Hello from Lando! (I'm such a poet.)

Ok, so the beginning of my post will be addressed towards Tracy...but to be quite frank, I am VERY WORRIED about you.
So your whole insecurity about Arthur. When you first told us, I could understand. Everyone gets insecure around the ones they love. But now that you've explained things further...I'm getting a bit suspicious. (Btw, don't take anything I say to heart, I am saying what I have to say because I love you and care about you sooo much). Ok first of all, he says mean things to you. He really does, from what you tell us. Second of all, you've resorted to drinking (I don't care if it's just once) to relieve the pain that he's caused you. You cry all the time about him, and it's evident that you blame yourself f0r all that pain. Honey, I'm just going to be honest here...You're in a mentally abusive relationship. You really are, I can tell. I don't care if he says things to "reassure" you, this whole relationship is not healthy. While you may be overreacting on some aspects (like the whole not calling thing), I really don't think he's treating you well enough. And most of all, I think you love him so much to the point where you don't see any of this. That's the scary part...and trust me, I see this all the time in girls. Please take a step back and look at all the times you've cried because of him, and please don't tell me that all that pain caused was by you!
As for the past, let go of it. He is with YOU not her, so you don't need to worry about it. Nevertheless, I still think that he is not treating you well enough if you are this insecure about your relationship. It's not healthy.

Rosanna and Yeana, please help me out, I'm not crazy am I?

Tracy...just listen to me, take a step back, and look at your relationship as an outsider, as a person who doesn't love her boyfriend as much as you do. Are you really happy? Do you really deserve this crap and all this drama?!

Btw, I am praying for your dad. I know he is a good person, because he has a daughter great like you!

Ok now that I'm done being Dr. Phil (this isn't over, btw)...Hahaha.
So life here has been mellow. IB is killing me, it really is. At least the SATs are over and I can relax for another week or so until I get my scores back...I pray that they are high enough so I don't have to take them AGAIN. I really think I'm stupid.

Anyway, much drama is going on. I have this friend who thinks she's protecting me by pushing me away...and I have two guys whom I have no interest in (but matter a lot to me as good friends) asking me out, constantly. Basically, I can't say no. I just leave them subtle hints but of course boys are stupid and OBLIVIOUS.
In all actuality, I'm not really happy. I don't know why, but I feel life has just been a drag. I wake up dreading school, and I go to school looking like crap. (I seriously haven't worn a decent, cute outfit in months). I don't give a hoot about things anymore and I get worn out by the tiniest things. I need to find that optimistic, happy-go-lucky Wendy again, but she's nowhere to be found.

*sigh*
Help me.

I really miss you guys. I am surrounded by so many immature, pathetic people nowadays that I seriously feel sometimes you guys are the only sane ones in my life...Haha.

Love you all,
WENDY.