put together roughly 10 minutes of a musical and perform it. We saw several shows, Seussical the Musical (which was...not very good...), Sweeney Todd (which was decent), and Aida.
We fell in love with Aida.
This school was amazing; it seemed like all of the talent in California was focused into this one school. They had the dancers, the singers...it was amazing.
More than that, I think I really fell in love.
The boy who was playing Radames (the main male role in Aida) had a voice that literally had me clutching my chest and holding my breath, clenching my legs, arms, teeth; he was amazing. I went up to him after the competition and let him know that I thought he'd done a wonderful job. He thanked me and that was that.
The next day of the competition, Max and I went again to watch the finals for the Maxi Musical competition. Again, this boy had me on my feet, giving them a standing ovation at the end of their performance. Anyways, this time I went up to him and found out his name and school.
I felt very stalkerish, but I added him on facebook. :/ I still don't know whether that was the right choice or the wrong choice. But once I realized he'd rejected my friend request I sort of felt like dying. I crawled into bed and slept for two hours.
I guess to him I'm just some weird girl he doesn't even know. But I really wanted to get to know this guy...I just wanted to get to know him. I don't know. Was I being a creep? Right now I feel like I was. But at the same time...I don't know. It took several episodes of The Office and many friends' counsil to get me to feel better. It still hurts inside, though.
Love at first sight? Nah...it was love at first note.
But little seems to be working out in my life right now. Strangely, the more I talk about this, the more I feel like a creep.
Ugh.
Anyways, Charlie Brown was an amazing show. I fell in love with my character (Sally)...I can still do her voice. :]
Other than that, my grades are suffering because I've been so busy. How do you guys do it?
Junior prom is coming up here...as of now my future looks bleak. If a guy doesn't ask me within the next few days I have to decide whether to go alone or not. I don't know if I want to go alone. After this whole singing-boy incident, I'm not very much interested in other guys. It really does kind of sting me inside. But prices go up after this week. Bleh. Guys either need to make a move or...I need to give up hope.
Wendy! Are those pictures from junior prom??? :DDD You look shmexy as always, darlin'. :]]
Missin' all of you from Cali,
Yeans
Charlie Brown was an amazing show - it's been such a huge part of my life for the past few months that my life feels rather...empty now that it's over. Oh well. There will be more shows...I hope.
My parents are really trying to make me stop taking drama. :/ I have to admit, it adds a lot of stress to my life, it's a huge time commitment, and I probably wouldn't do it if we didn't do the musical. I always consider quitting it until around this time every year. Then musical season comes around and I fall in love again.
Speaking of love...
A few days ago our theatre class/club/group/thing went to a theatre competition at a local community college. My friend, Max, and I were running around watching different events and we eventually found ourselves in the Maxi Musical competition space - this is a competition where schools put together roughly 10 minutes of a musical and perform it. We saw several shows, Seussical the Musical (which was...not very good...), Sweeney Todd (which was decent), and Aida.
We fell in love with Aida.
This school was amazing; it seemed like all of the talent in California was focused into this one school. They had the dancers, the singers...it was amazing.
More than that, I think I really fell in love.
The boy who was playing Radames (the main male role in Aida) had a voice that literally had me clutching my chest and holding my breath, clenching my legs, arms, teeth; he was amazing. I went up to him after the competition and let him know that I thought he'd done a wonderful job. He thanked me and that was that.
The next day of the competition, Max and I went again to watch the finals for the Maxi Musical competition. Again, this boy had me on my feet, giving them a standing ovation at the end of their performance. Anyways, this time I went up to him and found out his name and school.
I felt very stalkerish, but I added him on facebook. :/ I still don't know whether that was the right choice or the wrong choice. But once I realized he'd rejected my friend request I sort of felt like dying. I crawled into bed and slept for two hours.
I guess to him I'm just some weird girl he doesn't even know. But I really wanted to get to know this guy...I just wanted to get to know him. I don't know. Was I being a creep? Right now I feel like I was. But at the same time...I don't know. It took several episodes of The Office and many friends' counsil to get me to feel better. It still hurts inside, though.
Love at first sight? Nah...it was love at first note.
But little seems to be working out in my life right now. Strangely, the more I talk about this, the more I feel like a creep.
Ugh.
Anyways, Charlie Brown was an amazing show. I fell in love with my character (Sally)...I can still do her voice. :]
Other than that, my grades are suffering because I've been so busy. How do you guys do it?
Junior prom is coming up here...as of now my future looks bleak. If a guy doesn't ask me within the next few days I have to decide whether to go alone or not. I don't know if I want to go alone. After this whole singing-boy incident, I'm not very much interested in other guys. It really does kind of sting me inside. But prices go up after this week. Bleh. Guys either need to make a move or...I need to give up hope.
Wendy! Are those pictures from junior prom??? :DDD You look shmexy as always, darlin'. :]]
Missin' all of you from Cali,
Yeans
Real quick!
Just wanted to let you guys know...I spent like half an hour last night just looking through our pictures from camp...
Ahhh I really miss you guys. :(
Things have been stressful once again from me! Spring break is just a couple of days, but our teachers have crammed soo much stuff into this week.
The boy(s) situation is looking bleak...have I ever mentioned how CLINGY some boys can be?!
Ugh more to come...I still have much to do, but I reallly do miss you guys oh so much, so I had to leave a post!
Text me sometime! I get lonely in Land O' Lakes! Hahaha...
<3333
WENDY
Ahhh I really miss you guys. :(
Things have been stressful once again from me! Spring break is just a couple of days, but our teachers have crammed soo much stuff into this week.
The boy(s) situation is looking bleak...have I ever mentioned how CLINGY some boys can be?!
Ugh more to come...I still have much to do, but I reallly do miss you guys oh so much, so I had to leave a post!
Text me sometime! I get lonely in Land O' Lakes! Hahaha...
<3333
WENDY
Friday, March 26, 2010
Period 4!
I have digital photography at the moment and I just wanted to say hello to you ladies, and thank you for being there for me.
I may (and probably do) sound like a girl disillusioned by love,
but I think that I'm my own worst enemy so don't worry about him hurting me in any way (intentionally anyways.)
