YESYESYES.

I'm loving this new wave of posting. :D

So my girls. After reading about all your prom specificalities...do you guys having SEPARATE proms for Junior and Seniors?! Weird...hahah and I feel like I was ripped off at mine. 65 bucks for NO dinner, just some cheesy hor deurves (however you spell that). Huh, interesting. I'm loving the idea of the cruise boat, though! That's great.

Anyway, Yeana I am really glad you had fun at your prom! I also enjoyed reading about your "epiphany" of some sort. :P I can see that you're growing into yourself, and that you are happier these days! (Hmm...correlation between that and AP tests, perhaps? Hmm...)
Rosanna, I am sooo excited for you and Loren!! :P As for your friends, I am glad you have people there to fall back on.
Now Tracyyy. Please let go of your insecurities and just LIVE! I know it is so easy to say, so hard to do...but really. Look at yourself. You are a BEAUTIFUL and CAPABLE young lady. You have the potential to do whatever you want...do not let little high school issues weigh you down. I know how much you love Arthur, but please think about yourself for once. Yes, you guys will have your issues, but do not let them affect you in the long run. You've got a long way to go, my dear. These high school matters will seem trivial once you really begin to live! As for prom, you guys don't have to go. Like you said, having your own little date would be SUPER cute and sweet as well. :D
Don't feel weak when you spill out all your feelings...we're here to make you feel stronger. <3

-----------------------------------------------------

As for me, girls, I am DONE WITH AP TESTING!! ^.^ I cannot believe it, actually. I mean, to think that just a month ago I was crying in my closet, so scared I couldn't handle it all.
Schoolwork has died down as well, and I think I am pretty much golden for the rest of the year. (3 weeks left!!!) Now all I have to worry about are SAT IIs and the ACT in June...they shouldn't be too bad.
So I am definitely less stressed, and I'm loving it! I am happy happy again.

BUT...the same old problems keep on reappearing.
I am beginning to feel more and more left out here...I feel like people don't think I'm "fun" anymore, and therefore do not invite me to do anything. My two closest friends have basically, replaced me with a 17 year old guy (meaning as a best friend, not a crush, lol). They do things together now and never invite me. Is it because they automatically assume I'm busy, or is it just because they don't want to hang out with me? I don't understand.
Walking out of my AP testing room today, I was met by groups and groups of friends clumped together, chatting and whatnot. I did not know which group to join. Or rather, I didn't really have any intentions of wanting to join.
You see, here is my problem. I really dislike Land O' Lakes, and Florida for that matter. I think people here are arrogant and STUPID. Kids here worry about irrelevant topics and the lack of motivation really bugs me. This is WHY I want to leave here so badly. This is WHY I want to attend school up north. And therefore, this is possibly the reason why I have been pushing myself so hard lately. My rationale is, if I work hard, I will be admitted into a good school up north and therefore, be able to separate myself from these idiotic doofs in Lando. I want to just run away and start anew, more than anything.
So is it bad that I feel that way? I feel like sometimes I'm making myself an outsider. Obviously I love my close friends, but even sometimes certain things they say/do just BUG the CRAP outta me. Like our ideals and morals are sometimes completely different. I understand that I going to have that problem with everyoneee, but honestly sometimes I just can't take it anymore.
I guess I really don't mind being left out, but then again I do. One of the few people I can really rely on is Jason from Chinese school, who, oh lookie here, doesn't even live in Land O' Lakes. Hmm I wonder why I like him so much. Hahah. Oh, btw I have been talking and spending time with him a lot recently...you know how my feelings for him have always been kind of up and down? Well, I'm pretty darn sure how I feel about him now...I think he really understands me. Partly because he has a lot of the same goals as I do, and he just knows who I really am. He's relatable and he's INTELLIGENT. I grow attracted to him more and more as the days progress. I am really glad I have him.

I am also really glad I have you guys. I think it's amazing that we're all going through the same things, (ie, prom) but that each of our stories are different.
One day we will be reunited, and that will be the happiest day of my life! :)

Love you all.
WENDY