Hola Chicas!

Hey you guys!

Thank you all for your support, and I am doing better, learing to cope, but the situation just keeps getting worse and worse. I feel like I am in a crowded room screaming at the top of my lungs and no one hears me, no one at all.

So I am still super stressed and super super overwhelmed, but finishing my research paper (as stupid ad it may sound) really took a load off. Honestly, I just felt like a weight lifted off my chest and, for the first time in a long time, I remember smiling. (I know that sounds weird, but its true)

Headaches are still so painful: I hae tried to get about 7 hours of sleep everynight, but the headaches oddly get worse. I am going to the neurologist soon so hopefully they will know something I don't but i have started getting really naseaus and dizzy in school especially and I don;t know what to do.....

MY RANT: (sorry) So my event that I am planning, Harmony for Haiti, is going to happen Saturday the 24th, and honestly, I am excited for it to be over. I am SICK of people taking credit for the stuff that I do and I am so glad it is ending. I basically did this entire thing myself and I wonder if I hadn't signed on as co-chair, what I would do. After all, I have: printed and cut the tickets, made and copied and hung up the posters, wrote the announcement for the school morning news, organized for a commercial to be made to play on the morning (school news), I am making the program, printing, and folding them, I am the head if concessions and let me tell you, its hard trying to get enough donations for 200+ people..., I am stage manager, and I am basically doing all of this by myself. Honestly, I am beside myself with stress about this whole event. And the people that are supposedly co-chairing this event are only being dramatic and taking the credit, 3 of them insit that both their groups MUST do 2 songs, but we made everyone only pick one... and its only because they are co-chairs. I think that is the worst thing that they could think - "we are better than them and can theredore play 2 songs..." WTF?!?!?!? So I am basically being forced to plan this event by myself, and its hard because, while I have planned other events, this is the biggest and most technical one becsaue you need to tlak to the lighting and soind people and make sure that everything runs smoothly and make sure the performers know the order in which they are supposed to go.. and blah blah blah blah blah.

I am tired and cranky... but what's new...?

On a happier note, I have a prom dress and shoes and accessories but I am lacking a date, but I have 2 people in mind that i can ask, no not loren, a senior that is a really good friend (since freshamn year for me) and someone in my grade that I think of as a brother, either way, I know I can;t go wrong because they are such gentlemen....

Ummm why did someone invent AP Exams? Atleast Yeana and Wendy have had since the midpoint/end of August... I started school in the middle of spetember, and my teacher flat out told us he wont get through all the material and its up to us to learn from basically the 60/70s on...

Anywho,
Wendy - I really don;t know what to tell you about your boy situation, I know I have texted with you on this and I don;t know what else to say... but I am here if you need me!

Yeana - I saw all the photos from YAGMCB and it looked so good! I feel like your school puts a lot of emphasis on the arts and it makes me really glad that you are in such a good program! And let me know when you are going to be in the NE!!!

Tracy - thank you for your kind words. I really appreciate it. And i am taking it that your card/gift never got to you? Well, someone got a nice surprise; I am sending down another one and it should be there by next weekend..... :)

So I think I found that I want to go to the College of the Holy Cross.... I am not even kidding. Its so weird becasue I wanted a larger school, but i just have a really good feeling about it. And sadly, with my grandfather's death coinsiding with midterms, I am thinking it will keep me from being admitted, not to metion my SATs weren't so swell...

What's new with all of you? I am sorry for using this blog as my venting source, I really am, but I really don;t feel like I have anyone right now, and I feel like you guys are all I have. I hope you are all doing well!

All my love forever,
Rosie