I think he's rather harmless,
this may be silly,
but I think he's either a gentleman, or he's...afraid? to touch me or something.
perhaps he'll think i'll break.
or perhaps he's simply not interested since I lack certain secondary characteristics /:
enough of that silliness!
Spring Break!
I can't figure out how to use the webcam on this gosh be darned mac. otherwise i'd leave a funny face photo to let you all know that I'm fine > ^ <
Love Always,
tracy.
I may (and probably do) sound like a girl disillusioned by love,
but I think that I'm my own worst enemy so don't worry about him hurting me in any way (intentionally anyways.)
I think he's rather harmless,
this may be silly,
but I think he's either a gentleman, or he's...afraid? to touch me or something.
perhaps he'll think i'll break.
or perhaps he's simply not interested since I lack certain secondary characteristics /:
enough of that silliness!
Spring Break!
I can't figure out how to use the webcam on this gosh be darned mac. otherwise i'd leave a funny face photo to let you all know that I'm fine > ^ <
Love Always,
tracy.
Saturday, March 20, 2010
Azn Sensation :]
Hello ladies!
We're all just blogging in a wave. aren't we? :]
To Tracybabe:
Please call or text us. You don't have to/shouldn't have to torment yourself like this. I'm genuinely worried about you; I love you babe, and I hate seeing you like this. Whether it's Arthur or not, you need to talk to someone. Sure, one drink won't hurt. But that one drink can lead to so many other things, babe. Please please please don't hurt yourself...we love you and care about you. Hugs and kisses.
Also, I am praying for your father.
Rosanna: Charlie Brown is an amazing show. :] I got sick a few days before we opened so my voice isn't doing so well but my acting has never been better. I actually feel like I am Sally when I'm on stage. We're playing again next Friday and Saturday, so hopefully my voice will be at its best once again. :]
If there's a downside to this, my grades are now suffering. =.= But it's worth the compliment I got from my deathly intimidating drama teacher. ^^
There are pictures all over Facebook! Please look-if you guys can't be here to see me in person I definitely want you to see what I'm up to. :]]]]
Wendy:
Standardized tests can SUCK ITTTTT.
That being said...
Boys gotta realize, girls need downtime too. Sometimes we have to dress un-cute because we physically cannot do anything. As for the two guys who are on your tail, I have some advice, but this might not be the best advice in the world...
When I feel like a guy is being really annoying, I just break off any forms of contact for a few days/weeks if needed. It sends them the message really quickly...again, this might not be the best way of doing things. :/ But if you just want them to get that you're not interested, it does work. :/
<3 you. :]
While in Charlie Brown I was reunited with Francis. I don't know if you guys remember who he is, but I talked about him a while back. Anyways, I don't know what's up with this guy but whenever he's around I catch myself falling for him. T^T I don't think he's with me though; he's all over another girl right now. I love the "other girl" (I guess that's how I have to describe her :/), she's a senior with talent and promise and a lovely face and personality, but sometimes when she and Francis are together a little monster called jealousy starts creeping around my stomach. I don't know. :/ I want Francis to ask me to junior prom but I don't really think it'll happen...meh. I suppose I'll get over it once Charlie Brown ends...
As for Haley, I really just want to be friends with him. But for some strange reason I keep getting the feeling that he doesn't. He came to see the show tonight and met me after the show behind the theatre with my other friends. They were all saying that the show was cute and everyone was very cute in their costumes and whatnot...then while everyone was talking to someone else Haley said "Well...you're always cute."
GAH.
Why do guys always say the things you want other guys to say?
Anyways...I smiled and laughed and ran away.
Sigh. Anywhoo, I miss y'all. I saw Caro and Tucky's pictures and got insanely nostalgic. :/ I wish we could all meet up in Kentucky. :]
Love,
Yeans
We're all just blogging in a wave. aren't we? :]
To Tracybabe:
Please call or text us. You don't have to/shouldn't have to torment yourself like this. I'm genuinely worried about you; I love you babe, and I hate seeing you like this. Whether it's Arthur or not, you need to talk to someone. Sure, one drink won't hurt. But that one drink can lead to so many other things, babe. Please please please don't hurt yourself...we love you and care about you. Hugs and kisses.
Also, I am praying for your father.
Rosanna: Charlie Brown is an amazing show. :] I got sick a few days before we opened so my voice isn't doing so well but my acting has never been better. I actually feel like I am Sally when I'm on stage. We're playing again next Friday and Saturday, so hopefully my voice will be at its best once again. :]
If there's a downside to this, my grades are now suffering. =.= But it's worth the compliment I got from my deathly intimidating drama teacher. ^^
There are pictures all over Facebook! Please look-if you guys can't be here to see me in person I definitely want you to see what I'm up to. :]]]]
Wendy:
Standardized tests can SUCK ITTTTT.
That being said...
Boys gotta realize, girls need downtime too. Sometimes we have to dress un-cute because we physically cannot do anything. As for the two guys who are on your tail, I have some advice, but this might not be the best advice in the world...
When I feel like a guy is being really annoying, I just break off any forms of contact for a few days/weeks if needed. It sends them the message really quickly...again, this might not be the best way of doing things. :/ But if you just want them to get that you're not interested, it does work. :/
<3 you. :]
While in Charlie Brown I was reunited with Francis. I don't know if you guys remember who he is, but I talked about him a while back. Anyways, I don't know what's up with this guy but whenever he's around I catch myself falling for him. T^T I don't think he's with me though; he's all over another girl right now. I love the "other girl" (I guess that's how I have to describe her :/), she's a senior with talent and promise and a lovely face and personality, but sometimes when she and Francis are together a little monster called jealousy starts creeping around my stomach. I don't know. :/ I want Francis to ask me to junior prom but I don't really think it'll happen...meh. I suppose I'll get over it once Charlie Brown ends...
As for Haley, I really just want to be friends with him. But for some strange reason I keep getting the feeling that he doesn't. He came to see the show tonight and met me after the show behind the theatre with my other friends. They were all saying that the show was cute and everyone was very cute in their costumes and whatnot...then while everyone was talking to someone else Haley said "Well...you're always cute."
GAH.
