Dearies

Hello!

In response to your blogs:

Yeana - I do in fact believe that humans can have the ability to sense something, similarly to a 6th sense. I know that when someone I am close to is going through something hard for them, I will just have a feeling I need to text or call them becasue I know something is up. I don;t know if that is what you mean, but that is how I take it. And I want to read/see your script/play!! It is a great idea!

Tracy - I know you are a busy girl, but BLOG!!! I worry about you and I enjoy reading your blogs, i can hear your voice in my head :) What's new?

Wendy - Welcome home!! Unless you are reading this on your trip back. I am glad that you had a fab. time in China, but the US needs you :)

As for me....

Alaska was great, it truely is one of my favorite places I have ever visited (which isn't saying all that much, but nevertheless) I loved it there! It was so nice and the air was crisp and clean, no humidity or anything like that! I have a partial album on facebook if you would like to browse...

As for the daytime, I am now babysitting my butt off, which has its pros and cons, but hey, it is a job, and a good paying one nonetheless!

As for the musical, I am in the production of Once on this Island. It is a good show and this is my second time doing it. A lot of my friend friends are doing it and it is so nice to spend time with them doing what we love. I am just a storyteller, but the understudy for all the female leads.... ahh! :) But, as I am sure all of you know, there are divas in the show. And there is one that I have done community theatre with before and she keeps throwing backhanded comments about my singing to me thinking I won't pick up on them..... ugh, I hate divas, they are so annoying.

I try to keep myself busy to keep my mind off the bad stuff, but it always creeps up.

The day that I returned from Alaska my mom told me that a very very good family friend was diagnosed with Stage 4 Cancer of the stomach and they aren't hopeful of his survivial. They give him a few months, hopefully. If you could just keep him and his family in your thoughts and prayers? It seems it always happens to the nicest and most generous people.
I think, as stupid as it sounds, that it hurts me personally that cancer is taking another person I love away from me. I know that is personalizing it too much, but still. #4 this year.....

And then the friends problems still continue. I have my moments of having a good time and feeling so included, but more often than not, I feel left out and disconnected. I am having a crisis of what to do and no matter the advice I am given or the actions I take based on that advice, it doesn't seem to be getting better. So I am at a loss of what to do. I would rather that these 'friends' just walk up to me and say their grievances and then let us both move forward, but they won't so we can't, and moreso I can't.

But I have finished my college resume, and am on the 3rd draft of my main essay for applications so i am kind of on the way..... I am rethinking everything I think I want to do every day. I want to work with kids but I also want to work with adults, so the only thing that I can come up with is highschool principal, but is that what I want to do? All I know is that I want to be a wife and a mother, but sadly, there is no college major in which that can be accomplished. I will probs double in education and buisness admin. I know, they are opposite and different, but I am just lost on this, and basically everything in life right now........

BLOG!!!

Yeana, i hope volleyball tryouts go well!!

Love you all!
Rosie