Hi from Lando.

Hi ladies!

I've been missing you guys a lot lately. People don't really "get" me down here.
I don't know how to explain this feeling I have right now. I guess it's a feeling of loneliness. Idk, I feel like I don't really have anyone to rely on these days. My friends keep on disappointing me. See, lately I've been focusing a lot on college apps and SAT studying. I keep on telling them, after Jan. 1st, all this hell well be over, and I will be able to relax. Most of them don't get it though, because they're only applying to like, 2 Florida schools, whose due dates are as early as Nov.1. So they're all fine and dandy but I CAN'T do that. I'm applying to like 10 schools, all out of state. They're not applications that I can just slap together; I have to work hard, and I have to make sacrifices. My friends don't understand that. And some of them humiliate me just because I can't hang out on a Friday night. It's ridiculous, and I'm so tired of it. I tell myself that it'll all be worth it at the end, but then I always feel left out or lonely when my friends are out doing whatever, thinking I'm some loner who just studies all night long. I mean, they must think that about me.
I don't know why it affects me, because I know it shouldn't. I know my expectations, my priorities. I want to settle for something much bigger than what most people here would settle for. It's hard getting there, though, and I don't have the support I need.

I don't know, I just feel really emo right now, hahah. I was fine these last couple weeks, until one of my best friends said yesterday that I have a "sad life". That's just...I don't know even what it is.

I don't live a sad life though. I'm very happy. I have a great family, and I actually do something with my life. I have passions and aspirations. I don't just sit around watching Taiwanese dramas all day. I just think it's ridiculous how my friends think that just because I don't have time to party means that my life is "sad".

I need some help, guys. I don't even know what to do anymore. I mean, is all of this even worth it?

Hope to hear you girls soon.

<3 WENDY