Why do guys always say the things you want other guys to say?
Anyways...I smiled and laughed and ran away.
Sigh. Anywhoo, I miss y'all. I saw Caro and Tucky's pictures and got insanely nostalgic. :/ I wish we could all meet up in Kentucky. :]
Love,
Yeans
Hello Ladies!
Hey Girlies~
The beginning of my post will also be towards Tracy:
I completely agree with Wendy sweetie, something is not right with your realtionship. And I am only saying this becasue I love you and want you to be ok, which you obviously aren't. It really scares me, like Wendy said, that you did turn to drinking (even if it was only once) and that you are so insecure, becasue I want you to be confident with who you are around your friends and significant others. You are an amazing, sweet, bright, intelligent and funny girl. It kills me to know that you are in so much pain, but you still are, and I know that I can't really help you. I want you to be ok, and I want you to be in a healthy realtionship where you don't feel insignificant and belittled, at all. I am sorry if this is being tough on you, but I love you and I want you to know that I am always here, but I back up Wendy's post.
(And I am sorry that I haven't checked my blog sooner...)
There is some kind of abuse in your realtionship, and you NEED to take a step back and regroup. If you are scared that he is going to leave you, so therefore you need to latch on, that worries me (The past is the past and I do think that it will stay there). But nevertheless if he doesn't realize that you are a blessing to his life, he is stupid. The pain that he causes you is not ok, at all. You can't put all of the blame on your self sweetie.
Keep us posted on this, please. You may feel like you are alone, but we are here so you aren't. We got your back!
Ok - to address someother things:
Yeana- How was YAGMCB?!?!?!?! I am sure that you did spectacular!
Wendy- 1. You are not crazy at all. 2. I completely understand the whole drama thing and I am sorry that you are going through it. My advice to you is put on a cardigan and a nice pair of dark wash jeans - that always help me when I have bad days! Boys, sadly, are idiots, they don't understand life ... and it sucks, because, as you said, they can't take a hint. And you are NOT stupid missy. AT ALL ~ and don't let some standardized test tell you that you are, because its not right. YOU ARE A SMART COOKIE ~ please be confident in that fact. Sometimes life just puts you in a rut and its ok to be there for a while, but you eventually need to take initiative and get yourself out of it; go out on a limb, wear a cute nice outfit to school! What's it going to hurt? :)
To be honest, I think I am in the same rut Wendy is. The musical for my school was this weekend, and it is going great, but it is exhausting, and I am getting sick of some people in the cast that think they are better than everyone else. I am in a weird place with friends right now too. I don't know how to describe it; I love them all, but some of the things that they complain about are so trivial, I sometimes wonder what I saw in them in the first place. And I know this is bad, becasue some of them do have legitimate probelms, but after the year I had (which in retrospect, hasn;t been that bad so I don't know why I phrased it that way) I wonder why it matters if your hair is out of place, or your bag doesn't match your shoes.... it doesn't mean you are having a horrible life. I am so confused in general, I don;t know where I fit in right now, and I really upsets me. So eventhough I try to hide it from my friends, they can tell something is wrong, and while I can't hit it on the head, its there, but it is hard to explain this to my friends, so they just get aggrivated. And I have some frineds that I know are there for me no matter what (but they are only in the muscial with me and we don;t have any classes together, so it is hard to see them, becsaue weekends are so busy for everyone) I don;t even know. Junior year just sucks a lot and I want it to be over, but I did get into National Honor Society (and while that may not be a major achievement, it says that I am doing somethings right.)
Anywho... BLOG!!!! It is 2:37 here so I am exhausted, but I love you all mucho!
Rosanna
The beginning of my post will also be towards Tracy:
I completely agree with Wendy sweetie, something is not right with your realtionship. And I am only saying this becasue I love you and want you to be ok, which you obviously aren't. It really scares me, like Wendy said, that you did turn to drinking (even if it was only once) and that you are so insecure, becasue I want you to be confident with who you are around your friends and significant others. You are an amazing, sweet, bright, intelligent and funny girl. It kills me to know that you are in so much pain, but you still are, and I know that I can't really help you. I want you to be ok, and I want you to be in a healthy realtionship where you don't feel insignificant and belittled, at all. I am sorry if this is being tough on you, but I love you and I want you to know that I am always here, but I back up Wendy's post.
(And I am sorry that I haven't checked my blog sooner...)
There is some kind of abuse in your realtionship, and you NEED to take a step back and regroup. If you are scared that he is going to leave you, so therefore you need to latch on, that worries me (The past is the past and I do think that it will stay there). But nevertheless if he doesn't realize that you are a blessing to his life, he is stupid. The pain that he causes you is not ok, at all. You can't put all of the blame on your self sweetie.
Keep us posted on this, please. You may feel like you are alone, but we are here so you aren't. We got your back!
Ok - to address someother things:
Yeana- How was YAGMCB?!?!?!?! I am sure that you did spectacular!
Wendy- 1. You are not crazy at all. 2. I completely understand the whole drama thing and I am sorry that you are going through it. My advice to you is put on a cardigan and a nice pair of dark wash jeans - that always help me when I have bad days! Boys, sadly, are idiots, they don't understand life ... and it sucks, because, as you said, they can't take a hint. And you are NOT stupid missy. AT ALL ~ and don't let some standardized test tell you that you are, because its not right. YOU ARE A SMART COOKIE ~ please be confident in that fact. Sometimes life just puts you in a rut and its ok to be there for a while, but you eventually need to take initiative and get yourself out of it; go out on a limb, wear a cute nice outfit to school! What's it going to hurt? :)
To be honest, I think I am in the same rut Wendy is. The musical for my school was this weekend, and it is going great, but it is exhausting, and I am getting sick of some people in the cast that think they are better than everyone else. I am in a weird place with friends right now too. I don't know how to describe it; I love them all, but some of the things that they complain about are so trivial, I sometimes wonder what I saw in them in the first place. And I know this is bad, becasue some of them do have legitimate probelms, but after the year I had (which in retrospect, hasn;t been that bad so I don't know why I phrased it that way) I wonder why it matters if your hair is out of place, or your bag doesn't match your shoes.... it doesn't mean you are having a horrible life. I am so confused in general, I don;t know where I fit in right now, and I really upsets me. So eventhough I try to hide it from my friends, they can tell something is wrong, and while I can't hit it on the head, its there, but it is hard to explain this to my friends, so they just get aggrivated. And I have some frineds that I know are there for me no matter what (but they are only in the muscial with me and we don;t have any classes together, so it is hard to see them, becsaue weekends are so busy for everyone) I don;t even know. Junior year just sucks a lot and I want it to be over, but I did get into National Honor Society (and while that may not be a major achievement, it says that I am doing somethings right.)
