Hello Ladies!

Hey Girlies~

The beginning of my post will also be towards Tracy:

I completely agree with Wendy sweetie, something is not right with your realtionship. And I am only saying this becasue I love you and want you to be ok, which you obviously aren't. It really scares me, like Wendy said, that you did turn to drinking (even if it was only once) and that you are so insecure, becasue I want you to be confident with who you are around your friends and significant others. You are an amazing, sweet, bright, intelligent and funny girl. It kills me to know that you are in so much pain, but you still are, and I know that I can't really help you. I want you to be ok, and I want you to be in a healthy realtionship where you don't feel insignificant and belittled, at all. I am sorry if this is being tough on you, but I love you and I want you to know that I am always here, but I back up Wendy's post.
(And I am sorry that I haven't checked my blog sooner...)
There is some kind of abuse in your realtionship, and you NEED to take a step back and regroup. If you are scared that he is going to leave you, so therefore you need to latch on, that worries me (The past is the past and I do think that it will stay there). But nevertheless if he doesn't realize that you are a blessing to his life, he is stupid. The pain that he causes you is not ok, at all. You can't put all of the blame on your self sweetie.
Keep us posted on this, please. You may feel like you are alone, but we are here so you aren't. We got your back!

Ok - to address someother things:

Yeana- How was YAGMCB?!?!?!?! I am sure that you did spectacular!

Wendy- 1. You are not crazy at all. 2. I completely understand the whole drama thing and I am sorry that you are going through it. My advice to you is put on a cardigan and a nice pair of dark wash jeans - that always help me when I have bad days! Boys, sadly, are idiots, they don't understand life ... and it sucks, because, as you said, they can't take a hint. And you are NOT stupid missy. AT ALL ~ and don't let some standardized test tell you that you are, because its not right. YOU ARE A SMART COOKIE ~ please be confident in that fact. Sometimes life just puts you in a rut and its ok to be there for a while, but you eventually need to take initiative and get yourself out of it; go out on a limb, wear a cute nice outfit to school! What's it going to hurt? :)


To be honest, I think I am in the same rut Wendy is. The musical for my school was this weekend, and it is going great, but it is exhausting, and I am getting sick of some people in the cast that think they are better than everyone else. I am in a weird place with friends right now too. I don't know how to describe it; I love them all, but some of the things that they complain about are so trivial, I sometimes wonder what I saw in them in the first place. And I know this is bad, becasue some of them do have legitimate probelms, but after the year I had (which in retrospect, hasn;t been that bad so I don't know why I phrased it that way) I wonder why it matters if your hair is out of place, or your bag doesn't match your shoes.... it doesn't mean you are having a horrible life. I am so confused in general, I don;t know where I fit in right now, and I really upsets me. So eventhough I try to hide it from my friends, they can tell something is wrong, and while I can't hit it on the head, its there, but it is hard to explain this to my friends, so they just get aggrivated. And I have some frineds that I know are there for me no matter what (but they are only in the muscial with me and we don;t have any classes together, so it is hard to see them, becsaue weekends are so busy for everyone) I don;t even know. Junior year just sucks a lot and I want it to be over, but I did get into National Honor Society (and while that may not be a major achievement, it says that I am doing somethings right.)

Anywho... BLOG!!!! It is 2:37 here so I am exhausted, but I love you all mucho!
Rosanna