I'M RATHER SILLY!

Ladies,
my lovely
lovely
L a d i e s.

I APOLOGIZE, THERE'S A LOT OF TESTING AND STUDYING AND SIMPLY TOO LITTLE TIME IN ONE SILLY LITTLE DAY TO DO EVERYTHING D:
GAH.

I love you ladies.
I had originally planned to never tell him what was wrong 'cause after letting it all out- I felt much better.
But in my planner I had inscribed "either talk about it or man up"
& I talked about it! to you ladies!
but on thursday,
he saw it
and he worried.
ohmeohmys.
and he got frustrated when i absolutely did not want to tell him what had been bothering me
so in a rather fail attempt to keep the mood light-hearted I took the escalator down going two steps at a time (it wasn't moving)
and he started going down the escalator rather fast
and
I fell x__x
I only scraped my leg up a little bit, but some absolute...douches. going up the escalator jeered at him because I had been saying "TOOFASTTOOFAST"
but he was quite frustrated and wasn't paying attention so yeah
but the jeering made him go from frustrated to upset to just mad.
it was strange, he wasn't mad at me he said, but just...mad. So I promised that the next day I would say everything.
So I was quite worried and upset at myself for upsetting him
but the next day everything was really made a-okay.
it was our 6 months- half a year, and it was an inside joke so it was incredibly thoughtful; the boy got me purple tulips.
Though on the train ride home he confronted me again, and feeling thoroughly silly I told him everything and it just...it all worked out.
I'm happy knowing that I will always have those who love me.

so let's address prom?
PROM-ALALALA:
okiedokes, so first of all- yes wendy, my school has seperate proms; one for seniors and one for juniors
you know what?
spend you prom over at New York (closer than california)
senior prom is at the waldorf! yayyyyyyyyyyexpensive v O

ohmans. i went to eat dinner, and i learned about one of those real things in the world that people need to know about.
Here's my area: flushing is to queens sort of like what union square or times square is to manhattan. NOWAIT. IT'S LIKE WHAT CHINA TOWN IS TO MANHATTAN, it's to queens. it's the asian central
we have neighborhoods and such with a billion asians, but this is not only one of the main neighborhoods, it has a lot of the STORES.
I think I was talking to Wonhee once, and he takes the train from connecticut to NY just to go to flushing O__O
There's this girl.
23 years old.
She's smarter than your average bear 'cause she came from China to the US for graduate school, and to do that you first have to pass a language test to show you're proficient in the English language.
She wasn't attending school at the moment because it's damn expensive.
Going home from work in flushing, some mexican hit her over the head with a baseball bat.
Dragged her to some back alley, and raped her.
She was found when people saw the excessive blood in the area and police found her in the back of some alleyway & took her to the hospital.
She's brain dead now. Her parents have to come from China to sign papers allowing the hospital to take her off life support 'cause they obviously can't afford to keep her on it.
They did the rape test on her, and found the bastard who did this to her.
But the worst part?
Flushing is full of people.
People who saw a girl being half dragged by some Mexican guy towards an unpopulated area- and he's holding a baseball bat; she's bleeding from the head.
They're mostly fobs- and i mean the stereotypical kind who don't give a shit for anyone other than themselves;
People who don't care enough to see if anything is wrong, or even to call 911
People who make me cry because if they had only cared a bit, they would've save her life and they would've saved her parents from this immense heart ache.
It's also scary to think that one of these days when I'm going home via flushing (which I do everyday) no one will give a shit if I'm the one being dragged away.

Humanity scares me,
tracy.

yeanababe, are you alright?
if you're good, then everything's dandy- we just worry; you should share your happiness (:
if you're not...then when you're able to; talk to us babe.