Anywho... BLOG!!!! It is 2:37 here so I am exhausted, but I love you all mucho!
Rosanna
Hello from Lando! (I'm such a poet.)
Ok, so the beginning of my post will be addressed towards Tracy...but to be quite frank, I am VERY WORRIED about you.
So your whole insecurity about Arthur. When you first told us, I could understand. Everyone gets insecure around the ones they love. But now that you've explained things further...I'm getting a bit suspicious. (Btw, don't take anything I say to heart, I am saying what I have to say because I love you and care about you sooo much). Ok first of all, he says mean things to you. He really does, from what you tell us. Second of all, you've resorted to drinking (I don't care if it's just once) to relieve the pain that he's caused you. You cry all the time about him, and it's evident that you blame yourself f0r all that pain. Honey, I'm just going to be honest here...You're in a mentally abusive relationship. You really are, I can tell. I don't care if he says things to "reassure" you, this whole relationship is not healthy. While you may be overreacting on some aspects (like the whole not calling thing), I really don't think he's treating you well enough. And most of all, I think you love him so much to the point where you don't see any of this. That's the scary part...and trust me, I see this all the time in girls. Please take a step back and look at all the times you've cried because of him, and please don't tell me that all that pain caused was by you!
As for the past, let go of it. He is with YOU not her, so you don't need to worry about it. Nevertheless, I still think that he is not treating you well enough if you are this insecure about your relationship. It's not healthy.
Rosanna and Yeana, please help me out, I'm not crazy am I?
Tracy...just listen to me, take a step back, and look at your relationship as an outsider, as a person who doesn't love her boyfriend as much as you do. Are you really happy? Do you really deserve this crap and all this drama?!
Btw, I am praying for your dad. I know he is a good person, because he has a daughter great like you!
Ok now that I'm done being Dr. Phil (this isn't over, btw)...Hahaha.
So life here has been mellow. IB is killing me, it really is. At least the SATs are over and I can relax for another week or so until I get my scores back...I pray that they are high enough so I don't have to take them AGAIN. I really think I'm stupid.
Anyway, much drama is going on. I have this friend who thinks she's protecting me by pushing me away...and I have two guys whom I have no interest in (but matter a lot to me as good friends) asking me out, constantly. Basically, I can't say no. I just leave them subtle hints but of course boys are stupid and OBLIVIOUS.
In all actuality, I'm not really happy. I don't know why, but I feel life has just been a drag. I wake up dreading school, and I go to school looking like crap. (I seriously haven't worn a decent, cute outfit in months). I don't give a hoot about things anymore and I get worn out by the tiniest things. I need to find that optimistic, happy-go-lucky Wendy again, but she's nowhere to be found.
*sigh*
Help me.
I really miss you guys. I am surrounded by so many immature, pathetic people nowadays that I seriously feel sometimes you guys are the only sane ones in my life...Haha.
Love you all,
WENDY.
So your whole insecurity about Arthur. When you first told us, I could understand. Everyone gets insecure around the ones they love. But now that you've explained things further...I'm getting a bit suspicious. (Btw, don't take anything I say to heart, I am saying what I have to say because I love you and care about you sooo much). Ok first of all, he says mean things to you. He really does, from what you tell us. Second of all, you've resorted to drinking (I don't care if it's just once) to relieve the pain that he's caused you. You cry all the time about him, and it's evident that you blame yourself f0r all that pain. Honey, I'm just going to be honest here...You're in a mentally abusive relationship. You really are, I can tell. I don't care if he says things to "reassure" you, this whole relationship is not healthy. While you may be overreacting on some aspects (like the whole not calling thing), I really don't think he's treating you well enough. And most of all, I think you love him so much to the point where you don't see any of this. That's the scary part...and trust me, I see this all the time in girls. Please take a step back and look at all the times you've cried because of him, and please don't tell me that all that pain caused was by you!
As for the past, let go of it. He is with YOU not her, so you don't need to worry about it. Nevertheless, I still think that he is not treating you well enough if you are this insecure about your relationship. It's not healthy.
Rosanna and Yeana, please help me out, I'm not crazy am I?
Tracy...just listen to me, take a step back, and look at your relationship as an outsider, as a person who doesn't love her boyfriend as much as you do. Are you really happy? Do you really deserve this crap and all this drama?!
Btw, I am praying for your dad. I know he is a good person, because he has a daughter great like you!
Ok now that I'm done being Dr. Phil (this isn't over, btw)...Hahaha.
So life here has been mellow. IB is killing me, it really is. At least the SATs are over and I can relax for another week or so until I get my scores back...I pray that they are high enough so I don't have to take them AGAIN. I really think I'm stupid.
Anyway, much drama is going on. I have this friend who thinks she's protecting me by pushing me away...and I have two guys whom I have no interest in (but matter a lot to me as good friends) asking me out, constantly. Basically, I can't say no. I just leave them subtle hints but of course boys are stupid and OBLIVIOUS.
In all actuality, I'm not really happy. I don't know why, but I feel life has just been a drag. I wake up dreading school, and I go to school looking like crap. (I seriously haven't worn a decent, cute outfit in months). I don't give a hoot about things anymore and I get worn out by the tiniest things. I need to find that optimistic, happy-go-lucky Wendy again, but she's nowhere to be found.
*sigh*
Help me.
I really miss you guys. I am surrounded by so many immature, pathetic people nowadays that I seriously feel sometimes you guys are the only sane ones in my life...Haha.
Love you all,
WENDY.
