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This is soo funny....I legit tried to post, but my computer spazzed and wouldn't let me. Thankfully my post was saved...but then I read Wendy's post and started laughing out loud. Honestly.

Well here's my original post:

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I'm feeling really good right now because I'm more than halfway through my AP testing. Just one more on Monday and then I'm free. ^^

Also, the test that I was dreading has passed. (APUSH) I feel like a weight has been lifted from me.

I know we're all busy right now, but just one more week of testing and we're through! Hang in there, babes...

Lately I've been rediscovering the music of Green Day. When I was in middle school I was a huge Green Day fan; my brother listened to them a lot and I came to love their music, especially in 7th grade. But in 8th grade and until now, I sort of stopped listening to them and started exploring other music. It was only a few weeks ago that I remembered that Green Day still existed.

It's actually quite an interesting story...

A few weeks ago the priest at our church was doing a homily(sermon) for the children's mass. The high schoolers and middle/elementary schoolkids were celebrating together that day, so I was there to see this. Anyways, as he explained some of the finer points of the reading that morning, he mentioned a song by Green Day; 21 guns. He proceeded to pull out his iPhone and play the song for us. (Do we have the awesomest priest ever, or what? :] )

It'd been a few years since I'd listened to Green Day, and 21 guns was a new song for me, despite the fact that it had come out last year.

As the song came through the sound system, I remembered exactly why I loved Green Day. Their songs are first, easy to listen to, but more than that, they carry these universal meanings that everyone can relate to. Green Day is different from today's punk bands because they can write beautiful music. Maybe some people wouldn't define it as 'beautiful', but honestly, if you listen to the lyrics (moving past all of the references to drugs and sex that my parents, if they could understand half the song, would find offensive) it has the power to reach deep into your soul and make you feel. 21 guns...is pain.

I'm going through a phase where I'm discovering what feeling is again. My drama teacher always tells us that it's okay to feel things. At first I thought, of course we feel. When we laugh, we're happy. When we cry, we're sad. We all feel, don't we? I didn't really get what she was trying to tell us.

I'm still not completely sure, but I think I'm beginning to understand. We live in a world where apathy is the norm, where teenagers are forced to hide their tears, where people who don't cry are considered strong, where people have to disguise their emotions. I think actors are the only people who are allowed to be expressive and get away with it. This is the life we lead today. Humans are what they are; we have emotions and we need to let them show. But society condemns it all...there's something wrong with the world when a child has to claim she has allergic reactions to something in order to hide her tears, when a guy has to use the same excuse to show that he's not upset about something that would leave a "weaker" person bawling. It's so unhealthy to bottle up emotions, and even though everyone says that, no one really believes in it.

Onstage, we're allowed to feel things. A good actor doesn't act the part; we feel the part. We live the part. The character's emotions become our emotions, and the tears are real. We yell because that's what the character would do, we laugh because that's what they do. We feel.

That's my rant for now. I guess what I'm trying to say is that it's okay to cry, it's okay to feel things. So feel. :]


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And now I will really respond.

Tracy: You'll be fine. Maybe things are hard right now, but they always work out in the end. Don't fret; keep going. :]

Wendy: FUZZIES.

Also, prom. I HAD SO MUCH FUN!!! Max was the best date ever. :]] I think I had more fun because Francis brought Max's friend to prom, so it was like a little Charlie Brown reunion. :D We had dinner at a friend's house (potluck) and took a limo to prom. Unlike Wendy, we arrived really early...something I really liked about the place; they had a chocolate fountain with lots of goodies on the side to dip into the chocolate. Another fun incident; we had to take an elevator from the lobby to get up to the dance floor, and I assumed that it was on the top floor so I pressed the button for the top floor. When the door opened I saw that the dance WASN'T on the top floor...we had come out in the kitchens. After an awkward smile and a quick wave to the chefs, we hurried down to the 2nd floor where we spent the rest of the night.

You will all be receiving pictures in the mail... :]]

APUSH was not an easy test...I know I passed, though. :D I guess that's good enough at present. Wendy, you'll be fine. :] I took my SAT IIs last Saturday. Hopefully they're the last SATs I'll ever have to take...and you are definitely not the only one sitting on your butt going lalala...that's exactly what I'm doing right now. I should be studying for bio...but that can wait til tomorrow. :D

Rosanna I want to hear all about your birthday!!! AND your prom. When is it again?

Missing everyone,
Yeans