Sunday, March 14, 2010
REGULAR FONT GOOD, TEENY TINY FONT IS OPTIONAL TO READ
I just want to say thankyou to my lovely ladies. (:
I have seriously neglected our togetherability blog,
and that is NOT legit. ]:
I'm not quite sure what's going on, I feel like part of me is still living my life and acting like me
but when i get home and i'm just by myself, i feel lost?
I avoided the blog 'cause I can't keep anything from you ladies, but I don't even know what's going on inside my head, it feels cluttered.
to yeana&rosanna, G'LUCK WITH YOUR MUSICALS [:
wendyyyy (: TENNIS BEAST.
rosannamomma, hang in there. I'm a bit shaky at the moment, but i'm still here for you.
have you any videos of you singing? [:
alsoalso, oolala Loren Cao (;
HOW'S IT GOING? *WINKWINKPRODPROD*
by the way, I'm working on getting a cardigan <3
wendylove,
in fact. all of you ladies. CHILL OUT. actually, you're probably tired of hearing that. FREAK OUT ALL YOU NEED TO GIRL. it's all good, if you trip from freaking out we'll be here to catch you. you girls are legitimately SMART and will do FINE. if you dont get into the colleges you wanted, s'alright i have unwavering faith that you'll all get into fantastic colleges nonetheless. You all work so hard O ^ O (makes me feel lamer than i already do >__O)
yeanababe,
i worry for haley. you're simply so bright and dazzling that he's probably bewildered thinking that he may have a romantic future with you. If he seems to be under the impression that you like him in a way that you don't, maybe you could drop hints here and there? Tell him how awesome of a friend he is, that he's like a brother perhaps?
you can be evil like me and call him bro- but you may end up like me and hate yourself =_=
thankyou for the birthday wishes ladies <3
i haven't gotten around to responding on facebook > ^ <
i love you all [:
now skippero to the end!
ah, i did what you ladies suggested.
we talked.
earlier that day i had been with a friend and something upsetting happened to her
and she's very dear to my heart
so i started crying for her
the end result?
we cheered each other up (why did i need cheering up? XD)
and later on I teased her by telling arthur that she made me cry
while i was walking to the train station with arthur, he told me somewhat confidently "I've never made you cry [: "
ah. silence on my part.
he never made me cry intentionally ladies
i think I made myself cry?
@_@
goodness. i've been neglected the blog so much that you guys aren't up to date with my psychoness D:
basically...>__>
there's me. and that horrible part of me that I told you all about, the horrible part of me that is scared that he'd fall out of love with me and with his ex girlfriend. 'cause quite honestly, she's gorgeous. And I mean it. She takes beautiful photographs as well. she's got fantastic hair. and she has done what i've always wanted but my parents would possibly probably throw me out- piercings.
I don't quite seem like the type to get facial piercings, but I'm quite fond of certain mangas and thus I grew fond of visual kei, and I wanted a lip ring. well, she has one. and it looks good on her. so now i no longer- well. i don't want to get one because it would remind me- and possibly him- of her.
she was nicknamed(?) pikachu. I can't look at a pikachu anymore without feeling that morbid feeling inside.
i'm scared because she's still in his life, she's like a brother to him
she dumped him. she's amazing. if she were to want him back...?
then i slap myself in the face. don't be silly, right?
i then proceed to hate myself for being so pathetic. /:
all in all? if i weren't so very afraid of her i'd admire her. or maybe i do already.
yes, well
i would reply to his facebook messages
but eventually he stopped replying?
"He just doesn't go on facebook a lot anymore. s'okay."
But when he won't reply to any messages you send, why would he leave paragraph responses to pikachu? ouch ouch ouch
yeah, that night I cried 'cause my idiotic overeactive imagination asked myself what would I do if he didn't care about me anymore. and from there little things attacked my heart as well. He would say that he felt like a pedophile with me since i looked so young sometimes, and he'd shake my hand away- i have to admit, that hurt. is it odd that i wanted for him to show interest in my physically as well? it's like...i wanted him to love me mentally but physically as well. I wanted to feel pretty and well, desirable. Instead, I felt as flat as a board since I lacked the secondary sex characteristics that most females had. this was blow #2 to how i looked, with blow #1 being that I looked 10 yrs old to him. I was unsatifactory, odd as an oddball, honestly a bit stupid (no really. you should see my appalling grades (as in failing math and physics.) compared to his outstanding 95s.) and i hated myself already for being a psycho b*tch girlfriend.
back to way back up there
so i couldn't say that he never made me cry
and to his credit, he noticed my silence
and questioned me
imploring me to tell him what happened
I was scared that he'd be as disgusted with me as I was
but i told him in whispers
expecting him to have a funny look on his face and in the inside he'd be quite annoyed by me.
He didn't have that funny look on his face that I expected him to have. He reassured me that I was loved and my crumbling self was put right back into place.
oh.
by the way.
a (i like to think) close friend of mine along with a supreme biffle of mine introduced me to alcohol.
bad, i know.
but it was in an extremely controlled environment and her parents were actually the one who gave it to her and they were in the next room O__O
what's odd is that
well, i got "wasted".
but what's odd is that after i got home and slept it off I woke up feeling better. It was as if I'd gone through hardcore physical and mental therapy- and no hangover O:
it seems bad,
i think it's bad,
but some people need a little help to say what's bothering them.
I was told that at one point I had started crying hysterically
and i wasn't even aware that this was upsetting me so much
you see, it was midwinter break and I mostly see arthur at school only. he stays home on weekends except for his saturday class in which i would meet him after his class (i have class uptown at the city college) and we take the train home together.
but otherwise he stays home and usually plays video games
that's fine, i love the gamer side of him
and after winter break, i had learned that he would probably not meet me during the upcoming midwinter break /:
one day would've made me happy though, and he said that he wanted to see me as well [:
i was too greedy
let alone one day, I didn't get any contact. no phonecall, no IM, no facebook, no emails. he broke his phone, and he'd rather I didn't call his home phone in case his mom picked up. that means it's up to him to call me. I left him offline IMs, facebook wallposts and an email. I told myself "he's just playing a lot of video games, okay."
my friend asks where's he's been, i tell her "he's probably playing starcraft or MW2 (:"
and she asks "he can't send one lousy email?"
ouch.
so i suppose, that was bothering me
and when my inhibitions were lowered through alcohol i cried it all out, scared that he didn't care.
Ladies, can you bear with this lame side of me? You may say that all girls feel like this, but i feel excessively lame. I'm insecure to the point of annoyance. IT EVEN ANNOYS ME =__=
turns out, he was at his uncles house all break and was busy taking care of his cousins.
so i was overreacting.
but i got home late that night since i needed time to sober up
and my parents were upset that I called home late >__< (&I felt quite horrible for not calling earlier. I had just left my sister a text to tell them, but she doesn't convey messages well =__=)
When my brother questioned me, I told him that I was not in a state to call home, I had been crying.
He asked why.
He heard why.
He got angry.
he also asked why couldn't he give one lousy call.
Ladies, please tell me that it's not his fault. He was at his uncle's house. He was preoccupied. It's alright, right?
& then ladies, quite recently
i saw something that no girlfriend is supposed to see.
He doesn't take photos of himself, he doesn't have a camera. and he'd rather go without a profile picture but he even got rid of the "view photos of" link under the profile picture
but i saw that there's that photos tab beside "wall" on his profile and i felt triumphant that I'd see pictures of how he looked when he had profile pictures, him in the years that I didn't know him
alas.
i found a photo
and looking at the comments
it sounded like it was right after she had broken up with him
and he was telling her how much he was still in love with her.
ouch.
he gave me this necklace for my birthday. And it has a locket inscribed on the back "hamster & tractor" (i am called tractor because a friend of ours meant to type "tracester" in an attempt at a nickname. there was a typo, and there was "tractor". it was so funny to them since apparently i'm not big and awesome like a tractor that they call me that now & he's a hamster 'cause quite honestly if you met him you'd think he was one. except for the fact that he's 6'1 but meh) and on the front it says "The Book of Love"
now this may sound cheesy (cheesy and corny are different, corn is sweet and although sometimes a bit embarrassing it's always welcome to have more sweetness. there are times when you can have too much cheese though) but The Book of Love is a song, a very nice song (:
and he told me that he knows that I get silly and insecure sometimes so he hoped that this would be a reminder
I held on to the necklace when i read those comments.
and i think i'm getting better at this whole insecurity thing.
ah. because it's you ladies
and i feel like i have to unnecessarily bare my soul
and give too much information than you all would probably like XD
I'm so very much in love with this guy.
some would say that this being my first love, i'm just being naiive.
but
at first this is what i also believed.
but the feeling keeps on growing
i've never been angry at him, just upset at myself
we've been together for four months and not a single fight O_O
he keeps me happy when my world is falling apart otherwise.
my dad is making an appeal at the end of march to become a US citizen
chances of success are low
but if he were to succeed then the court date in june will be null and voided.
today i found out what he did that would cause him to be deported/jailed
he didn't quite kill someone
which is good. 'cause he's a good guy, and I think it'd hurt him too much if he had to live with this
oh
but he sure as hell tried to kill someone. they were rather resilient. this was when he was #2 to #1 of a gang
but
he's a good guy.
he really is.
i'm an ugly person though, before he made bail i was happy that he wasn't at home. i still loved him, that was definite but i don't think i can live with him. we clash too much. as in, he makes me cry too much when he drinks and gets upset with me. but that's my fault, i don't do too well in school anymore. I just seem to keep on falling.
on a brighter note, i don't think i'm failing math anymore! (arthur helped me!)
but now, it's physics and chinese(I'M THE WORST CHINESE KID EVER.) that I'm failing
and possibly english because I have that first period but i'm often late since I oversleep a lot):
on an awkward note, a friend of mine told me he had a wet dream about me.
how in the world am i supposed to respond to that?? We've known each other since elementary school and I think he's an okay guy when he's not being a jerkface but that makes him think that it's a good time to confess to me and every now and then I have to go through phases of avoiding him because I rejected him.
He knows it bothers me, I won't even let him flirt with me- I dubbed him my brother and i call him that. He might say "hey sexy" and i will tell him "haha, that's incestuous BRO, stop it."
i'd feel bad for being so horrible to him if it weren't for the fact that every now and then he gets pissed off at me and starts yelling at me about how he wants to kill me.
i'm not kidding, he legitimately scares me sometimes.
he friended arthur on facebook, i wouldn't tell him why but I asked arthur not to get too close to him because when i started going out with arthur, he started saying how he wants to kill him too ):
so if you ladies ever want to talk to me on aim, just IM me!
it's not that i'm not online
i'm probably invisible avoiding him. he's 60% scary and unrelenting with his affections, but 40% a good friend who i can get along with rather well ):
the 60% and the new unnecessary information about his dream are keeping me from talking to him nowadays. i'm horrible.
On a psychotic note, I scare myself sometimes when I'm left alone in my head. I pondered letting myself get hit by a car on saturday not because i wanted to die (i'm not suicidal) but because I was interested as to what would happen. It was a strange moment in which i was out of it. My mom also wants for me to see a doctor and not the kind for checkups. The reason why I don't sleep is 'cause I don't want to go to sleep without completing my homework, which is a good thing. but sometimes i absolutely do not feel like doing my homework so i just sit there zoning out. someone will IM me asking me what I'm doing and what am i supposed to say? "just zoning out"? so i sit there for hours not doing homework, not sleeping.
blogging is healthier. i should do this more often so my posts aren't always obscenely long.
so she says that i don't seem normal sometimes 'cause she sees me falling asleep while i'm eating.
apparently the odd things i say sometimes freak her out too much
and she thinks I need help
oh boy. whether or not I need "help" is not the question, I think it's do i want it?
no, because I don't need it.
i'm not out of the ordinary at all, i just happen to say what i'm thinking more often that others do.
i'm selfish, baw
good thing you skipperoo0-ed all of that nonsense!
tracy.
I have seriously neglected our togetherability blog,
and that is NOT legit. ]:
I'm not quite sure what's going on, I feel like part of me is still living my life and acting like me
but when i get home and i'm just by myself, i feel lost?
I avoided the blog 'cause I can't keep anything from you ladies, but I don't even know what's going on inside my head, it feels cluttered.
to yeana&rosanna, G'LUCK WITH YOUR MUSICALS [:
wendyyyy (: TENNIS BEAST.
rosannamomma, hang in there. I'm a bit shaky at the moment, but i'm still here for you.
have you any videos of you singing? [:
alsoalso, oolala Loren Cao (;
HOW'S IT GOING? *WINKWINKPRODPROD*
by the way, I'm working on getting a cardigan <3
wendylove,
in fact. all of you ladies. CHILL OUT. actually, you're probably tired of hearing that. FREAK OUT ALL YOU NEED TO GIRL. it's all good, if you trip from freaking out we'll be here to catch you. you girls are legitimately SMART and will do FINE. if you dont get into the colleges you wanted, s'alright i have unwavering faith that you'll all get into fantastic colleges nonetheless. You all work so hard O ^ O (makes me feel lamer than i already do >__O)
yeanababe,
i worry for haley. you're simply so bright and dazzling that he's probably bewildered thinking that he may have a romantic future with you. If he seems to be under the impression that you like him in a way that you don't, maybe you could drop hints here and there? Tell him how awesome of a friend he is, that he's like a brother perhaps?
you can be evil like me and call him bro- but you may end up like me and hate yourself =_=
thankyou for the birthday wishes ladies <3
i haven't gotten around to responding on facebook > ^ <
i love you all [:
now skippero to the end!
ah, i did what you ladies suggested.
we talked.
earlier that day i had been with a friend and something upsetting happened to her
and she's very dear to my heart
so i started crying for her
the end result?
we cheered each other up (why did i need cheering up? XD)
and later on I teased her by telling arthur that she made me cry
while i was walking to the train station with arthur, he told me somewhat confidently "I've never made you cry [: "
ah. silence on my part.
he never made me cry intentionally ladies
i think I made myself cry?
@_@
goodness. i've been neglected the blog so much that you guys aren't up to date with my psychoness D:
basically...>__>
there's me. and that horrible part of me that I told you all about, the horrible part of me that is scared that he'd fall out of love with me and with his ex girlfriend. 'cause quite honestly, she's gorgeous. And I mean it. She takes beautiful photographs as well. she's got fantastic hair. and she has done what i've always wanted but my parents would possibly probably throw me out- piercings.
I don't quite seem like the type to get facial piercings, but I'm quite fond of certain mangas and thus I grew fond of visual kei, and I wanted a lip ring. well, she has one. and it looks good on her. so now i no longer- well. i don't want to get one because it would remind me- and possibly him- of her.
she was nicknamed(?) pikachu. I can't look at a pikachu anymore without feeling that morbid feeling inside.
i'm scared because she's still in his life, she's like a brother to him
she dumped him. she's amazing. if she were to want him back...?
then i slap myself in the face. don't be silly, right?
i then proceed to hate myself for being so pathetic. /:
all in all? if i weren't so very afraid of her i'd admire her. or maybe i do already.
yes, well
i would reply to his facebook messages
but eventually he stopped replying?
"He just doesn't go on facebook a lot anymore. s'okay."
But when he won't reply to any messages you send, why would he leave paragraph responses to pikachu? ouch ouch ouch
yeah, that night I cried 'cause my idiotic overeactive imagination asked myself what would I do if he didn't care about me anymore. and from there little things attacked my heart as well. He would say that he felt like a pedophile with me since i looked so young sometimes, and he'd shake my hand away- i have to admit, that hurt. is it odd that i wanted for him to show interest in my physically as well? it's like...i wanted him to love me mentally but physically as well. I wanted to feel pretty and well, desirable. Instead, I felt as flat as a board since I lacked the secondary sex characteristics that most females had. this was blow #2 to how i looked, with blow #1 being that I looked 10 yrs old to him. I was unsatifactory, odd as an oddball, honestly a bit stupid (no really. you should see my appalling grades (as in failing math and physics.) compared to his outstanding 95s.) and i hated myself already for being a psycho b*tch girlfriend.
back to way back up there
so i couldn't say that he never made me cry
and to his credit, he noticed my silence
and questioned me
imploring me to tell him what happened
I was scared that he'd be as disgusted with me as I was
but i told him in whispers
expecting him to have a funny look on his face and in the inside he'd be quite annoyed by me.
He didn't have that funny look on his face that I expected him to have. He reassured me that I was loved and my crumbling self was put right back into place.
oh.
by the way.
a (i like to think) close friend of mine along with a supreme biffle of mine introduced me to alcohol.
bad, i know.
but it was in an extremely controlled environment and her parents were actually the one who gave it to her and they were in the next room O__O
what's odd is that
well, i got "wasted".
but what's odd is that after i got home and slept it off I woke up feeling better. It was as if I'd gone through hardcore physical and mental therapy- and no hangover O:
it seems bad,
i think it's bad,
but some people need a little help to say what's bothering them.
I was told that at one point I had started crying hysterically
and i wasn't even aware that this was upsetting me so much
you see, it was midwinter break and I mostly see arthur at school only. he stays home on weekends except for his saturday class in which i would meet him after his class (i have class uptown at the city college) and we take the train home together.
but otherwise he stays home and usually plays video games
that's fine, i love the gamer side of him
and after winter break, i had learned that he would probably not meet me during the upcoming midwinter break /:
one day would've made me happy though, and he said that he wanted to see me as well [:
i was too greedy
let alone one day, I didn't get any contact. no phonecall, no IM, no facebook, no emails. he broke his phone, and he'd rather I didn't call his home phone in case his mom picked up. that means it's up to him to call me. I left him offline IMs, facebook wallposts and an email. I told myself "he's just playing a lot of video games, okay."
my friend asks where's he's been, i tell her "he's probably playing starcraft or MW2 (:"
and she asks "he can't send one lousy email?"
ouch.
so i suppose, that was bothering me
and when my inhibitions were lowered through alcohol i cried it all out, scared that he didn't care.
Ladies, can you bear with this lame side of me? You may say that all girls feel like this, but i feel excessively lame. I'm insecure to the point of annoyance. IT EVEN ANNOYS ME =__=
turns out, he was at his uncles house all break and was busy taking care of his cousins.
so i was overreacting.
but i got home late that night since i needed time to sober up
and my parents were upset that I called home late >__< (&I felt quite horrible for not calling earlier. I had just left my sister a text to tell them, but she doesn't convey messages well =__=)
When my brother questioned me, I told him that I was not in a state to call home, I had been crying.
He asked why.
He heard why.
He got angry.
he also asked why couldn't he give one lousy call.
Ladies, please tell me that it's not his fault. He was at his uncle's house. He was preoccupied. It's alright, right?
& then ladies, quite recently
i saw something that no girlfriend is supposed to see.
He doesn't take photos of himself, he doesn't have a camera. and he'd rather go without a profile picture but he even got rid of the "view photos of" link under the profile picture
but i saw that there's that photos tab beside "wall" on his profile and i felt triumphant that I'd see pictures of how he looked when he had profile pictures, him in the years that I didn't know him
alas.
i found a photo
and looking at the comments
it sounded like it was right after she had broken up with him
and he was telling her how much he was still in love with her.
ouch.
he gave me this necklace for my birthday. And it has a locket inscribed on the back "hamster & tractor" (i am called tractor because a friend of ours meant to type "tracester" in an attempt at a nickname. there was a typo, and there was "tractor". it was so funny to them since apparently i'm not big and awesome like a tractor that they call me that now & he's a hamster 'cause quite honestly if you met him you'd think he was one. except for the fact that he's 6'1 but meh) and on the front it says "The Book of Love"
now this may sound cheesy (cheesy and corny are different, corn is sweet and although sometimes a bit embarrassing it's always welcome to have more sweetness. there are times when you can have too much cheese though) but The Book of Love is a song, a very nice song (:
and he told me that he knows that I get silly and insecure sometimes so he hoped that this would be a reminder
I held on to the necklace when i read those comments.
and i think i'm getting better at this whole insecurity thing.
ah. because it's you ladies
and i feel like i have to unnecessarily bare my soul
and give too much information than you all would probably like XD
I'm so very much in love with this guy.
some would say that this being my first love, i'm just being naiive.
but
at first this is what i also believed.
but the feeling keeps on growing
i've never been angry at him, just upset at myself
we've been together for four months and not a single fight O_O
he keeps me happy when my world is falling apart otherwise.
my dad is making an appeal at the end of march to become a US citizen
chances of success are low
but if he were to succeed then the court date in june will be null and voided.
today i found out what he did that would cause him to be deported/jailed
he didn't quite kill someone
which is good. 'cause he's a good guy, and I think it'd hurt him too much if he had to live with this
oh
but he sure as hell tried to kill someone. they were rather resilient. this was when he was #2 to #1 of a gang
but
he's a good guy.
he really is.
i'm an ugly person though, before he made bail i was happy that he wasn't at home. i still loved him, that was definite but i don't think i can live with him. we clash too much. as in, he makes me cry too much when he drinks and gets upset with me. but that's my fault, i don't do too well in school anymore. I just seem to keep on falling.
on a brighter note, i don't think i'm failing math anymore! (arthur helped me!)
but now, it's physics and chinese(I'M THE WORST CHINESE KID EVER.) that I'm failing
and possibly english because I have that first period but i'm often late since I oversleep a lot):
on an awkward note, a friend of mine told me he had a wet dream about me.
how in the world am i supposed to respond to that?? We've known each other since elementary school and I think he's an okay guy when he's not being a jerkface but that makes him think that it's a good time to confess to me and every now and then I have to go through phases of avoiding him because I rejected him.
He knows it bothers me, I won't even let him flirt with me- I dubbed him my brother and i call him that. He might say "hey sexy" and i will tell him "haha, that's incestuous BRO, stop it."
i'd feel bad for being so horrible to him if it weren't for the fact that every now and then he gets pissed off at me and starts yelling at me about how he wants to kill me.
i'm not kidding, he legitimately scares me sometimes.
he friended arthur on facebook, i wouldn't tell him why but I asked arthur not to get too close to him because when i started going out with arthur, he started saying how he wants to kill him too ):
so if you ladies ever want to talk to me on aim, just IM me!
it's not that i'm not online
i'm probably invisible avoiding him. he's 60% scary and unrelenting with his affections, but 40% a good friend who i can get along with rather well ):
the 60% and the new unnecessary information about his dream are keeping me from talking to him nowadays. i'm horrible.
On a psychotic note, I scare myself sometimes when I'm left alone in my head. I pondered letting myself get hit by a car on saturday not because i wanted to die (i'm not suicidal) but because I was interested as to what would happen. It was a strange moment in which i was out of it. My mom also wants for me to see a doctor and not the kind for checkups. The reason why I don't sleep is 'cause I don't want to go to sleep without completing my homework, which is a good thing. but sometimes i absolutely do not feel like doing my homework so i just sit there zoning out. someone will IM me asking me what I'm doing and what am i supposed to say? "just zoning out"? so i sit there for hours not doing homework, not sleeping.
blogging is healthier. i should do this more often so my posts aren't always obscenely long.
so she says that i don't seem normal sometimes 'cause she sees me falling asleep while i'm eating.
apparently the odd things i say sometimes freak her out too much
and she thinks I need help
oh boy. whether or not I need "help" is not the question, I think it's do i want it?
no, because I don't need it.
i'm not out of the ordinary at all, i just happen to say what i'm thinking more often that others do.
i'm selfish, baw
good thing you skipperoo0-ed all of that nonsense!
tracy.
Sunday, March 7, 2010
Happy Birthday Tracy!!!!
Tracy~
I hope that you have a lovely birthday!
(Imagine me and Wendy and Yeana singing...)
Happy Birthday to you!
Happy Birthday to you!
Happy Birthday to Tracy (or whatever other name you have La....something?)
Happy Birthday to you!!!!
Mucho Love Sweet pea!
Rosanna
I hope that you have a lovely birthday!
(Imagine me and Wendy and Yeana singing...)
Happy Birthday to you!
Happy Birthday to you!
Happy Birthday to Tracy (or whatever other name you have La....something?)
Happy Birthday to you!!!!
Mucho Love Sweet pea!
Rosanna
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